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But I had to post this.

I go to a shop that sells French products, jewellery, bags etc.  It is cute, and expensive but so what. I joined their loyalty program during the year when I bought a necklace. I was wearing male clothing at the time but I signed up as Cindy James, as I always do. When I bought the necklace there was some discussion about who it was for. I told Helen, the owner that it was for me, Cindy. She was fine, 'Oh I have to see it on you, please come in with it on, or send a picture.' I never got around to doing so. Last week I got a card saying the shop was having a drinks night and showing new stock pre Christmas, but you had to RSVP as a loyalty memeber. So anyhow I went in on Saturday, again in male clothing (there are reasons which are complicated). Helen saw me and said 'Cindy, its been ages, and you never came back wearing the necklace, she is a large vocal lady, who is delightful. I was introduced  to her new staff member who looked quizzical on meeting Cindy. I then said I really came in to book in for Monday nights party. 'Oh, Fantastic' goes Helen, you will be number 20, unless you want to bring a friend, that will be the limit. I said I'd be coming alone, and to look out for the necklace, she looked a bit odd at that.

So I went tonight. I wore my beige skirt, knee high boots, a black open blouse to reveal this V shaped solid glimmering copper necklace (Karen and Kelly have seen me in this skirt and boots and I reckon I look OK ::)) My handbag was also one I had bought from the same shop, a soft grey leather bag. Really nice. Make-up was good. Felt fine. Indeed I felt gorgeous.

So there I go. In to a shop containing 20 other woman, no one I knew, except the owner, and it is a small shop so no way of hiding so I just went for it. pretty sure I'm the only woman with a male voice in this shop. Pretty sure I'm the only woman with the wrong equipment between the legs. Pretty sure I'm going to enjoy/panic/hate this, I wonder what gaol will be like.

I am Cindy, Hear me ROAR

Walked up to Helen who had a tray of  Champagne, picked a flute as she said 'and you are', looking at her list, seeing the necklace, and saying at about 150 decibels, 'You are Cindy' Place goes quiet ' Oh this gorgeous woman is Cindy, she bought this necklace some time a go and it was a favourite of mine and she promised to wear it for me' So there I am Champagne flute in hand, desperately wanting to scull it and being the focus of attention for 20 woman who want to know why this necklace was so cute. So I decided I could make a sprint for the door in 2 inch heel boots and disappear. Or  'As soon as Helen showed it to me I loved it' in my totally none feminine voice,  Held it out for people to see, smiling and then, we had a great time.  She showed us new bags, jewellery etc etc. I bought some stuff. I went to the loo, in the queue, everyone chatting. 'Can you hold my glass while I have a pee, seemed to be the entrance statement to the stall."

I think everyone knew Helen's name, and for some reason everyone knew mine. Every time I tried to hide in the place of one, stand in a corner, (it always worked as a guy at parties everyone would ignore me) people would come over, "Hi, I'm XXX,' I forgot everyone's name but we had great chats, I think I sold more jewellery for Helen than her assistant, whose name I also forgot.  "Cindy, What does this look like on me?  Your necklace  makes a big statement and I've never thought of that before, so does this work? " 

I came home. I'm in the after shock.

Goddess what a night.

I have no idea if I passed. I seriously doubt it. But I was definitely accepted.

I'll take that.

The biggest fear is the fear of failure.

I accepted me. So did a lot of other people.

I'm sort of proud, and I'm trembling

Cindy

Cheers Sis  :)

I'm glad it went well, sounds like you were a hit  :) 

you were accepted which is all that matters but you look good anyway and maybe your voice isn't as bad as you think and may be on the edge of female anyway.

I think some of the GGs would die for your legs.    ;)

Cindy is a model! Cindy is a model! -said in a teasing manner-  I'm just kidding Cindy! I'm so jealous, I am so glad you had a great time and was treated well.

Big congrats!!! :laugh:

Yeah hon well done - and a gravely voice can be sooo sexy! :-)
+1 !

Axélle

So proud of you hon. It feels great to be in the company of women and feel accepted and part of the group, doesn't it? It becomes addicting and it might lead to further steps for you.

Perfect! :)  Well done Cindy! I'm so proud (and jealous) of you. :icon_flower:

Jennifer

I am so proud of you for being brave and going in despite your fears. Lately, I have been feeling scared when in the company of well dressed women. None has ever said anything negative to me, so I'm not to sure what it is all about.

Huggs

Emily

so happy it went well : ) that sounds like a fun night.

I'm glad you had a great time.Hugs,Rachael.

An awesome night that you'll remember forever....congratulations!

And a very brave thing to do, too...for myself I'd need a couple doses of something very flammable to drink first!  It helps steel the nerves, and gets me past the "I know I can't be passing right now" bits!

Cheers,

Julie

 ;D

KOOL & THE GANG - LADIES NIGHT (1979) OFFICIAL VIDEO (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qN8cz7ZNd7Y#)

Every time I've seen Cindy, she looked fabulous.. And I'm really not sure why she thinks she has a manly voice, she sounds a whole let better than me..

But great to hear you had a good time, Cindy.. I spent last night slaving away over a hot grill..

Quote from: kelly_aus on December 13, 2011, 01:54:28 AM
Every time I've seen Cindy, she looked fabulous.. And I'm really not sure why she thinks she has a manly voice, she sounds a whole let better than me..

But great to hear you had a good time, Cindy.. I spent last night slaving away over a hot grill..

Oh Kelly,
Flattery will take you everywhere. You have a job!!!!

PM me when you have time

Hugs

Cindy

I'm so happy for you Cindy!!

See there? I told you not to worry so much!

Seriously, reading your story has been the highlight of my day, Cindy. Thank you so much. Gawd... I'm getting all teary eyed now sharing your giddiness.

Cindi

That was such a good story! Warmed my heart!  ;D

Quote from: Cindy James on December 12, 2011, 06:41:38 AM
The biggest fear is the fear of failure.

I accepted me. So did a lot of other people.

I'm sort of proud, and I'm trembling

Cindy

Congratulations Cindy.  You've done yourself one awesome favour.  You've put yourself in the marketplace and have WON!!!!!    -    Hands down.

Do this 3 or 4 more times in close succession and it'll become a habit.  You may even become addicted to it. You have that quality in you.

Isn't  it  fantastic, that  you  didn't  realise  your  main  fear.  Well, it's obvious you didn't fail;  which just goes to prove, what fear stands for.  False Evidence Appearing Real.

Quote from: Cindy James on December 12, 2011, 06:41:38 AM
I have no idea if I passed. I seriously doubt it. But I was definitely accepted
I'm sort of proud, and I'm trembling

Further proof of just how successful you were.  You were obviously so over joyed at your achievement, that you muddled up the above statements.   So I have unmuddled them for you.   They should have read
I passed. I seriously have no doubt (about) it. But I was definitely accepted

I'm proud, and I'm sort of trembling

Keep breaking new frontiers, girl.  You are destined for this sort of stuff.

Be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine

Glad you had fun.

Also, this thread made me go listen to some Frankie Valli. In late December of '63, I had chicken pox:-(

A joy to read, both for content and quality. I'm glad things worked out so well for you. In the end we're people, and the more I open my eyes the more I see how few people really care what you are. If only those few that strike such an imposing wall of fear and shame could just button their lips and keep quiet.

Now, I demand picture! If nothing else, the necklace!  :-*