Hello everyone my name is Malachite (at least in the future probably). I am a 19 year old silent FtM pre op pre T pre everything. I am still currently living as a female due to my living situation of still being dependant on my mom. I live in a part of S.C. where there is still a lot of hate crime and violence towards LBGT people and even minorities so for safety reasons I am also still living as a female. Not only do I have to tackle my gender dysphoria but I have to tackle being obese which I will probably go more into in another post. I found this site after asking many FtM questions on Google.
I am in college to earn an associates degree in criminal justice. Currently I am pretty sheltered. I never had a job, don't have a license and a car or a social life yet but I do plan to "grow up" before I graduate. I want to be able to move up North to a trans-friendly city and be financially stable and independent enough to transition. It all seems scary though to be honest but I think that's normal for some people my age. For now I am just taking all of this extra free time I have to explore who I am as a man and what I want for my life.
As far as my hobbies and interests go well, I like to play video games, watch anime occasionally (hence the name Malachite), and surf the web. I would love to get into MMA training but I don't have money for a gym or a way to get there so I'm looking into good free standing punching bags if I can make room for one. Cosplay is also another interest I would love to get into when I can afford it.
If there are any life lessons I am currently learning so far, I will have to eventually do what is best for ME. I can respect intelligent opinions but in the end, I cannot please everyone. I have to do what I feel is right to me because at the end of the day when I rest my head on my pillow, I am the one who is carrying and dealing with my burdens and internal pain, not others. I also keep telling myself that it will get better. If I didn't think it would get better otherwise, then I would not be here right now. I'm happy knowing that I don't have to stay like this forever and despite my current situation and unforseen future, I am SO excited about transitioning. For me, it is a matter of when not if.
I'm really sorry if that I sort of got off topic and made the introduction long but that's is just a little bit about me. I look foward to meeting my fellow brothers and sisters on this site! :)
Hi Malachite, welcome to Susans! Make yourself at home, everyone here understands what you're feeling. We're always here if you have something on your mind. See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn
Hi Malachite :icon_wave: You have a great attitude, good luck on your journey.
Jennifer
Hey Malachite, I just noticed https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,141593.msg1194775.html#msg1194775 (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,141593.msg1194775.html#msg1194775) that you didn't get many replies! Why'd you go signing up on a slow week? Hugs, Devlyn
LOL well that was the day when I decided I needed to jump on the bandwagon of the best transgender site in the world. I guess everyone expect you and Jennifer decided to sleep on December 27th 2011 instead.
Rust Devlyn never sleeps!
Your 3 + years here and still going strong!
Welcome to Susan's, Malachite! :)
Wait a minute... something about your name seems familiar. :eusa_think: :laugh:
Amy
Quote from: Amelia Pond on August 03, 2013, 12:10:08 PM
Welcome to Susan's, Malachite! :)
Wait a minute... something about your name seems familiar. :eusa_think: :laugh:
Amy
Hehe, thank you for your warm welcome, Amelia Pond! I might have been around a couple of times or so. 8)
So you're the guy whose journal I keep poking my nose into!
*megahuggles*
A very belated welcome to Susans! Wish I'd seen this first time round. I think I met you first when you were already pretty established around here.
Oh well. Better late than never. ;D
Quote from: TheMultipleOne on August 03, 2013, 01:59:41 PM
I think I've seen you around too :D
...through your window...
That post goes perfectly with that avatar!
Welcome Malachite!
Don't I know you from somewhere? Aren't you that guy with the entrepreneurial penchant, the one who is the aggressive accumulator of bucks for the top surgery fund? Also the X-Box and video game king? Yeah, you seem really familiar! Welcome... ;D
Quote from: TheMultipleOne on August 03, 2013, 01:59:41 PM
I think I've seen you around too :D
...through your window...
How did you manage not to make my air conditioner fall? :D
Quote from: Sephirah on August 03, 2013, 02:09:11 PM
So you're the guy whose journal I keep poking my nose into!
*megahuggles*
A very belated welcome to Susans! Wish I'd seen this first time round. I think I met you first when you were already pretty established around here.
Oh well. Better late than never. ;D
Why yes I am and aren't you that nice lady who created that blog for me? I thought I'd recognized you from somewhere. :) -big hugs- I agree, better late than never.
Quote from: Shantel on August 03, 2013, 02:49:55 PM
Welcome Malachite!
Don't I know you from somewhere? Aren't you that guy with the entrepreneurial penchant, the one who is the aggressive accumulator of bucks for the top surgery fund? Also the X-Box PS3 and video game king? Yeah, you seem really familiar! Welcome... ;D
Why yes I just happen to be that guy and aren't you the woman who is having a birthday today? Yes I think I've seen you aound here too. You're the one with the title of "Auntie" around here.
*feels welcomed even after two years later* Thanks everyone! ^_^
I L-O-V-E mineral names!! And Malachite is one of my favorites. :)
Welcome to Susan's Place Malachite, we are so glad to have you here!
Quote from: Jamie D on August 04, 2013, 05:17:22 AM
I L-O-V-E mineral names!! And Malachite is one of my favorites. :)
:) Im glad my name can make you think of one of your favorite minerals
Quote from: Susan on August 04, 2013, 09:01:07 AM
Welcome to Susan's Place Malachite, we are so glad to have you here!
I want to thank you so much for creating this site as it has helped me come out of my shell some. :)
You are welcome! This site is here exactly because of people like yourself!
Quote from: Malachite on December 27, 2011, 10:01:27 PM
I can respect intelligent opinions but in the end, I cannot please everyone.
I like the way you think. :)
Thanks. :) Even two years later, I'm still working on that.
Quote from: Malachite on August 04, 2013, 08:14:56 PM
Thanks. :) Even two years later, I'm still working on that.
Pleasing everyone or respecting intelligent opinions? ;)
Mostly the latter, considering the people I've told have little to no intelligent opinions on the subject, that an mostly trying to be prepared to filter out family's negativity.
Quote from: Malachite on August 04, 2013, 08:23:49 PM
Mostly the latter, considering the people I've told have little to no intelligent opinions on the subject, that an mostly trying to be prepared to filter out family's negativity.
Aww, sorry. :(
I was joking. "Intelligent opinions" is funny to be because most are certainly not.
I hope I didn't offend. :)
Quote from: Jillian on August 04, 2013, 08:59:59 PM
Aww, sorry. :(
I was joking. "Intelligent opinions" is funny to be because most are certainly not.
I hope I didn't offend. :)
Oh not at alf offended` Sometimes it can be hard for me to comprehend things, but you're right. The few people I've told so far don't have an intelligent opinion, but when they get around to having them I will respect it. :)