Just thought I'd start a thread to ask what everyone's up to, how you're feeling, what's been bugging you or making you feel great. Just general chit-chat. I noticed in the Androgyne board someone started a "How Are you Feeling" thread, thought that was kind of cool and thought, why not start one here, too?
But you know how, when asked what's up or "how are you?" the typical reply is "not bad", "alright", "no complaints" or "I'm good"?
Here's your chance to answer honestly. So, what's up bro?
Sounds good to me (After all it's one more thing that can help me procrastinate from working on resumes)
I'm a weird mix of good and not so much at the moment. I had a great day until I kept being called she at square dancing. I normally expect it, but as it's an LGBT group I dance lead (and respond to calls directed to "men"). This makes me comfortable, and I tend to forget about my body. Because of this, female pronouns are kind of a slap of reality.
So anyways, now I'm sitting here wondering if I should send out a group email or something specifically asking for people to use male pronouns. I also might just speak to people individually as it comes up because I don't want to make a big deal out of it, but it's a pretty large group (~70 people). It's a pretty friendly group of people, so I'm not too worried about bringing it up.
Good luck with that, Lee. I'd probably go the email route, I'm horribly non-confrontational unless it's a fight. I got "woman"d at the laundromatt last night, in spite of my goddamn scruff, and it pissed me off.
I'm...eh.
Had an inordinately good day, everyone passed out, and now I'm up by myself as usual and it's just kind of bugging me.
bah. That sucks guys. Sorry to hear that. I got "she'd" this week too but luckily no co-workers were around.
Today, I'm sick. I had the ->-bleeped-<-s and threw up at work. I'm glad to say it, because I'm sick of saying "I'm great" or "I'm pretty good" for four hours straight to customers at work. I don't feel good. At all.
whats up you say. well a mix of anxiety, giddiness and utter self disgust thrown in. to be honest i fell of the wagon this week went to a party n had some smoke n a drink. played poker.
now all the guys i work with have a gang up on the newbie to make em reconsider a sex change thing happening. i got some good mates there who tell em to lay off cos they wanna get in my pants. a mate confessed to being bi to me. so i give him advice. which he thinks is cool.
other than that i feel bad cos a previous bf used y name to get with a chick. so Ive gone off at him for saying that i want a threesome with her n him cos she a lesbian. i was like wtf. seriously i told him if he did it again id rip his genitals off n use em as a packer.
he apologised and corrected his mistake. hell hath no fury like me and my bad moods. but generally OK. just noticing the small things. guys call in me bro. n parents calling me a she. but its helped that my depression has eased back enough for me not to hide under a rock. n happy i managed to learn how to post properly from my phone..
I'm feeling pretty good. Listening to Links 2 3 4 by Rammstein.
Except for the fact that I have AFJROTC and detention today. That should suck pretty hard. Mostly because I lost my AFJROTC belt, and I'm probably going to have to spend some of the money I've been saving for a binder on that. But I have rotc early in the day, so at least I'm getting it over with quickly.
I also had a dream last night about Left 4 Dead, which made me wake up in a random awesome mood for some odd reason. I love that game way to much. The Tanks were pretty much my favorite character the whole way through for some reason.
Well, now I have to go spray water on my rotc shirt so it doesn't look like a rumpled mess (don't feel like ironing it). I'm also going to the guidance counselor to switch out of afjrotc and hopefully my world history class. Is October to late for that? I hope not. That'd make my day a little less cool.
hmm im okay but very tired.
I am sick, so I been sleeping alot and try to do everything right to get healthy as fast as posible since im going to the city next weekend and i dont want to miss it. I really miss alot of people and friends, and generally to be in my hometown.
well of corse it's not nice to be sick but I like the fact I can relax the whole day, and my dad got medicin for me and my neighbour help me like getting me food and so so I feel happy.
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on the sex chance thing and school plan its kinda been alittle more complicated.
I am going to japan soon, and I hoped I could get my surgery done before the trip, but sadly no, it seam very unlickey.
so insteed I guess I have to wait sniff.. I hate waiting. and I found it hard to get in contact with the guy i needed to call to ask for information, luckely I got in contact with him now so I get some information and its nice.
the biggest problem so far have been PE, its very hard for me when I dont have top surgery because im contanly scared of anyone touching my cheast, and even if they dont then the sweat is kinda annoying when your wearing a binder.
I'm watching The F Word, and that always makes my day :'P. I'm bored as hell because it's raining outside and there's nothing to do xD. Not like I can do anything anyway. Yesterday while I was out my binder damn near triggered an asthma attack @_@. So I'm taking a break and staying indoors a few days since I conveniently have no reason to go out :'P. I'm also plotting my Halloween costume. I'm gonna do Cousin Itt :'D! If I can get monies for a Nerf gun in time, I'm going as a more bad-ass form of Cousin Itt.
Also a bit worried. I might be pregnant, and that's so not good @_@. I already know that if I am that I'm terminating. I guess this is why people don't believe me when I say I'm a Republican xD. I'm a total walking contradiction ;'D. Oh well, just a few more days until I know for sure. First time in years I've hoped for my period to come @_@.
