Yesterday morning my cat, Monroe, darted out into the street and got run over. A girl brought him to my door step and I got to hold him as he was passing away. He was my best friend =(
However, the story about Monroe is much more tragic then just the way he died:
When I first moved to Portland I went out in search of friends to become established in my new city. I ended up meeting the most amazing boy I had ever seen, Bernard. I admired Bernard so much because he wasn't afraid to dress as he pleased, to wear makeup, paint his nails and be a feminine and stylish boy. I moved here from Mississippi, so I had never met or even seen anyone like Bernard. Needless to say, he quickly became my hero.
Bernard and I hit it off immediately and we started dating shortly after we met. I opened up to him and told him my real reason for moving to Portland... to transition. Oddly enough, he was already in the process of getting on HRT to transition as well. We dated for a few months until we both started to transition, and then decided to break up and just be best friends while transitioning. So, here I was in Portland, beginning my transition with my former boyfriend, who now called herself Elle.
I knew Elle was lonely, and so for Christmas I bought her a little Siamese kitten... she told me if the kitten was a girl that her name would be Marilyn, and if a boy it would be Monroe. When we went to pick out her kitty, the boy Siamese ran up to her, jumped in her lap, started purring and fell asleep... and that's how we knew Monroe was the cat for her.
For the next year, Elle was the only person I spent any time with... in fact, she was really the only person I knew in Portland. She was the perfect friend, and I loved her so much =) However, things sorta changed between us, she became very sad and very distant from me. We started arguing quite a bit and I could tell that something wasn't quite right, but she wouldn't tell me what. So, one day we were scheduled to meet downtown and she never showed. I called her and I was upset... we had a little disagreement and we got off the phone. Little did I know, that would be the last time I ever spoke to my best friend. Three days went by and I still hadn't heard from Elle, I was beginning to get worried so I started calling around... then around 8 PM that night her friend called me and had found her dead in her apartment... she had hung herself.
In her suicide note she left me Monroe because she knew I would take care of him and love him like no other. I went over to her house, picked up my new kitty, and brought him home to live with me and Luigi. For the next 2 years I spoiled that cat rotten, and in many ways I was more attached to him than I was Luigi.
Two nights ago I went to sleep with Monroe in my arms. I have a cat door that I left opened for the night, so my cats can run in and out if they wish. Little did I know, that would be the last time I ever spent with my kitty. Shortly after I fell asleep, Monroe left my arms to go outside. At 2 AM I awoke to a girl beating on my door, crying on my doorstep, holding my cats collar in her hands with my cat lying in front of her. I held his little limp body until he went cold, and slept with him on the kitchen floor. He was the last remnant of my best friend Elle, and a big part of me died yesterday with my cat. I wasn't only staying goodbye to Monroe, but to the constant reminder of my former best friend as well.
Yesterday, we bought a Japanese Maple tree, dug a whole, put Monroe in it and put the tree on top of him... and placed his collar around the tree. I figure the tree will absorb his body and energy, and in a sense he will still live with me =)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi52.tinypic.com%2F16901o5.jpg&hash=434957faa40753dd1a7b2120499af6474b710a0d)(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi53.tinypic.com%2F14tbj7m.jpg&hash=733a188fa31a4dfed245cc0684e00b7679bfaed6)(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi55.tinypic.com%2Fnn4qqt.jpg&hash=ccdcb3c24105ece3d215adffe7df813a60a2e507)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi51.tinypic.com%2F6rtxf5.jpg&hash=78361c3b64ae3f681cda180b39d17687a2630067) Luigi on the left, Monroe on the right... Monroe was just a little kitty here
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi55.tinypic.com%2Fs637v7.jpg&hash=bc27d282e9f47d93cbb2629849d0f7554edcffdb) Monroe's Tree, he is buried under this. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi56.tinypic.com%2F2ivyzwn.jpg&hash=c764d53d38096bd90512379ff12ae359f3c0d806) Luigi looks for Monroe =(
Oh dear Vanna,
My heart goes out to you. What a sad and tragic story and what a wonderful woman you are.
If there is anything I can do, let me know. You can pm me at any time if you need to chat.
Hugs
Cindy
Vanna, so sorry to hear that, that story brought a tear to my eyes, so hard to lose a pet and especially one that hold a deeper meaning to you.
tragic loss
Sorry for your losses Vanna
That is a beautiful burial you gave Monroe
Hugs
- Virginia
There is so little to say...
My tears are with you. I wish that I could feel more than only a portion of what you have felt, and I wish that I could share the burden. My very best wishes to you, Monroe, and Elle. For serenity, and hope, and happiness.
I am sorry, in sincerity.
I'm so sorry to hear this. I guess pets really are just like people in that all we can do is give them our love until it's their time to move on. I hope tomorrow is better for you. :icon_hug:
As a cat lover, I cry with you.
hugs
Annette
My mom bred Siamese cats when I was a kid... The mother cat got run over a week after giving birth :'( I helped my mom bottle feed the baby kittens with modified toy baby bottles... The kittens all survived and were found homes, but my mom was too put off and quit breeding the cats :-\
As I sit here .. I cry for you .. I am so sorry and wish you the best for Monroe..
i hope this helps ... it comforted me when i lost Jazzmin and her eyes closed one last time , i know the pain of losing one so dear.
