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Title: Hi all
Post by: Josie06 on January 26, 2007, 12:28:50 PM
Post by: Josie06 on January 26, 2007, 12:28:50 PM
Hi, I'm new here. Well anywhere really. I have know I was a woman all my life, just had the misfortune to be born male. Old story, huh.
Well for me it is sooo true. I knew at around 5 years of age that my body wasn't right. I was a girl. I wanted to be a girl. I would play almost exclusively with the girls, use their lunch line and admired so much the pretty clothes they got to wear. When we played we almost always played 'house' and I was the Mommy, it just felt right. If it was 'doctor', well you guessed it I was the nurse. {laying 'house' was so much fun as my Mom and my playmates Mom let us dress up in their clothes. Walking in heels was exciting and natural.
As I got older I found nylons to be the most exquisite item I could put on my body. With dress, nylons and heels I was a woman and did pass during my pre-teen and teen years. It was exhilaratingly to be dressed as I knew I should be. It was also comfortable and relaxing just to be me and not pretend to be a boy. From 5 years on till to day I knew my body was wrong and I still dislike my 'plumbing'.
Around 20 or so my Mother told me that I must be the boy I was born and would have to do that regardless. Well I did and to do it I created a male personae that last to this day. I'm now 55, married with children. Although over many years I struggled and wrestled within myself over denying myself. About 12 years ago I just had my revelation and became at peace with myself.
My mind, my spirit, my heart and my soul were a woman's ... that was crystal clear. No more discussion or fighti or denying necessary. Although I am "out" only in a few places, this board included, I am happy to learn and bide my time. As I said I am married with children and although my wife keeps busy with the kids and her things she never comments or wants to know about my life. My children on the other hand (three over 18 and one under) sometimes chuckle and tell me about my feminine mannerism. They'll comment on how I sit with my legs together or crossed at the knee, or my soft spoken 'girl' voice or the 'swishy-swayey' way I'll sometimes walk.
Truth be told at this point in time my needs and desires do not make the priority list, I'll just have to wait.
Well for me it is sooo true. I knew at around 5 years of age that my body wasn't right. I was a girl. I wanted to be a girl. I would play almost exclusively with the girls, use their lunch line and admired so much the pretty clothes they got to wear. When we played we almost always played 'house' and I was the Mommy, it just felt right. If it was 'doctor', well you guessed it I was the nurse. {laying 'house' was so much fun as my Mom and my playmates Mom let us dress up in their clothes. Walking in heels was exciting and natural.
As I got older I found nylons to be the most exquisite item I could put on my body. With dress, nylons and heels I was a woman and did pass during my pre-teen and teen years. It was exhilaratingly to be dressed as I knew I should be. It was also comfortable and relaxing just to be me and not pretend to be a boy. From 5 years on till to day I knew my body was wrong and I still dislike my 'plumbing'.
Around 20 or so my Mother told me that I must be the boy I was born and would have to do that regardless. Well I did and to do it I created a male personae that last to this day. I'm now 55, married with children. Although over many years I struggled and wrestled within myself over denying myself. About 12 years ago I just had my revelation and became at peace with myself.
My mind, my spirit, my heart and my soul were a woman's ... that was crystal clear. No more discussion or fighti or denying necessary. Although I am "out" only in a few places, this board included, I am happy to learn and bide my time. As I said I am married with children and although my wife keeps busy with the kids and her things she never comments or wants to know about my life. My children on the other hand (three over 18 and one under) sometimes chuckle and tell me about my feminine mannerism. They'll comment on how I sit with my legs together or crossed at the knee, or my soft spoken 'girl' voice or the 'swishy-swayey' way I'll sometimes walk.
Truth be told at this point in time my needs and desires do not make the priority list, I'll just have to wait.
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: Sarah Louise on January 26, 2007, 12:37:55 PM
Post by: Sarah Louise on January 26, 2007, 12:37:55 PM
Welcome to Susan's. I hope you enjoy yourself here and take advantage of the resources that are available.
Sarah L.
Sarah L.
