I might have the chance to start it soon. Great, right? But... been thinking a lot lately. I want to look more masculine, I want the physical changes T brings. I'm not sure about the mental/emotional... I don't want my personality to change, AT all... :/ I love who I am.
Okay well i am on E and the only changes are i am less violent and more myself i think your over thinking silly ;)
Why not start out with a small dose and work your way up? You might not like how the full dose makes you feel, but something better then zero might suit you just fine.
Quote from: Kal(eb) on August 11, 2011, 03:48:18 PM
I might have the chance to start it soon. Great, right? But... been thinking a lot lately. I want to look more masculine, I want the physical changes T brings. I'm not sure about the mental/emotional... I don't want my personality to change, AT all... :/ I love who I am.
I can say T didnt chance MY personalety, it might have reach some small details but its not that much.
I felt alittle more perverted and active in the first time but after you got use to it you didnt really start to notice..
also I got a urge to eat alot more (specially pizza) and look at alot of guys but I did as well before heeh..
well.. as I first took it I tended to be more easy to be irritating faster but its not a big chance.. I been WAY more agrasive in my past for not being accpeted than I been on T..
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beside these me as in personalety didnt chance, I am still as crazy and "girly" as before.. hehe..
you shouldnt worry about it,
only worry is not to eat to much pizza because you will get fat if you do.
It's smart and incredibly mature that you are thinking about this Kal. To be honest since starting testosterone I have been a little more aggressive.
Really though I think it just makes us more confident and assertive so we keep the same personality we are just a little more cocky and less likely to let people step on us. I'm speaking plural because it's what some of my friends have noticed too.
Starting on a low dose could help and if your really worried then maybe if you could, doing therapy bi-weekly or monthly could help you out in the beginning?
Ive only had a couple of doses and so far i havent noticed a change in my personality. Ive been a bit quick to rise to the bait sometimes and ive lost the filter on my mouth but im blaming that on giving up the cigarettes
kal i think you're already showing right now that you're unlikely to be one of those guys that freaks out and becomes an ->-bleeped-<- on t for the simple fact that you're thinking so clearly and maturely about it now. go slow and do what you want. it's your body.
Quote from: RyanThomas on August 11, 2011, 04:49:28 PM
kal i think you're already showing right now that you're unlikely to be one of those guys that freaks out and becomes an ->-bleeped-<- on t for the simple fact that you're thinking so clearly and maturely about it now. go slow and do what you want. it's your body.
I second this. Good luck bro!
Thanks guys. Ill talk to my therapist and doctor. Possibly start when i can. Yeaaa im already pretty cocky haha confident but i jus make. a lot of conceited jokes. But thats jus it, im kidding. The only thing i was/am worried about is i am really good wit girls...my connection and shiit. I cant explain but yea jus dont want T to change it.
In my experience and from what I've heard from my other trans friends. Your personality won't change. Certain aspects of it might, I find I'm quicker to stand up for myself and the first few months on T I wanted to wrestle and be playfully aggressive with other men but that's about it.
The mental/emotional is the second best thing after stopping the monthly crap. I have so much less anger.
I'm still me, just happier and balanced! It is amazing what hormones can do once they're at the right levels.
I'm on a smaller dose (1/4 to 1/2 of a "full" dose) for the time being, so I only have a small idea of what changes I will experience. So far, though, I'm a bit more confident, and the quantity of irritation isn't changed. I notice that it sneaks up on me more, though. Before T, I would get angry slowly and gradually. Now, on T, it's a bit more sudden when it happens. I will jump from minor irritation right up to anger if annoyed long enough. But aside from that, the changes have been good. I feel more in control of my life, and control the speed and nature of my thoughts easier.