Quote from: Darth_Taco on October 05, 2011, 04:56:09 PM
Also a bit worried. I might be pregnant, and that's so not good @_@. I already know that if I am that I'm terminating. I guess this is why people don't believe me when I say I'm a Republican xD. I'm a total walking contradiction ;'D. Oh well, just a few more days until I know for sure. First time in years I've hoped for my period to come @_@.[/color]
Sorry dude, don't want to be an ass... but just one word: condoms.
I'm happy that I don't have work today.
Just ate dinner, had spaghetti.
I have a ton of homework to do, but I'm going to go watch Dexter instead. I'm on Season 2 Episode 8. I'm so hooked on this show.
I'm also trying to think of a gamertag. Feel free to give me suggestions.
My blood pressure is higher now while fasting than it was at my last check up where I drank a red bull before my appointment. I was 129/85 and now I'm 140/100. I've been trying to eat right and be more active but it doesn't seem to be helping.
I'm hoping my blood sugar is alright and my cholesterol is okay. I really don't like how much T has been screwing up my health. My room smells like gas, and it's giving.me a really bad headache.
I also was forced to quit my job after I was accused of stealing. So...things aren't going so great, but on the plus side I got a pretty good haircut.
cool thread... well, today i'm just exhausted. was supposed to go to a men's group at school tonight but ended up staying at work late and missed it. it's the first one of the season and they're once a month so i'm hoping to make it to the next one. been juggling classes, internship, and work and just want a break from it all. looking forward to thanksgiving break.
A little bit of Frustration, some anxiousness and dissapointment, all rolled up together.
My car is due for an inspection, and because its an old car and starting to have old car problems, I'm a little worried about it passing, and if it doesn't pass, how I would pay for the repairs. As much as I dread having to dump a ton of money into the car, there is no way I could afford a new one either. I'm probably having shoulder surgery, hopefully in about a month, and I'm going to call to schedule it tomorrow. Because its related to an accident at work, everything so far has been paid by workmans comp, but I'm worried that they wont pay for the surgery, since it was the second time I dislocated it, and they will claim its a pre-existing condition.
I recently applied for a new position at work, which would be a promotion within my department. I think my chances are good, but I have no idea how long they are going to leave it open for people to apply or when they will announce it. I just want to know already if I got it or not, since it would mean a little bit more money, and could help with the financial frustration.
I have been riding horses since I was 12, about 15 years. I had to give up on a horse I was leasing and send him back to the owner about 3 months ago, and then had a horrible day at a competition with a different horse, and decided I needed some time away from the barn to figure stuff out. I kept thinking about going back to ride again, and meaning to go, but things kept coming up that made it not work out, and then I got sick, and then I dislocated my shoulder. I finally went back tonight, and got on a horse again after months away, and realized how much I missed it and how much I want to ride again. I can't really ride right now or work on the farm with the way my shoulder is, and if I have the surgery, I won't be able to untill march.
My desk emits a strange, "harshly chemical" smell, something like solvents, and it might be that the heat of my tea cup is actually melting some of the paint. This smell has given me a slight headache. I'm going to quit coffee because it messes with my stomach and I'm afraid of addiction. Be prepared for more posts along the vein of "oh GOD, this headache, it's killing me.. why did I give up coffee?!?" I also found out something about my parents that I wish I hadn't. I am becoming worse at socialising with my classmates. This is very bad. I think I'm having horrible grades as well.
Quote from: Ryno on October 05, 2011, 12:45:41 AM
bah. That sucks guys. Sorry to hear that. I got "she'd" this week too but luckily no co-workers were around.
Today, I'm sick. I had the ->-bleeped-<-s and threw up at work. I'm glad to say it, because I'm sick of saying "I'm great" or "I'm pretty good" for four hours straight to customers at work. I don't feel good. At all.
oh god the ->-bleeped-<-s at work! like, the runs? I am ok with ->-bleeped-<-ting at work but I cant imagine having the runs at work, that sucks. and yeah I hate when customers return my "how are you" cause Im just thinking "uh, i am at work, how do you think i am doing?"
I am doing decent today, i got employee of the month, and I got gift cards recently for free so i bought 2 new colognes, halston and quorum, they smell great and I love cologne.
Having some trouble with my mom, because she saw pictures of herself, thought she was fat and got high on zanax and sat on the couch mumbling and I had to stay up and make sure she didnt fall or anything, so i woke up pretty mad at her, and she demanded I tell her why i was mad, so i did, and now she is mad that i am mad at her. and then she related her feelings of unhappiness with her body to me being trans. Which was pretty uncool for me, because she can change her weight, I have to take hormones all my life, save up 8 grand to get rid of my chest, and will always have to deal with not having male genitals. I told her "I just don't see those things as being comparable" So, needless to say i am pretty annoyed.
Good thread idea, we should get this made into a sticky, or a tacky, whatever they call it.
Quote from: Luc on October 05, 2011, 05:07:04 PM
Sorry dude, don't want to be an ass... but just one word: condoms.
Alergic to latex, and non-latex condoms are freaking impossible to obtain in California. Those I
can find are ridiculously expensive. I still practice safe sex though, I'm not insane @_@. Accidents happen though XP. If they didn't, my boyfriend wouldn't be here :'P. Thankfully if I'm not pregnant it'll mean I inherited my mother's low fertility.
NICE avatar Ryno. Effing love Bender/Futurama.