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: Brittany on January 26, 2007, 01:04:01 PM
Post by: Brittany on January 26, 2007, 01:04:01 PM
Welcome, I'm relatively new here myself. Like you, I've known for pretty much ever (since some of my first memories) that I'm not actually male, regardless of what the equipment downstairs might suggest to the contrary. Other than the times, my story sounds a lot like yours, with the addition of crossdressing being absolutely forbidden to me since...pretty much, ever. Also, my family is decidedly NOT understanding.
In any case, I'm glad to meet you! From what I've seen, this is a great community, and you should really like it here. :)
In any case, I'm glad to meet you! From what I've seen, this is a great community, and you should really like it here. :)
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: Suzy on January 26, 2007, 01:10:30 PM
Post by: Suzy on January 26, 2007, 01:10:30 PM
A big welcome to Susans! You will find uderstanding and friendship here.
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Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: tinkerbell on January 26, 2007, 01:20:00 PM
Post by: tinkerbell on January 26, 2007, 01:20:00 PM
Hello Josie and welcome to Susan's!
Thank you for your introduction. Please take a second to get familiar with the site, review the site rules and explore our wonderful resources such as the wiki and reference library which contain plenty of valuable information.
We look forward to your future posts and participation. Enjoy your stay!
tinkerbell :icon_chick:
Thank you for your introduction. Please take a second to get familiar with the site, review the site rules and explore our wonderful resources such as the wiki and reference library which contain plenty of valuable information.
We look forward to your future posts and participation. Enjoy your stay!
tinkerbell :icon_chick:
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: Jillieann Rose on January 26, 2007, 11:12:32 PM
Post by: Jillieann Rose on January 26, 2007, 11:12:32 PM
Hi Josie,
Glad to meet you. I'm 56 and just within the last month have made peace within. Like you I'm a female but my flesh (body) is male. I feel think and act female and am no longer worried about what others think.
I have 3 sons and am proud to be called a husband, father, and grandfather.
Josie welcome to Susan's.
:)
Jillieann
Glad to meet you. I'm 56 and just within the last month have made peace within. Like you I'm a female but my flesh (body) is male. I feel think and act female and am no longer worried about what others think.
I have 3 sons and am proud to be called a husband, father, and grandfather.
Josie welcome to Susan's.
:)
Jillieann
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: Robyn on January 27, 2007, 09:35:51 PM
Post by: Robyn on January 27, 2007, 09:35:51 PM
Welcome, Josie.
There are many of us here who transitioned late in life; so don't give up hope. I had SRS on my 63rd birthday, and my husband, after his 58th.
Lots of info and friendship here. Check out our Wikipedia and Links. And stop by Chat to meet many of us real time.
Robyn
Washington and Hawaii
There are many of us here who transitioned late in life; so don't give up hope. I had SRS on my 63rd birthday, and my husband, after his 58th.
Lots of info and friendship here. Check out our Wikipedia and Links. And stop by Chat to meet many of us real time.
Robyn
Washington and Hawaii
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: HelenW on January 27, 2007, 11:06:32 PM
Post by: HelenW on January 27, 2007, 11:06:32 PM
Welcome, Josie!
I hope your visits to Susan's help you as much as I've been since I started posting here.
again, WELCOME ! ! :)
helen
I hope your visits to Susan's help you as much as I've been since I started posting here.
again, WELCOME ! ! :)
helen
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: jamie lee on January 28, 2007, 09:14:36 PM
Post by: jamie lee on January 28, 2007, 09:14:36 PM
Hi Josie welcome to Susan's I too I'm in my early 50's. You'll find many good people, and great information here !
Jamie
Jamie
Title: Re: Hi all
Post by: Steph on January 29, 2007, 06:08:39 AM
Post by: Steph on January 29, 2007, 06:08:39 AM
Let me add my welcome to the others. I'm sure that you are going to enjoy your stay with us as there is lots to see and do. Don't be afraid to participate in the forums as that's what this site is all about. You will find our members to be open and honest and only too willing to help and advise where they can. So with that, enjoy your stay and relax you're among friends.
Steph
Steph