since the very first time i came to Susan's place on the 18Th January 2010 (dosent time just fly by....)
i have moved area and asked my doctor for hormone tablets who then refer-ed me the the mental health team and had my 10 assessment and he wrote to my GP and asked my GP to refer me to charring cross hospital in London and in tern he has don a report on me and have it all in my binder.
now in north London... times are hard... money and jobs are scarce.
being trans in north London has been met with ridicule and under the breadth muttering and snigering and giggling.
i have had a fight with my mum and we will never speak to each other again.
i self refer-ed myself to mind for people with mental health problems and i feel the government are trying to save money in drastic ways ever thought of .
the old people were classed as grave dodgers and seems the mental health people who have no ability to offer services to the pound may be CUT.
it seems the people who have national insurance numbers have been turned into battery hens.
being trans and always a miss fit in society as i never really fitted in properly who is long term unemployed but qualified very very nicely but that don't count for squat if you don't get passed the personal side to the employer.
on a positive note though..... i passed my theory teas and the hazard perception test for my P.C.V.....YAAAAAY
aaaaaaaaaaaand i have learned to NIT.... whoop whoop....
Aand i have bought aaaallll the dresses and makeup and all the rest of it THAT I ever wanted AND got to hear the most wonderfull news i could have ever expected to hear from America that gay people can get MARRYED.
oooooooooooooooo mmmmmmmmmmmmmm ggggggggggggggg
seems that America has pulled its self togeather than i could ever thought they could get passed the old ways of racist and homophobia.... it seems now that England has just slipped into the dark ages.
but knowing England.... they will be brutal in its efforts to come on par.....
the cost will be what ever it takes.
same as me in my efforts to play catch up on my carear.....
i have been SO long unemployed and have not payed enough national insurance to qualify for my pension (if the is such a thing soon)
but that dont mean i have been lazy....OOOOHHHH NOOOOOO....not by a long shot.
i have made every effort to make a go of this life and to pay for the reassignment myself... but now i understand that coming out into the public to ask for help has put me in the public eye and now everyone knows.....
there is nothing mooore public than the NHS....is what i over heard.
i don't know if you agree or dis agree.
i wanted to go private and quietly slip away from the old me which is me but wasn't .
well... now the bomb has landed squarely on my head... oh well.
yes I'm a trans sexual and now you know.... sooooo .... whats for tea?
i don't regret it..... i just wish you could see that from all the people you dis and destroy and manipulator;ate and push into the dirt is the tax payer you desperately need to recover this country of England.
its because the old way of life and the old way of thinking has gone....
the world has now become a Multi cultural world where we are aaaaalllll different and mixed blooded and this that and the other.
well.... I'm off to cuddle my Teddy and drink a cup of coffee whilst browsing my face book account....
hugs everyone who wants one.
and if you don't want a hug... than you can have a smile instead....
t.t.y.a.l
I don't know how to respond to that, so I will smile and nod.
not to worry.. no one understands me better than me.... just me letting go of stress.
I read it, and understand somewhat...where I live (Seattle WA USA) it's a bit better for trans-people.
Hope England and NHS come thru for you.
*hugs*
well....the gender identity clinic after doing months of therapy to find underlining mental health issues i have had a waiting time for the first appointment and after the first appointment,,, i was not happy... the second appointment was with a second doctor.... again... i wasn't happy... i made a complaint about the system... both doctors asked me the exact same questions as each other did and all the questions asked were in the assessment report from the therapist.
in the time it takes for the next appointment of just sitting around watching time pass bye... all the blood tests were done and all came back fine.
i was starting lazer therapy with my fave first.
omg... that totally hurt like hell but kinda got better as time went by.
i have had 5 treatments of lazer therapy and i can feel the difference....
its not tottaly gone but its an improvement.
after putting in a complaint to PALS about what i was witnessing at charring cross.... i got a vaig ...nothing explained ... still in the dark as to what's going on and why... no feed back other than i have complex issues.... well... i have never heard such sh1t....
they never went into details as to what the issues are....
they are going to give me the documents i asked for the next time i see them and i guess they will not give me the hormone eather.... this is beginning to get on my tits some what after all the time working with them and seeing nothing but criticism...
the web site was rubbish for info.
i have had toroute around for good genuine information and resorses.
i really should have gone private as the NHS has been ridicules .
the criteria from changing name and documents to living full time and all the rest of it is all done and documented but the employment issue is still an issue.
im still unemployed.
if i was employed... i would not be under the NHS but going private
well... the homophobia and trans phobia in north London has been shuddering ridicules .
the black community have been as unforgivable as ever.... so darn right nastiness...
the riots and respect for each other is non existent... its give them a millameter and you are dun for.
i will demand hormones befor christmas.
timeis flowing by and all i see is doctors prodding and pking... timefoe some action.