My breasts have developed pretty well and currently i am a B cup, the only thing that i find completely disgusting is being naked and seeing breasts and a penis... it makes me completely miserable to shower and change clothing because i cannot avoid it, at least when i have clothes on i can hide it away.. I feel like a ->-bleeped-<- honestly and even though i find that word offensive towards trans people and me.. i find myself thinking that when i my body in the mirror or something :( its gonna be a very long time before i can even consider SRS.
Atleast you have boobs.
Some are unlucky and dyshporic about not having any and a peen, and they have to spend money on both a BA and SRS.
I'm sorry you don't feel well though.
Well, if you truly feel that bad about your anatomical state, you could always try wearing one of those "real pussies", or whatever they were called- Those false vaginas made out of latex that you can strap on to your own croatch, either as as a "hiding" prosthetic or, to have sexual intercouse with.
Guess you could teoretically try wearing one of those 24/7, if you think it could potentially make you feel better mentally from it.
10 months in and I barely fill an A-cup. -_-
So you have one up on me anyway.
Just be a pervert and get into it. I didn't used to like mine when i was 20 but I don't mind it now. Everyone's just going to go by your girl face. Nobody cares about whats in between your legs as long as all else is girly :)
Quote from: Elsa.G on January 04, 2012, 12:37:19 PM
My breasts have developed pretty well and currently i am a B cup, the only thing that i find completely disgusting is being naked and seeing breasts and a penis... it makes me completely miserable to shower and change clothing because i cannot avoid it, at least when i have clothes on i can hide it away.. I feel like a ->-bleeped-<- honestly and even though i find that word offensive towards trans people and me.. i find myself thinking that when i my body in the mirror or something :( its gonna be a very long time before i can even consider SRS.
This is something that often bothers me too :) My body has feminized fairly well over the past couple of years of being on HRT and seeing the annoying dangler attached to it just doesn't make sense :-\ It's like one of those puzzles were you have to find what doesn't belong in the picture
It really depresses me sometimes so I try to avoid looking at it and dream of affording srs :P
Quote from: Elsa.G on January 04, 2012, 12:37:19 PM
. I feel like a ->-bleeped-<- honestly and even though i find that word offensive towards trans people and me..
I don't find that word at all offensive IMHO. Cuz baby I was born that way.
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on January 04, 2012, 02:46:23 PM
I don't find that word at all offensive IMHO. Cuz baby I was born that way.
I don't mind it either.
Personally I think 'ladyboy' is cute. ;D
kinda weird it must be... I hope to get there when the penis is not so active too much, otherwise that would really hurt!!!
Quote from: JoeyD on January 04, 2012, 02:49:59 PM
I don't mind it either.
Personally I think 'ladyboy' is cute. ;D
I mean I won't refer to someone else as that, it's not for me to determine someone elses identity... But if I use the terms "sheboy", "->-bleeped-<-", "gay" to refer to myself...then people should pay no mind.
Some BG music: two turntables and a microphone (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Krdw3jyA2cM#) ;)
What does that music video have to do with the topic?
Quote from: Sarah Louise on January 04, 2012, 03:46:53 PM
What does that music video have to do with the topic?
Where it's at.
Kahlan Amnell's post, the link is right after "Some BG music:"
The song is actually called 'Where It's At' by a group called Beck
The song is about being a DJ but It is also used as a reference to having breasts and a penis
Quote from: Sarah Louise on January 04, 2012, 03:54:42 PM
Kahlan Amnell's post, the link is right after "Some BG music:"
Turn tables signify boobs
Microphone symbolizes the penis.
Nothing...remotely...offensive.
Btw, I love that song...Makes me feel 12 again. LMAO.
Die Antwoord - Beat Boy
"Look in the mirror, you can see it's you.
You got two nice boobs and a penis too."
Quote from: JoeyD on January 04, 2012, 04:05:21 PM
Die Antwoord - Beat Boy
"Look in the mirror, you can see it's you.
You got two nice boobs and a penis too."
Rock music loves the ->-bleeped-<-.