I'm doing pretty good. I'm sort of nervous and excited. I made an appointment to talk with the counseling and psychological services at my University to talk about being trans/to see if there's anything they can do for me (providing therapy/possible t script). I made it a few weeks ago and it's already coming up soon (Tuesday) which ironically is also National Coming Out Day, (my school is holding an event for it, which I thought is cool). I'm nervous about it because I've never truly opened up about being trans to anyone besides my girlfriend, and I don't really talk about it much. It's exciting because I'm hoping they can help (I can't afford it otherwise) and I recently found out that housed in the same building (Apparently my school has one of the best recreation and wellness centers in the country) we also have a gyno, pharmacy and doctors (which I knew about) as well as a lab- so I might be able to get EVERYTHING done at school. Again, trying not to get my hopes up too high, but it's still exciting.
Quote from: Darth_Taco on October 06, 2011, 01:17:25 AM
Alergic to latex, and non-latex condoms are freaking impossible to obtain in California. Those I can find are ridiculously expensive. I still practice safe sex though, I'm not insane @_@. Accidents happen though XP. If they didn't, my boyfriend wouldn't be here :'P. Thankfully if I'm not pregnant it'll mean I inherited my mother's low fertility.
http://www.condomdepot.com/product/catalog.cfm/nid/209 (http://www.condomdepot.com/product/catalog.cfm/nid/209)
I've ordered from this site before. And wow the non latex ones are expensive.
The boxes say its from Live LLC or something like that.
Cool thread man :)
Today has been a pretty good day. Got my lab results in so I know I'm reasonably healthy which is always good news and less stress. Today is kinda boring though. I have a yard sale and Pride on Saturday but nothing to do in between so it's one of those hurry up and wait type days. Got some of my grades in today as well so I'm pretty sure I'll be off of academic probation which means less stress too.
ouch today im in pain, and tired.
I talked with my dad about top surgery and for a reason we got into the point that how well it would be also would depend on my skin how easy I got scars and marks and how fast they would reheal.
I got one of the guys from karate to hit me, just to check if I even where able to get marks and how much,
turn out I am pretty hard to get marks actually but he wanted one so he have hit me a couple of time, in his room after we got to sleep.
with 2 fangirls, and our little bromance sleeping together, + the fact I the next day came out of the room looking as being in pain somewhere somewhere, I bet they have had there fantasy's.
but no reality suchs, since he said he might be 10% into guys I tried alittle for the night, but no, only 10% and only into people who are older,
and my pain is of corse in my leg and not in my ***
LOL but there is a party tonight so its gonna be okay.
So flipping angry and hurt and knowing that I'm being silly but unable to control it. I never intended for this to happen but I have such a killer crush on this guy. I feel like I'm approximately 12 years old. The problem is he doesn't return my affections, if you can call them that. I'm half ready to go to his apartment and beat him up. Just to get him to pay attention to me. That doesn't sound like affection to me. It sounds like obsession.
I see him about once a week and perhaps talk to him once or two for a few minutes on google talk between. I have his phone number but I never call it. When I am with him I'm always fighting to just stand near him. I don't want to do it, but I literally can't help myself. He treats me with a good degree of caution. It's not that he's mean to me. In fact at times he's been very nice. Helping me out when I needed it. I feel like I'm a simmering pile of emotions that very well might explode. I've asked him out a few times, just as friends and been politely turned down each time. He's afraid to be alone with me. As well he should be.
Last night I messaged him and he barely responded. Common sense tells me that he most likely was genuinely busy in some way. My crazy ass irrational side takes it completely the opposite. Ignoring this has not helped. It's made it worse. I'm not at all sure what I should do now.
Thanks for letting me get this out. Good idea for a thread
Awesome thread guys! Is it possible to pin this up with the other ones on top?
Today, I'm sitting in the library trying to finish writing this paper for school... instead I'm surfing this board during bouts of boredom! :D
Last night my computer crashed, that really sucked. At least I managed to salvage my school notes that I copied onto my computer before I had to reboot the entire system to manufacture settings.
This entire weekend I'm doing an internship (*cough*free-labor*cough*) at a film festival. Hopefully I'll at least get to view some cool films, that is if I'm not too busy passing out pamphlets and tickets...
Oh, Squirrel, that's so ->-bleeped-<-ty. I know how you feel, man. Obsession is weird, and terrifying, and seems to come out of the blue.
At the moment, I'm debating between laughing and screaming at our downstairs neighbor, who's been alternating between blaring his music so loud it was shaking things off the table here and banging/screaming/kicking/breaking seemingly everything in his apartment.
Feeling kind of sad lately because I've been reading too much about all these kids taking their own lives and being bullied (lgbt).
I've had in increase in creativity lately, so I've been able to do more art work, which feels good because when I can't come up with ideas I get frustrated and lose my only outlet for stress/anger/pain and even happiness...
My pain is going away (endometriosis - pelvic/lower back pain) but it's still kind of there and today it's just uncomfortable. I find out on the 19th about going forward with a hysterectomy, which I am so excited about and I should be getting it done before the end of February! My body is doing a battle of the hormones lately, and I've even managed to cry which is not normal for me, I usually find it very hard to cry. Also I've been thinking about asking my surgeon if I can keep my stuff they take out and put it in a jar, lol. I'm weird that way. I have nothing against my baby maker that may have never worked, I just don't like it inside me, but I'd like to keep it very much... on my shelf that is. ;D
I am working on going raw vegan... it's not going so well, so hard to do! Today I ate way to many processed foods and I have a real craving for french fries. Stupid testosterone, I used to be able to eat one meal a day *unhealthy I know, but now if my stomach starts hurting and I just keep eating! Raw food is so unfilling!