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together.... (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fprofile.ak.fbcdn.net%2Fhprofile-ak-snc4%2F41604_105233933231_9247_n.jpg&hash=05e5b9c477886de5259536c02d93854d8ef5d888)
I'm so very sorry for your loss. I remember how devastated I was when I lost my bunny (my best friend in the whole world). I really like the idea of the tree as a memorial. *hugs*
I am sorry for your lost and can only imagine how deeply the lost is, with the connection with your friend, but the planting the tree idea is really great and he will be part of the tree so he will continue to live, once again I grieve with you on your lost :'(
It's always hard losing a pet. I can only imagine what it feels like to lose one with such symbolic importance. :( Time will help with the pain, and hopefully soon you can look back at the fond memories with happiness, rather than sadness. :icon_hug:
So sorry, that is a big loss for you and Luigi. I can't be there to give real hugs, but here's some anyway...
(((hugs)))
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(PS, thank the girl (angel?) who brought him in off the street...too many times I've seen lonely bodies in the road) :'(
i'm sorry for your loss. it's always sad when the fluffy ones die, and even more so when they have stories like yours
planting a tree over the grave sounds like a good idea. care for it well, and you'll have a long lasting reminder of the good times
Oh Vanna, I know exactly how you feel, having lost dear kitty friends myself. It is sad, and I'm glad you shared your feelings with us here. I have come to think of the loss as the price we pay for their unconditional love and friendship.
Thank you for being a good steward to your little friend, you gave him a good life and earned good Karma in the process.
When you are ready, I hope you open your heart to another cat.
Vanna, that's really sad and it sounds like you really lost not just a friend, but a reminder of another one. It sounds like you memorialized the event beautifully. That picture of Luigi looking for Monroe just broke my heart. The way that a mate will long for their friend, like Luigi for Monroe, is just heartbreaking. You hang in there, Vanna. What a beautiful idea with the Japanese Maple and Monroe's collar. My thoughts are with you, Meghan
Thank you all for your sweet words =)
It will be ok... it's just going to take some time. I still haven't quite realized that he's never coming back.
Luigi is so confused and it upsets me a lot =( Eventually I'll have to get another Siamese kitty as a companion for him.... most likely sooner than later. Maybe this time we'll get a girl so they won't fight so much =)
I'm so sorry! as a fellow cat person I can understand how you feel, my cat is my best friend too.
he is beautiful, rest in peace
i WANT TO BE PLANTED UNDER A FRUIT TREE WHEN I DIE TO FERTILIZE IT AND GIVE IT GOOD ENERGY
Glad you still have a kitty.. my cat just had 5 and well i have to figure out what to do soon.. oh they will be neutered soon but even then they are dependent on me.. the mom was just a kitty last yr when i took her in from the woods..
Awww i am soooo sorry i am a super cat crazy person so i know your pain but i also know i could never.
HUGZIZZ i am sure cat heaven will treat him well
I am so very sorry for your loss.
Aww Vanna! I'm really sorry :(
Sorry to hear about your loss
So very sorry Vanna.
I am so sorry to hear about Monroe! I know from experience that the death of a much loved pet is shattering.
Hugs.
That made me cry.
I've only ever had one cat, but she was more a cat my mom found and let hang around outside our house. But this story hit me in a different way. I accidentally ran over a cat. It was the worst feeling in the world and having been on the other side of the situation I want to say I'm sorry for what happened. I know I wasn't the driver in this situation but hearing that someone's fluffy friend has been hit by a car brings me back to that country road.
But planting a tree along with Monroe sounds like a beautiful burial. I know, having to bury a pet at all is hard but at least now you'll have a reminder about Monroe and Elle.
Quote from: Maddie Secutura on July 24, 2011, 05:45:52 PM
That made me cry.
I've only ever had one cat, but she was more a cat my mom found and let hang around outside our house. But this story hit me in a different way. I accidentally ran over a cat. It was the worst feeling in the world and having been on the other side of the situation I want to say I'm sorry for what happened. I know I wasn't the driver in this situation but hearing that someone's fluffy friend has been hit by a car brings me back to that country road.
But planting a tree along with Monroe sounds like a beautiful burial. I know, having to bury a pet at all is hard but at least now you'll have a reminder about Monroe and Elle.
Thank you so much =) I wonder about the driver, but I suspect he/she had a reason for not stopping. I did a similar thing many years ago. I was drinking and driving and I ran over somebodies cat, except I stopped, but never found it. I think it was also the last time I ever drank and drove a car. I eventually quit drinking and using completely and started working for a drug and alcohol recovery place.. but I still think about running over that cat all the time =(
I tried to stop for the cat but I saw it just as I came over the crest of a hill. I tried to move the car so the cat would end up between the wheels and walk away without a scratch but sadly no such luck. To this day the sight of a dead animal on the road makes me cringe.
I am so sorry you lost your kitty T.T I lost my kitty 3 years ago as well and I know how how devastating it can be.
I am not a cat person but I was in tears reading your post. I'm so sorry for both of your losses.
Vanna,
I am saddened at your loss. But remember the Rainbow Bridge. Monroe is there waiting for you. Give Luigi extra, extra love. He knows his friend is gone.
Hugs,
Janet
My heart goes out to you in your loss.