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Title: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: E on March 09, 2011, 07:21:28 PM
Post by: E on March 09, 2011, 07:21:28 PM
Ok, so today I'm told two things:
Firstly, a friend of mine whose family I'm out to told me her mom had called be beautiful, a term she usually reserves for particularly attractive girls, and that a friend of her had seen me and gendered me female - actually, she'd been a bit confused, but leaning towards female.
This same friend introduced me to her gaming group once, and told them I was trans. One member of that group asked "Which way?", and when he heard I was MTF he said "Good, 'cause if it was the other way around, she wouldn't have a very good starting point!" :o
So now I'm feeling awfully perky and happy, which is a rare feeling indeed. I mean, I'm still, like, a year pre-HRT, and I have no way to judge my own appearance - when I look in the mirror, I bounce between "I'm actually kinda cute! How come I don't pass automatically to everybody?" and "My god, he looks like a Cro-Magnon! I'm never gonna pass" with seemingly nothing in-between, so I have no way to judge for myself. I also tend to second guess any compliments I get from other people - when I'm gendered female, I always suspect that they read me as male and do so to mock my hair, and if someone compliments me on my appearance I always assume they're lying in order to make me feel better.
In these three cases, however, I have reason to believe that the people who said it, meant it.
So right now I'm feeeling very good about myself and my transition. It will pass in time, but for now, the train has stopped at Happyville ;D !
Sorry - I just felt the need to blurt this out somewhere.
Firstly, a friend of mine whose family I'm out to told me her mom had called be beautiful, a term she usually reserves for particularly attractive girls, and that a friend of her had seen me and gendered me female - actually, she'd been a bit confused, but leaning towards female.
This same friend introduced me to her gaming group once, and told them I was trans. One member of that group asked "Which way?", and when he heard I was MTF he said "Good, 'cause if it was the other way around, she wouldn't have a very good starting point!" :o
So now I'm feeling awfully perky and happy, which is a rare feeling indeed. I mean, I'm still, like, a year pre-HRT, and I have no way to judge my own appearance - when I look in the mirror, I bounce between "I'm actually kinda cute! How come I don't pass automatically to everybody?" and "My god, he looks like a Cro-Magnon! I'm never gonna pass" with seemingly nothing in-between, so I have no way to judge for myself. I also tend to second guess any compliments I get from other people - when I'm gendered female, I always suspect that they read me as male and do so to mock my hair, and if someone compliments me on my appearance I always assume they're lying in order to make me feel better.
In these three cases, however, I have reason to believe that the people who said it, meant it.
So right now I'm feeeling very good about myself and my transition. It will pass in time, but for now, the train has stopped at Happyville ;D !
Sorry - I just felt the need to blurt this out somewhere.
Title: Re: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: azSam on March 09, 2011, 07:34:18 PM
Post by: azSam on March 09, 2011, 07:34:18 PM
I'm so happy for you E! That's fantastic. Have you posted any pictures on here?
Title: Re: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: E on March 09, 2011, 07:43:32 PM
Post by: E on March 09, 2011, 07:43:32 PM
Quote from: SamanthaFLA on March 09, 2011, 07:34:18 PMThank you :) .
I'm so happy for you E! That's fantastic. Have you posted any pictures on here?
Yes, on the picture thread over in the MTF subforum of Just For Us. And they stay there, alright?
Mine should be the first post in this link:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,80658.460.html (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,80658.460.html)
Keep in mind, that post is half a year old.
Title: Re: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: Mara on March 09, 2011, 07:48:25 PM
Post by: Mara on March 09, 2011, 07:48:25 PM
Ah, so the train stopped in Happyville? *sabotages train* Looks like you're stranded now. :D
Title: Re: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: Caith on March 10, 2011, 06:54:24 AM
Post by: Caith on March 10, 2011, 06:54:24 AM
/me disassembles train, insures sabotage results are permanent. :laugh:
Happyville is a good place. Stay a little longer.
Happyville is a good place. Stay a little longer.
Title: Re: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: Debra on March 10, 2011, 02:01:08 PM
Post by: Debra on March 10, 2011, 02:01:08 PM
Yay. Validation, doesn't it feel sooooo good? =)
Title: Re: Feeling good about my appearance
Post by: MarinaM on March 10, 2011, 02:06:04 PM
Post by: MarinaM on March 10, 2011, 02:06:04 PM
Quote from: Caith on March 10, 2011, 06:54:24 AM
/me disassembles train, insures sabotage results are permanent. :laugh:
Happyville is a good place. Stay a little longer.
*hires someone to take out the tracks
Come on down to the cafe, honey. We got all the sugary, caffeine filled happiness you need. And if you don't like that we can stir you something up. Hahaha!