Quote from: Sharky on October 05, 2011, 06:06:13 PM
I'm happy that I don't have work today.
Just ate dinner, had spaghetti.
I have a ton of homework to do, but I'm going to go watch Dexter instead. I'm on Season 2 Episode 8. I'm so hooked on this show.
I'm also trying to think of a gamertag. Feel free to give me suggestions.
I can't help ya with suggestions but when you come up with one, feel free to add ShadowCore90 (me). Don't think too much about it ... my brother's is completely ridiculous, something to the effect of TiddlyPantsBear, and he's a big hairy manly guy. Think of something you like, like a game, a movie, a character, a place, etc. and add your name or some other cool random word. I chose mine because I was playing as Shadow on a Sonic game and thought of a word that sounded cool with Shadow. You will probably think the name you choose is ridiculous and stupid but others will probably admire it, or at the very least not give a damn.
Quote from: PixieBoy on October 06, 2011, 12:33:25 AM
My desk emits a strange, "harshly chemical" smell, something like solvents, and it might be that the heat of my tea cup is actually melting some of the paint. This smell has given me a slight headache. I'm going to quit coffee because it messes with my stomach and I'm afraid of addiction. Be prepared for more posts along the vein of "oh GOD, this headache, it's killing me.. why did I give up coffee?!?" I also found out something about my parents that I wish I hadn't. I am becoming worse at socialising with my classmates. This is very bad. I think I'm having horrible grades as well.
I'm a fiend for addictive substances. Which is why I will never experiment with drugs :S I can't go a day without caffeine so I know your pain. Also, I'm horrible at socializing too. Either my anxiety causes me to be a little awkward or I have trouble translating thought into oral speech (something about damage to the tissue between to Wernicke's area and Brocca's area of the brain, perhaps... I was dropped on the head as a baby and since have had my head knocked around a few too many times ^.^) In other words, I occasionally have a hard time speaking and putting a logical string of words together. As far as writing and critical thinking go though, I'm fine, which makes me doubt any kind of aphasia. :/ Regardless, I'm sure people at work think I'm weird. Which is fine, the girls don't seem to mind my company, probably because I've spent he majority of my life socializing with women. I seem to add some sort of entertainment value to the place with my goofy personality and lack of regard towards gender roles.
Quote from: BMXJake on October 06, 2011, 02:33:12 PM
NICE avatar Ryno.
Shut up baby, I know it.
Quote from: Squirrel698 on October 07, 2011, 10:59:51 AM
So flipping angry and hurt and knowing that I'm being silly but unable to control it. I never intended for this to happen but I have such a killer crush on this guy. I feel like I'm approximately 12 years old. The problem is he doesn't return my affections, if you can call them that. I'm half ready to go to his apartment and beat him up. Just to get him to pay attention to me. That doesn't sound like affection to me. It sounds like obsession.
I see him about once a week and perhaps talk to him once or two for a few minutes on google talk between. I have his phone number but I never call it. When I am with him I'm always fighting to just stand near him. I don't want to do it, but I literally can't help myself. He treats me with a good degree of caution. It's not that he's mean to me. In fact at times he's been very nice. Helping me out when I needed it. I feel like I'm a simmering pile of emotions that very well might explode. I've asked him out a few times, just as friends and been politely turned down each time. He's afraid to be alone with me. As well he should be.
Last night I messaged him and he barely responded. Common sense tells me that he most likely was genuinely busy in some way. My crazy ass irrational side takes it completely the opposite. Ignoring this has not helped. It's made it worse. I'm not at all sure what I should do now.
Thanks for letting me get this out. Good idea for a thread
Sometimes the voice you think is the "crazy irrational side" isn't completely wrong. It's good to listen to both sides when torn. He may have been busy, and cautious. Don't feel ashamed of it. We all feel the same way now and then. It's something you need to fight to move on from, because even if he were to return your feelings, it wouldn't be healthy. Even if you are just innocently infatuated, you need to move on because it's only going to hurt you more. Unrequited love hurts.
The subtle body language we pick up from others often speaks louder than our voices. It's helpful to pay attention to it and respect the invisible boundaries people put up. It's not even necessarily YOU as a person he's uncomfortable with, but the subtle messages you're giving him. He probably is fine with you as a friend and co-worker or classmate but he may be unsure about your motives.
Give him (and yourself) space, try to keep your distance when you do see him (a nod and "sup" and quick update on life and such and move on) and then drop it. Act like your not interested and distract yourself with any menial task around or talk to someone else. It'll be easier to move on that way and he may loosen up and relax around you an be more open to being just friends.
Hope this helps and I'm sorry if it doesn't. Just remember not to blame yourself or feel bad about it. It's pretty common and it happens to pretty much everyone.
Quote from: JayValentine on October 07, 2011, 05:29:19 PM
Feeling kind of sad lately because I've been reading too much about all these kids taking their own lives and being bullied (lgbt).
I've had in increase in creativity lately, so I've been able to do more art work, which feels good because when I can't come up with ideas I get frustrated and lose my only outlet for stress/anger/pain and even happiness...
