Since coming out i've been on a rollercoaster ride of emotions, at first I was over the moon at how accepting my friends were, my mother has admitted that she's struggling to come to terms with this but will never let it come between us so I consider myself to be very lucky.
Unfortunately it's not been all good, i've been turned down for laser hair removal by a few private medical groups because of my exczema, when I was turned down by the first group it upset me so much that I walked home in tears & resumed smoking after 2 years of being smoke free.
The first couple of times I went out as a woman I didn't get any serious negative responses (I even had a few cars beep their horns at me & had a taxi driver spend more time looking at my legs than the road), since then however i've had a fair bit of verbal abuse whilst being out & i've now reached the point where I wont go out as a woman, once i've had my facial hair removed i'll resume going out as a woman but daily shaving is making my exczema dry out terribly, the skin on my face is constantly flaking & no amount of moisturiser sorts the problem so I can't use make-up to cover the 5 o'clock shadow right now.
I first saw my GP 6 months ago & after about a month I had my first phsyciatrists assesment & all i've recieved since then is a letter from London confirming that i've been refered but they have to wait for my PCT to approve funding, every day I check my letterbox filled with hope that a letter will arrive telling me that things can get moving & every day my hopes are crushed.
When I removed my make-up & nail polish on sunday night in preperation for returning to work the next day I felt so miserable that I almost didn't bothering setting my alarm for work the next day, I can only describe my mental state at that point as "what's the point in carrying on"
I've also had to deal with a person who claimed to be a friend starting a facebook group designed to poke fun at me & what i'm going through, fortunately i've never trusted him much so this wasn't a crushing blow (or much of a suprise).
He's always been a narrow minded moron so his opinion isn't going to hinder me at all but it did have me wound up for a week.
I think the thing that has gotten to me the most is the waiting, now that i've come out i'm unable to tell myself the lies that have gotten me through the last 30 years of living with this, I wouldn't mind if I recieved an appointment for 6 months away as at least then I would know that something is happening but right now I feel as if i've been stuck on a shelf & forgotten about, if I havn't recieved any news by the end of the week i'll chase up the London clinic just to let them know that I will not go quietly into oblivion
i'm terribly sorry to hear what you're going through. have you tried steroid creams or immunosuppressants? i had a skin virus similar to eczema that i picked up while i was here. the doctor prescribed a steroid cream and it cleared up after a week. whenever i see a hint of it again, i put the cream back on and it's dramatically improved my skin.
i hope this helps!