I'm sorry about posting about this repeatedly. I am simply scared at the moment, and usually when I talk about my problems I feel better about things.
I'm constantly thinking about what next step to take and how to present myself. As of now, I had laser just 2 day ago and am waiting for the hair to fall off to see the results, I hope
I will have finished off with most of my upper lip which is the main thing preventing me from passing. If not, I have more laser scheduled next month.
Next, perhaps I will wait for HRT to work on me a bit more, but I shouldn't postpon having a feminine presentation at university because I want to graduate with a female name! I hope
to gather a support group and hang at class with them so I am not berated or harassed by my classmates and strangers at university and one day simply arrive with a fully feminine presentation.
I am ready for nearly everything, I am just waiting on the right moment. I am nervous, but at the same time waiting eagerly for the day to arrive.
Sounds a pretty exciting time for you.
So looking forward to hearing how it goes.
So, I'm taking it in small steps.
Today I went to work with feminine oxford shoes, a bit of jewelry and makeup. Since I am slowly introducing everyone to these changes (and the most drastic ones are set on my face) no one looked weird at me. No comments, nothing. It was as if they all expected it
Next step will be dressing very androgynous for a party we have this wed. My face is still recovering from laser, sadly.
University is a great place to transition. Have you changed your name? After you do, have everone use your correct name is nice.
I haven't changed it yet :( I spoke with a lawyer already though. Majorly, I am waiting for laser to remove more facial hair before I accomplish my name change. Doing it now would be to early.
Anyway, the party is actually this thurs and here is the plan!
Pink women oxford shoes (without a sock)
Female dark jeans
Black feminine t-shirt with a cute Giraffe and hearts on it.
At first, I planned on a feminine flanel shirt to go with this, but I realised it would look too feminine and I don't want to out myself now. My breasts would totally show in that. So, I am going with a male flanel shirt instead. Overall, the outfit looks feminine, with the cute shoes and
makeup settling things on the defenite female side, but the male flanel shirt doesn't lets my breasts or waist show and doesn't allows those clash with my (little but.. still here) facial hair.
edit: The shoes, which are one of the main things of the outfit since they are so light colored when compared to the rest are of this model:
http://www.disantinni.com.br/sapato-feminino-addan-mulher-oxford-080.htm (http://www.disantinni.com.br/sapato-feminino-addan-mulher-oxford-080.htm)
The difference is that the shade of pink is salmon, and that part of the middle with different color is white.
Its great to see that you are able to transition slowly without many problems, one step at a time makes for a great journey! I will keep my fingers crossed for you ^-^
OKAY
Now I'm out.
The aforementioned party turned into a men's only event, so I didn't go. But I went to class with the same outfit I had planned, so basically feminie jeans (which are capris btw), shirt,
the cutesy shoes and a male shirt over to cover things some.
No one was shocked about it. I got one odd look I believe. One of my close friends mentioned I'm pushing things too fast.
Perhaps I am and possibly it is too soon at only 3 months of hrt. In addition, they can't see I am only a woman fixing my body, not a guy turning into a woman. I felt good about having done this though, and I'm planning on going full time as soon as I have my facial hair somehow removed or hidden from sight.
Amazing things are happening!
I went out on the street with a friend. I had my hair just recently done and put on some makeup to hide my upper lip. I was dressed with feminine jeans, sneakers and a blouse, tight enough so it was obvious I had breasts.
No one in the street took second glances at me.
I went to a friends house afterwards, and a guy came over to visit later on, he didn't know me, and he gave me a kiss on the cheek when he greeted me.
:D:D
I'M PASSING!
Congraduations Maiara you are your way. Confident goes a long way in passing.