My pain is going away (endometriosis - pelvic/lower back pain) but it's still kind of there and today it's just uncomfortable. I find out on the 19th about going forward with a hysterectomy, which I am so excited about and I should be getting it done before the end of February! My body is doing a battle of the hormones lately, and I've even managed to cry which is not normal for me, I usually find it very hard to cry. Also I've been thinking about asking my surgeon if I can keep my stuff they take out and put it in a jar, lol. I'm weird that way. I have nothing against my baby maker that may have never worked, I just don't like it inside me, but I'd like to keep it very much... on my shelf that is. ;D
I am working on going raw vegan... it's not going so well, so hard to do! Today I ate way to many processed foods and I have a real craving for french fries. Stupid testosterone, I used to be able to eat one meal a day *unhealthy I know, but now if my stomach starts hurting and I just keep eating! Raw food is so unfilling!
Your surgeon may not be the only one to think pickled ovaries is weird :P I'd keep it in a closet or at least explain it to someone you bring over for the night, hahaha. But hey, to each their own, if I get a hysterectomy I want my tissues donated to someone who can use them - for research and such and I might inquire about having any fertile ovums frozen for couples wanting invitro fertilization (or for my own later use?).
Anyway, congrats about the hysto bro :) I hope it goes well!
As for myself, I have 7 minutes before I head off to work, I can't find the full pack of cigarettes I swear I just bought two days ago, and my feet are hurting more lately (plantar fasciitis/flat foot and no insurance for custom orthotics) I have no money, I have credit debt up the wazoo and somehow have to pull money out of my ass. I can't ask my dad because he'll guilt trip me about him still having to look after me and pay my rent and credit bills and make me feel like a pathetic piece of crap, and then go into my transition and go on about how I'm making his life so ->-bleeped-<-ing difficult (even though he has a house, two cars, food in his fridge, clean laundry, a full-time career, a dutiful partner, and a huge family that loves and supports him while I'm ->-bleeped-<- broke).
Good news, I love my job and while I'm aching like ->-bleeped-<-ing hell every night when I come back, it's worth it because most of the people there respect me and enjoy my company.
Playing Rage (a video game) with father, fun. My mother buying a fancy gentlemen's perfume for me, fun. GID therapist's appointment next week, fun. Life is pretty good, actually.
My father got the hilarious gamertag WittyTeacher3, which the XBox suggested to him all by itself, so add him if you wish. We just got XBox live, I don't remember my gamertag but I'll add you if you wish. I'm a terrible gamer, though.
Quote from: Ryno on October 08, 2011, 10:07:02 AM
and my feet are hurting more lately (plantar fasciitis/flat foot and no insurance for custom orthotics)
hey, I'm a podiatry student so I couldn't help but focus on this :embarrassed: Have you tried stretching exercises for PF? there are a few ones that we've been taught that might help even just a little. Do you have a cold can of fizzy pop or something? if you place the can under the arch (or lack of :p) of your foot and then roll your foot back and forth it should help. The coldness is of extra benefit too (cold therapy!). Also if you stand if your foot on the edge of a step and kind of rock your foot up and down. Doing these stretching exercises regularly is actually one of the best treatments for PF I believe.
sorry if that doesn't make sense, it's kinda late over here in the UK :)
I had the most AWESOME weekend ever!!! The film festival I interned for turned out to be a wonderful experience. :) Quite a few people misgendered me, but I was talking with one of the other interns and came out to her, only to find out that she's involved in the GLBT community! She used correct pronouns right away and we became good friends. ;D I must be a GLBT-friendly magnet, because my coming out experiences have been great so far. (I hope I just didn't jynx myself LOL)
Quote from: El Capitan on October 08, 2011, 09:26:04 PM
hey, I'm a podiatry student so I couldn't help but focus on this :embarrassed: Have you tried stretching exercises for PF? there are a few ones that we've been taught that might help even just a little. Do you have a cold can of fizzy pop or something? if you place the can under the arch (or lack of :p) of your foot and then roll your foot back and forth it should help. The coldness is of extra benefit too (cold therapy!). Also if you stand if your foot on the edge of a step and kind of rock your foot up and down. Doing these stretching exercises regularly is actually one of the best treatments for PF I believe.
sorry if that doesn't make sense, it's kinda late over here in the UK :)
That's actually really helpful. I know I need to be doing foot exercises but I just never think about it. Then I start walking to work (about a twenty minute walk) and remember I should have done something about my feet. I read that cycling is a great way to get cardio exercise with PF because it peddling puts pressure on the arch of your foot. So, I -should- be riding my bike to work instead of walking.
Feeling absolutely ->-bleeped-<-ty.
Trying to hide it while hanging out with Julie, and feeling rather thankful that she's incredibly imperceptive at times. Just wanna crawl into a hole and die.
Quote from: Ryno on October 09, 2011, 10:44:26 PM
That's actually really helpful. I know I need to be doing foot exercises but I just never think about it. Then I start walking to work (about a twenty minute walk) and remember I should have done something about my feet. I read that cycling is a great way to get cardio exercise with PF because it peddling puts pressure on the arch of your foot. So, I -should- be riding my bike to work instead of walking.
