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Title: I hate my Life!
Post by: Wild Flower on March 26, 2011, 11:10:53 AM
Post by: Wild Flower on March 26, 2011, 11:10:53 AM
I really hate my life, and it's because I am stuck in this body that I don't want to be. I know there's transsexual women who felt the same as I do, but a lot of them commit suicide too (I heard 75% the last time I check). All the transsexuals here that survived are pretty strong, no matter who looks passable or not, but even living is an act for that.
I hate that I am fat, my jaw, eyebrows, and nose are too masculine, and that my voice is deep, I don't think I could survive this reality much longer if I stay this way for another decade or so.
And I don't want to lose my online fiance either, since he means everything to me, but he thinks of me as a man.
I am venting obviously, so don't take too much time to give me advice, since I don't know where I am going to head today or tomorrow.
I hate that I am fat, my jaw, eyebrows, and nose are too masculine, and that my voice is deep, I don't think I could survive this reality much longer if I stay this way for another decade or so.
And I don't want to lose my online fiance either, since he means everything to me, but he thinks of me as a man.
I am venting obviously, so don't take too much time to give me advice, since I don't know where I am going to head today or tomorrow.
Title: Re: I hate my Life!
Post by: VeryGnawty on March 26, 2011, 01:46:39 PM
Post by: VeryGnawty on March 26, 2011, 01:46:39 PM
I used to hate my life, too. Fortunately, I have upgraded my condition to a general feeling of drudging unpleasantness.
Title: Re: I hate my Life!
Post by: LadyTeresa on March 26, 2011, 01:56:24 PM
Post by: LadyTeresa on March 26, 2011, 01:56:24 PM
I've never been as bad off as you that I hated my life. I do, however, know that I'm a LOT happier since I've started transitioning than I've ever been at any time in my life. Well, the hormones made me happier. I wish you good luck and much happiness with whatever path you take.
Teresa
Teresa
Title: Re: I hate my Life!
Post by: Arch on March 26, 2011, 02:47:43 PM
Post by: Arch on March 26, 2011, 02:47:43 PM
Even little changes can make a big difference in your outlook. It doesn't have to be transition. As long as you take a little control over your life.
Before I came out for the last time, I was so passive and hopeless. Over the next couple of years, I took small, positive steps to get where I wanted to be. I'm still learning, and some days are a real struggle. But doing something is better than doing nothing. That's what works for me, anyway.
Hope you feel better soon. And vent anytime you like. We'll listen.
Before I came out for the last time, I was so passive and hopeless. Over the next couple of years, I took small, positive steps to get where I wanted to be. I'm still learning, and some days are a real struggle. But doing something is better than doing nothing. That's what works for me, anyway.
Hope you feel better soon. And vent anytime you like. We'll listen.
Title: Re: I hate my Life!
Post by: Joelene9 on March 26, 2011, 04:04:20 PM
Post by: Joelene9 on March 26, 2011, 04:04:20 PM
Quote from: Wild Flower on March 26, 2011, 11:10:53 AMThat was me before HRT, hang in there, things get better. Hugs,
I don't know where I am going to head today or tomorrow.
Joelene
Title: Re: I hate my Life!
Post by: annette on March 26, 2011, 08:19:32 PM
Post by: annette on March 26, 2011, 08:19:32 PM
I can't add more than Joelene
Things are going to be better.
The voice is to improve by three things
practicing, practicing and practicing, do the exercises and keep doing them.
It won't work in a day or a week but it will work.
Maybe you can do something with the exercising from you tube.
There is a serie of movies from samanthaFLA.
she uses male and female voices to show how you can change the voice.
If you find your looks are too masculine, you need to be a smart girl with make up.
Everybody has something ugly and beautifull in the face, do your make up in the way that your pretty things like eyes or lips are more prominent.
People will notice that as first.
If nothing seem to help you enough you can find a surgeon for frs, there are so much possibilities.
You hate it you're fat, okay, do something about it, eat lesss meat and more vegetables, do some sport, just like walking everyday or a work out, you can do that at home.
As you will notice, also this won't work in a day but, it works sooner or later.
Yes honey, it's hard working with transition but with a bit of luck and persisting there will be a beautifull woman looking at you in the mirror.
Don't give up sweety, never give up, fight for your dreams to come true.
hugs
annette
Things are going to be better.
The voice is to improve by three things
practicing, practicing and practicing, do the exercises and keep doing them.
It won't work in a day or a week but it will work.
Maybe you can do something with the exercising from you tube.
There is a serie of movies from samanthaFLA.
she uses male and female voices to show how you can change the voice.
If you find your looks are too masculine, you need to be a smart girl with make up.
Everybody has something ugly and beautifull in the face, do your make up in the way that your pretty things like eyes or lips are more prominent.
People will notice that as first.
If nothing seem to help you enough you can find a surgeon for frs, there are so much possibilities.
You hate it you're fat, okay, do something about it, eat lesss meat and more vegetables, do some sport, just like walking everyday or a work out, you can do that at home.
As you will notice, also this won't work in a day but, it works sooner or later.
Yes honey, it's hard working with transition but with a bit of luck and persisting there will be a beautifull woman looking at you in the mirror.
Don't give up sweety, never give up, fight for your dreams to come true.
hugs
annette