Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Ellieka on June 08, 2011, 11:36:02 AM Return to Full Version

Title: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Ellieka on June 08, 2011, 11:36:02 AM
It's true.

I've been a member her for quite some time, approaching 4 years now I think. So many of the veteran members here helped me so much when I was first starting out  and quite possibly I would not be where I am today without some of you. So much support and advice sought and received over the years that I could never forget the people here.

I did my best to give back for awhile but over the last two years I've just kind of faded from the scene. This is unforgivable. Just because I have attained most of my goals is no reason to stop giving back to the community that his given me so much. So with many apologies I will try to be as helpful to others as others have been to me.

To those of you who don't know me, I'm Cami. HRT for 4 years, full time since 2009, working in stealth only out to my closest friends in my personal life. I have been so blessed with so much and I have learned so much that I think it's required of me to share what I can. I don't know everything or have an answer for every question but I will do my honest best to give what I can.

My experiences are:

I've been married and divorced, started transition on the job and got "laid of", Worked openly as trans and ultimately got fired for it, worked openly as trans and was accepted and loved for it. Worked in stealth (now) and find it much easier... Dated guys, been intimate with a couple, tried to be a lesbian but failed. Going to school, only out to staff who need to know. Been on the on again off again roller coaster ride of stopping and starting hormones. Had laser... made some very bad fashion choices. And nearly been killed for not telling a guy I was dating before it got to far.

I've had to deal with loosing family and so called friends but in the end I have been blessed with a new family that has taken me as one of their own and I have made some new wonderful friends.

But in the end I am living the dream and even my worst days now are still better then my best days were before. Their really is light at the end of the tunnel (or top of the tree trunk for you gentlemen here... you know what I mean   ;) )

If you know who and what you are please don't ever give up on the dream because it is so worth it. If you're still trying to figure it out, ask questions.  If your feeling discouraged, sad, or lonely reach out because there are people here who really care. And if you really need a good laugh... ask to see some of my early stage transition pictures... I look at them now a think... "WTF were you snorting girlfriend?"

Oh! and if you wanna wear white shoes after laborday you go right ahead and do so... jut don't wear heels with sweat pants... thats just tacky. :p

Love Cami. <3
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Ann Onymous on June 08, 2011, 11:47:23 AM
Quote from: The Original Cami on June 08, 2011, 11:36:02 AM
It's true.

I did my best to give back for awhile but over the last two years I've just kind of faded from the scene. This is unforgivable. Just because I have attained most of my goals is no reason to stop giving back to the community that his given me so much. So with many apologies I will try to be as helpful to others as others have been to me.

Not sure I agree with 'unforgiveable.' 

At no point in the process is there a check-box that one agrees to hang around after obtaining the brass ring.  And this is as true in the internet age as it was when I went through everything (ok, well, yeah we had some really limited dial up BBS services back then, but not the interwebz like we think of them now).

Life as an individual takes precedence above all else...
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Ellieka on June 08, 2011, 11:54:09 AM
Kinda like the "take a penny, leave a penny" dish at the gas station... No I don't have to but it's nice to do so. :)
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: JungianZoe on June 08, 2011, 11:59:15 AM
Quote from: The Original Cami on June 08, 2011, 11:54:09 AM
Kinda like the "take a penny, leave a penny" dish at the gas station... No I don't have to but it's nice to do so. :)

Nice, but like Ann said (though I'm slightly paraphrasing), we should never apologize for living our lives if we have nothing to apologize for. ;D  We all have our refractory periods where we have to find answers within, and though they may be construed as selfish by others, they're much healthier than always seeking answers outside of ourselves.  Anyone who finds that selfish knows little about looking inward.

So be kind to yourself, and welcome back! :)
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Sephirah on June 08, 2011, 12:00:38 PM
*waves* I remember you, honey. :)

There's no obligation around here, that's true, but hey... friends are friends and you never really forget those who touched your life and whose lives you touched in return. :) It's great to see you again. *hug*
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Lady_J on June 08, 2011, 10:07:06 PM
Hi Cami.  You made me choke on my tea with those fashon tips!  I do have to disagree about heels and sweatpants though.  They're all the rage when shopping in Walmart.   :laugh:
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Chrissy on June 09, 2011, 07:09:52 AM
Quote from: The Original Cami on June 08, 2011, 11:36:02 AM
If you know who and what you are please don't ever give up on the dream because it is so worth it. If you're still trying to figure it out, ask questions.  If your feeling discouraged, sad, or lonely reach out because there are people here who really care. And if you really need a good laugh... ask to see some of my early stage transition pictures... I look at them now a think... "WTF were you snorting girlfriend?"

Hi Cami,

You are an inspiration to me, I give up every day seeing the obstacles both in my physical appearance and the thought of losing everything/everyone.  The only thing I know from an early age is that I want to be female.

I need a good laugh.
Chrissy

Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Ellieka on June 09, 2011, 10:37:18 AM
Oh yes ! hooker heels and spandex with a cutoff T-shirt is all the rave at Walmat! :p

And Chrissy, don't give up hun. The road can be so hard and rocky some times but it is always worth the journey. Ya just got to keep the wheels rolling and accept detours along the way but you will get there if you are determined. Took me 32 years to learn that.
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: tekla on June 09, 2011, 11:49:09 AM
hooker heels and spandex with a cutoff T-shirt is all the rave at Walmat!

http://www.peopleofwalmart.com/ (http://www.peopleofwalmart.com/)

Apparently that's true.
Title: Re: I have been so selfish...
Post by: Ellieka on June 17, 2011, 07:23:53 AM
LMAO! I've missed you Tekla!