Glad you find it helpful mate :) It's all about trying a variety of things and seeing which one works for you. I don't know how long you've had PF but be aware that the condition is self-limiting ie. it should get better on its own eventually :)
On topic: I'm struggling quite a bit with my gender identity atm. I feel like screaming at everyone who she's and her's me (bascially everyone) :(
I think my 6 year old goldfish is dying. Seems like it's going to be a loach tank soon.
Quote from: Ryno on October 08, 2011, 10:07:02 AM
I can't help ya with suggestions but when you come up with one, feel free to add ShadowCore90 (me). Don't think too much about it ... my brother's is completely ridiculous, something to the effect of TiddlyPantsBear, and he's a big hairy manly guy. Think of something you like, like a game, a movie, a character, a place, etc. and add your name or some other cool random word. I chose mine because I was playing as Shadow on a Sonic game and thought of a word that sounded cool with Shadow. You will probably think the name you choose is ridiculous and stupid but others will probably admire it, or at the very least not give a damn.
I'll add you. Maybe I will make it Dexter related since I'm really into that show.
Welll... I was out today, trying to find something nice to buy for a friend of mine who's in the hospital now. Everything was wrong, nothing was what I wanted to give her. Is giving jewellery to a woman you are not in a relationship with considered too "intimate"? I feel like a jerk now because I haven't got her that present I really want to give to her, to make her happy.
I'm also still quitting coffee, am very tired. My feet hurt, which sucks. Father bought me a book for a present for no real reason. I just watched this awful programme on television wherein a woman compared being a furry to transsexualism.
Quote from: PixieBoy on October 10, 2011, 01:33:05 PM
I just watched this awful programme on television wherein a woman compared being a furry to transsexualism.
I would've raged so goddamn hard.
I'm not even gonna lie, I hate furries so much its ridiculous.
I still don't understand the furry thing and why people hate them.
In this programme, the woman I talked about earlier claimed she was a feline in a human's body (or similar), and for instance said that people should concentrate on developing species-correction surgery rather than gender-correction surgery. She said that she wore cat's ears on her head because they made her shadow look more "right", and that she wore a tail for the same effect. She also said something about enjoying dressing up in leather and furs. I may be very prejudiced, but I thought she looked more like she wanted to be a cute catgirl like in anime rather than a real cat, considering she wore a necklace with a bell on it (what cat would be caught dead with something that impairs hunting?) and it sounded like she changed her voice to sound cute in an anime-like way (more high-pitched, more childish). I personally felt like she didn't act like a cat, but rather a human imitating the cute behaviours of a cat.
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This is her.
Quote from: PixieBoy on October 11, 2011, 01:16:24 AM
In this programme, the woman I talked about earlier claimed she was a feline in a human's body (or similar), and for instance said that people should concentrate on developing species-correction surgery rather than gender-correction surgery.
There's a South Park episode for this.
it's just 2:32 A.M, and i'm doing my usual obsessive leaving no stone unturned thing through the internet. i often stay on longer than i need to.
*i think i just posted in the wrong section. i feel like i'm getting dumber.
Quote from: PixieBoy on October 11, 2011, 01:16:24 AM
In this programme, the woman I talked about earlier claimed she was a feline in a human's body (or similar), and for instance said that people should concentrate on developing species-correction surgery rather than gender-correction surgery. She said that she wore cat's ears on her head because they made her shadow look more "right", and that she wore a tail for the same effect. She also said something about enjoying dressing up in leather and furs. I may be very prejudiced, but I thought she looked more like she wanted to be a cute catgirl like in anime rather than a real cat, considering she wore a necklace with a bell on it (what cat would be caught dead with something that impairs hunting?) and it sounded like she changed her voice to sound cute in an anime-like way (more high-pitched, more childish). I personally felt like she didn't act like a cat, but rather a human imitating the cute behaviours of a cat.
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This is her.
What is this I don't even....I think I just broke my nose facepalming.
Quote from: Bradd on October 11, 2011, 04:14:00 AM
What is this I don't even....I think I just broke my nose facepalming.
Being an "extreme" furry is just as valid as being transsexual. I only add the extreme label because not all furries are obsessed with modifying their bodies to match their ideal species (such a common misconception and generalization). Most furries just dress up for fun. But I would have to agree that this cat girl's arguement that transspecies surgeries would serve a better purpose than transsexual surgeries is a very egotistical mindset. Furries (and just people in general) like this piss me off. Rant over. :P
NOW... To get back on topic, I've had a pretty good weekend. Connected with my father over cheesecake haha. I'm going to counseling today, I hope it goes over well.
Quote from: FullMoon19 on October 11, 2011, 01:34:17 AM
it's just 2:32 A.M, and i'm doing my usual obsessive leaving no stone unturned thing through the internet. i often stay on longer than i need to.
*i think i just posted in the wrong section. i feel like i'm getting dumber.
xD It's all good
I'm sick today! I felt like crap yesterday, I slept a lot, and now I'm sick. Small wonder. I probably have to work, too. But I have sooo much laundry. :( I should just call in sick.
well, I am doing great. I am moving out of my parents to go live with my boyfriend, and I am really excited, because we have been long distance for so long.
