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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Topic started by: _Mango_ on September 16, 2011, 04:54:23 PM

Title: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: _Mango_ on September 16, 2011, 04:54:23 PM
I had one of the dreaded physical exams today at the Planned Parenthood clinic.. haven't had one for 5yrs... I was all nervous and uncomfortable and they all kept asking if I was abused... While the concern is appreciated, it just made me more uncomfortable... after all, they ask that in the paperwork, so they know I'm not.... Its kind of ignorant that they assume that, but instead of telling them why my downstairs being tooled with made me act funny, I just had to just go with it. The exam was done by a very.... well older kinda lesbian-ish woman and she seemed to pick up on me right away (the way I talk, my voice, my clothing) and it could be my imagination, but it seemed like she had some sort of judgment on me right away. I didn't feel good there. But... I will have all my blood tests and other screenings finished, so I am sort of glad... Just wish I didn't feel like I was being singled out or otherwise put down. Again, it could be my imagination or just my anxiety creating more things to worry about.. But, yeah... grr.
Title: Re: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: MaxAloysius on September 17, 2011, 02:13:09 AM
You're a brave man dude, and on the bright side it's over now. :) I couldn't have done that...I've never had one, and I don't plan to. Pretty sure I'd go ape-s**t and kill someone.

The doc can check me out when I'm under and about to have it all removed, no sooner. :P
Title: Re: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: Darth_Taco on September 17, 2011, 02:41:34 AM
I had mine earlier this year. D: It was by this ->-bleeped-<- who was judging me the whole time. I knew in my case it wasn't paranoia, he made it perfectly clear he was judging me. What was worse was that this time it hurt like hell. It didn't hurt with the last guy, so I knew it was him. When he was done he told me to suck it up and that it wasn't that bad. Oh really? How about I scrape your vagina while making you want to cry. Stupid bitch. Thankfully my boyfriend was in the room with me. Should've let him punch the doctor. There won't be a next time with that douche, I'm going back to my old doctor next year. I don't care that it takes like 2 hours to get to him. He doesn't make me cry ;_;.
Title: Re: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: 420NEKO on September 18, 2011, 07:54:31 AM
I've never had one, and I really don't want to. x_x

I just turned 21 though, so I'm not sure if I should or not. Cancer runs in my family on both sides. And I think I would be able to handle it, since it's something medical, but at the same time I feel nervous just thinking about it...

@Darth; That sucks! I'm so sorry you had to go through that. :/
Title: Re: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: _Mango_ on September 18, 2011, 05:53:16 PM
Quote from: MaxAloysius on September 17, 2011, 02:13:09 AM
You're a brave man dude, and on the bright side it's over now. :) I couldn't have done that...I've never had one, and I don't plan to. Pretty sure I'd go ape-s**t and kill someone.

The doc can check me out when I'm under and about to have it all removed, no sooner. :P
Thank you!! But...Yeah, but I am sexually active and almost 30yrs old. I gotta make sure I am responsible about this body, no matter how strongly I believe its not the correct one.
Title: Re: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: _Mango_ on September 18, 2011, 05:55:57 PM
Quote from: Darth_Taco on September 17, 2011, 02:41:34 AM
I had mine earlier this year. D: It was by this ->-bleeped-<- who was judging me the whole time. I knew in my case it wasn't paranoia, he made it perfectly clear he was judging me. What was worse was that this time it hurt like hell. It didn't hurt with the last guy, so I knew it was him. When he was done he told me to suck it up and that it wasn't that bad. Oh really? How about I scrape your vagina while making you want to cry. Stupid bitch. Thankfully my boyfriend was in the room with me. Should've let him punch the doctor. There won't be a next time with that douche, I'm going back to my old doctor next year. I don't care that it takes like 2 hours to get to him. He doesn't make me cry ;_;.
I prefer guys to be down there too.. but for some reason all planned parenthood has are these women. grr. I would say something if someone was with me... But I was alone so I had to just take the, in my opinion personally, abuse. I was so pissed when I got out of there, and it probably will keep me afraid of the clinic, which is not a good idea. :/
Title: Re: Physical exam... *shudder*
Post by: _Mango_ on September 18, 2011, 05:57:28 PM
Quote from: .Alexander on September 18, 2011, 07:54:31 AM
I've never had one, and I really don't want to. x_x

I just turned 21 though, so I'm not sure if I should or not. Cancer runs in my family on both sides. And I think I would be able to handle it, since it's something medical, but at the same time I feel nervous just thinking about it...

@Darth; That sucks! I'm so sorry you had to go through that. :/

Well, as I said earlier. The way I grit my teeth and go through those doors is with the thought. "although I don't feel its the correct body, its what I am walking around in, and what I have, so I have to take as best care of it as I can."