I am also going to buy a motorcycle, its a 2001 Honda rebel, black. Its used but in great shape, I got to see it on thursday and it is only 1400, I am gonna try to get it for 1300 though. its really sexy and has great power. Once I move I will have to take motorcycle lessons because I have never ridden one. I will be sure to take a picture of me sitting on it and add it to the bad-ass thread. its gonna be great to have a source of transportation because I have never had a car. Its a "small" bike, which is good for my size, its about 300 pounds. I dont need a huge bike anyway, i would look silly on it.
I also was able to get a transfer at my job, so i have a guaranteed job as well, which is great. And once I move I am gonna look into internships at funeral homes because I want to be an undertaker (dream job)
I am gonna miss my current co workers and bosses though, but I may be able to work in a different area at my new job, here I work in shoes, which I am good at but dont like too much.
I am also really excited to have Christmas with my boyfriend and his family, but I will miss Christmas with my mom, it will be my first Christmas away from home.
ever since getting back with my boyfriend my emotions seem to be coming back a little bit. I had a few months there where i didnt feel anything. I think it could be a personality disorder, lack of empathy, guilt, emotions. but its getting better. i think it could be a complex, I need to learn that it is OK to be open to my emotions and soft sometimes and it doesn't make me weaker or less of a man.
Also, rent with my boyfriend wont be much, so I can work my ass off and save save save for surgery. I am used to working long shifts, hell I did a whole 12 hours once when my boss was desperate, i was a bit loopy but I managed.
I'm glad to hear these great news from you, Elijah!
As for me, life is pretty alright. Appointment with the gender therapist on Tuesday. Medication. Sitting here, sipping tea, listening to Joy Division.
Wanting to dye my hair many colours but knowing it will mess my passing up totally. Wanting T and top surgery so I can wear a pretty dress and look gorgeous in it (that dress would look awesome on a bloke but pretty bad on a girl). Sadly, the clothing company's website is stupid so I can't link you to it (but it looks great), it is black with a pattern of safety pins, would look badass with big stompy boots and multicoloured hair.
I'm also really looking forward to the day when I move out from this apartment and won't have to share a room with my sister, won't have to hear the wrong pronouns and name all the time, etc.
Joy Division - Autosuggestion (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4g8Lxg6DGAk&feature=related#)
This song is so good...
Joy Division is pretty awesome. No one else I know likes them. o.o
I love Joy Division.
Quote from: Elijah on October 14, 2011, 01:12:43 PM
I am also going to buy a motorcycle, its a 2001 Honda rebel, black. Its used but in great shape, I got to see it on thursday and it is only 1400, I am gonna try to get it for 1300 though. its really sexy and has great power. Once I move I will have to take motorcycle lessons because I have never ridden one. I will be sure to take a picture of me sitting on it and add it to the bad-ass thread. its gonna be great to have a source of transportation because I have never had a car. Its a "small" bike, which is good for my size, its about 300 pounds. I dont need a huge bike anyway, i would look silly on it.
I've been a rider my entire life, it's in my blood.
Might I recommend an older Honda or Yamaha? A 250cc or smaller. When I was a kid, the rule was "if you can't pick up the bike when it's down on its side, you have no business owning it." I'd hate for you to be stuck somewhere because your bike got knocked over and you were unable to lift it back up. (This happened once to me, my bike was knocked over with its saddlebags on and I couldn't get it back up without risking knocking someone else's bike over. Thankfully the fire department happened to be in the same parking lot and picked my bike back up. I live firefighters, who doesn't?) The mid 70's to mid 80's for Honda and Yamaha are good years, the bikes maintain their value and literally are workhorses; they just won't break! Even a 175cc would be fine on the highway.
But if you want to go with the Rebel, offer the guy $1150 cash and let him haggle you up to somewhere around $1250-$1300. Cash talks, bull->-bleeped-<- walks.
Just ordered a bunch of stuff of Amazon.
A new xbox...you can message me for my gamer tag
MW3 hardened edition
Dexter kill shirt
Dexter ID badge and holder
Fake needle
Fake knife
A CD for my little sister
I bought some stuff after work today (Value Village).
Awesome black baggy pants hooked up with about a metre and a half of chains (originally from a store I used to love that closed down, otherwise I never would have bothered with them) I don't really dress like a punk anymore but I figured I may as well humour the teen in me, since they only cost me 10 bucks.
I also have to wear a cowboy costume at work tomorrow. So I bought ->-bleeped-<-ty faded jeans, a black plaid shirt, a cowboy hat and a toy gun. I'm got a neat Union Jack buckle too, even though cowboys are an American image. It's the only belt buckle I have and if you're dressing up as a cowboy, ya need a good buckle.
That was my lame day.
Quote from: Epi on October 14, 2011, 06:41:34 PM
I've been a rider my entire life, it's in my blood.
Might I recommend an older Honda or Yamaha? A 250cc or smaller. When I was a kid, the rule was "if you can't pick up the bike when it's down on its side, you have no business owning it." I'd hate for you to be stuck somewhere because your bike got knocked over and you were unable to lift it back up. (This happened once to me, my bike was knocked over with its saddlebags on and I couldn't get it back up without risking knocking someone else's bike over. Thankfully the fire department happened to be in the same parking lot and picked my bike back up. I live firefighters, who doesn't?) The mid 70's to mid 80's for Honda and Yamaha are good years, the bikes maintain their value and literally are workhorses; they just won't break! Even a 175cc would be fine on the highway.
But if you want to go with the Rebel, offer the guy $1150 cash and let him haggle you up to somewhere around $1250-$1300. Cash talks, bull->-bleeped-<- walks.
hey, thanks for that advice, i hadn't thought about lifting it if it had fallen. I think I should be able to handle it, its about 300 pounds and pulling 300 pounds is different then lifting it up in the air. And you think I should start haggling that low? I was gonna go in with all the money in hand but ask if he wanted 1300, but I guess there is no harm starting lower, if he takes it, then cheers for me lol.
I am currently rocking Muse on the headphones and am locked into working (well, not working right this minute obviously).
I've also been having insomnia again lately. Can't quite place why but just have a heck of a time trying to sleep. And lack of sleep is not a good thing!
My house is currently overrun with spiders and it's freaking me out but the bug man is supposed to show up tomorrow morning :)
My cat is sitting on the chair next to mine, snoring.
I think that's enough excitement for one post.
Today was a pretty good day. I got off school early which was a really pleasant surprise. :-) I'm very excited for Halloween to come because it's my birthday. I don't really plan on doing anything because everyone's always busy but I still love Halloween. (I'm getting a zombie costume together...because I've never dressed as a zombie for Halloween before and I found that just a little bit disturbing. <XD To the GoodWill!)
I'm having a very masculine evening of watching ballroom dance competitions, knitting, and snuggling with my cat. Life's good.
I've had a really good past week. working on coming out to my whole family one by one.
Still trying to decide where to go to college at in relation to my family.
My mood is strange. I feel sad and angry right now, and I have no idea why. Like I'm waiting for something to happen, waiting for the tears to break through or for my hands to ball into fists and punch something or someone. A strange feeling, and I can't say I enjoy it. I feel lonely yet I am surrounded by people. There's people to chat with online and people to talk with in the real world. I'm not sure why I feel so strange, I wish I knew.
Quote from: Elijah on October 15, 2011, 12:16:34 AM
hey, thanks for that advice, i hadn't thought about lifting it if it had fallen. I think I should be able to handle it, its about 300 pounds and pulling 300 pounds is different then lifting it up in the air.
here's a video about picking up your bike....much easier to do facing away from the bike that pulling up towards you. not that I hope it happens, just best to always be prepared when it comes to riding!
How to pick up your motorcycle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4MPyX0QCYw&feature=related#)
Quote from: Logan1986 on October 15, 2011, 01:19:04 PM
here's a video about picking up your bike....much easier to do facing away from the bike that pulling up towards you. not that I hope it happens, just best to always be prepared when it comes to riding!
How to pick up your motorcycle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4MPyX0QCYw&feature=related#)
That's how you pick up large motorcycles, not smaller ones. Also, under most parking conditions it's not possible to pick up your motorcycle like that unless you have your own large car parking spot. If you parked in motorcycle parking, you have to lock the handlebars and face the bike while using the bars to lift it back up. Either way, a beginning rider has no business on a large motorcycle.
Depending on the size of the person, a smaller bike can still be large enough. My roommate is barely five foot and incredibly skinny. He's had problems with this in the past. Always good to know another way to pick it up whether you end up needing it or not.
I had an epic mirror pep talk a few minutes ago that I think did me a lot of good. Now I'm just screwing around on youtube. A little bummed, because I was supposed to be getting some money today. I was gonna spend it on a webcam, basketball shorts, thermals, a small sports bra, a haircut, and some hair products. But eh, whatever, I'll probably have it by the end of the week.
Quote from: Logan1986 on October 15, 2011, 01:19:04 PM
here's a video about picking up your bike....much easier to do facing away from the bike that pulling up towards you. not that I hope it happens, just best to always be prepared when it comes to riding!
How to pick up your motorcycle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k4MPyX0QCYw&feature=related#)
I would have never thought of that. thanks! btw, i got my bike, I put up a pic in the badass thread if anyone want to see.
Cheers lads, I've been to the second visit with the gender psychologist guy, and he seemed like a really nice man in a very Stephen Fry way. It seemed like he understood me, what I was about and such, and that felt good. My mother also talked to me about surgery and stuff, and she seemed totally cool with me being trans and all that. Earlier yesterday, I was worried about her since she was crying, but it turns out she was crying about the loss of her "little girl", and she's okay now.
However, I'm unsure about how my father deals with all of this. He's ceased making jokes about how I should drink the girls' energy drink, and instead makes jokes about a children's film in which the main character shares my name. I suppose that's progress, in his somewhat unusual way of dealing with these things.
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This is that very pink girly energy drink, it's even called Femme. I didn't know soft drinks were gender coded...
I also might get my name change forms filled in today, life really moves forwards for me.
OH MY GOD YOU GUYS!!!!!!
Er, pardon the caps lock and excessive exclamation marks, I'm just really happy now.
My mother sent an email to my grandparents, explaining that I am a guy.
Their response: "Wow, what a great present for our 49th anniversary! Not everyone gets a handsome, intelligent young man for their anniversary! We hope you are doing well, feel free to visit."
THIS IS WONDERFUL!! ;D ;D ;D
^ That's beyond awesome, PixieBoy. Your grandparents kick serious ass.
wow what a sweet reaction Pixieboy, thats awesome
My little sister also reacted awesomely, my mother told her while I was at a concert. My sister told me that she was proud of having a big brother who isn't afraid to be himself. This is going great! ;D ;D ;D