Quote from: V M on January 04, 2012, 04:00:15 PM
The song is actually called 'Where It's At' by a group called Beck
The song is about being a DJ but It is also used as a reference to having breasts and a penis
Beck is not a group. It's one guy.
The '->-bleeped-<--->-bleeped-<-s' would LOVE this, it's the PERFECT COMBINATION for them, LOL! >:-)
I'm facing the exact same problem, but you at least you have boobs, me I have almost none despite on HRT. Be happy you got at least boobs. And yeah it's very anxious when you even don't even know whether you'll be able to do the SRS or not. I know people who have waited like 10 years to have it, some who got it only at the very verge of trying to put an end to their lives. You're not the only one in this exact same situation sweetie...
Quote from: fionabell on January 04, 2012, 01:21:22 PM
Just be a pervert and get into it. I didn't used to like mine when i was 20 but I don't mind it now. Everyone's just going to go by your girl face. Nobody cares about whats in between your legs as long as all else is girly :)
Not everyone can feel that way. I despised what I had right up until the surgery, and now feel completely comfortable that it's gone. However, each to their own...
Quote from: Assoluta on January 04, 2012, 08:31:11 PM
Not everyone can feel that way. I despised what I had right up until the surgery, and now feel completely comfortable that it's gone. However, each to their own...
I wish hormones would allow me to use my penis.
Then I could have sex with curious homosexual men again...
Lol back to the topic.
I know what you mean Elsa,my breasts are are almost a full B cup and i'm only 4 months into HRT!! My body fat is starting to redistribute to more female-ish area's too so now I have breasts, a female body type and down below BLAH..... :embarrassed:
My body looks good in the mirror till I see that usesless appendage hanging there mocking me "Oh your still here?" ugh god most have a sense of humor after all. ::)
Quote from: Asha on January 04, 2012, 11:52:46 PM
My body looks good in the mirror till I see that usesless appendage hanging there
Useless appendage? I use it to pee. But you know different strokes for different folks.
She must pee out of her finger.
:D
Quote from: JoeyD on January 05, 2012, 12:01:20 AM
She must pee out of her finger.
:D
Someone told me once that mtfs have to crouch after the surgery because they reroute the pee vein.
Quote from: JoeyD on January 05, 2012, 12:01:20 AM
She must pee out of her finger.
:D
I wish! That would be so cool haha :D
Quote from: JoeyD on January 05, 2012, 12:01:20 AM
She must pee out of her finger.
:D
It would give a whole new meaning to "It's not nice to point."
Quote from: Jamie D on January 05, 2012, 02:54:47 AM
It would give a whole new meaning to "It's not nice to point."
LOL yeah ikr. :laugh:
I have found that as the boobs grew the other shrank somewhat. I just don't look at it, and nobody else is going to see it, unless they are a Bi girlfriend I guess.
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on January 04, 2012, 11:26:23 PM
I wish hormones would allow me to use my penis.
Then I could have sex with curious homosexual men again...
Well, I would say that you very obviously can, if you would want too, as you stated in another thread some weeks ago that you are masturbating 2-3 times a day.
In yet another thread, you also revealed the size of your stuff in its fully erect state and noted that it had shrunk after hormones, but, the point is, that it was in erect state.
A lot of T-actors in porn are able to hump, even when they are fulltime on hormones, so if you still are able to have erectile capacities, then you can, if mounting is really your thing.
I actually don't mind my penis (yet). As it is right now, I probably won't even get SRS done, unless my thinking changes as I go.
Quote from: Bishounen on January 05, 2012, 09:06:50 AM
Well, I would say that you very obviously can, if you would want too, as you stated in another thread some weeks ago that you are masturbating 2-3 times a day.
In yet another thread, you also revealed the size of your stuff in its fully erect state and noted that it had shrunk after hormones, but, the point is, that it was in erect state.
A lot of T-actors in porn are able to hump, even when they are fulltime on hormones, so if you still are able to have erectile capacities, then you can, if mounting is really your thing.
Thanks for the support.
I stopped my hormones for a few days and I had gotten really big again. Sorry, I consider my penis very much part of me and my identity... Now I just need the bi-curious gay boy to go with it. If this bothers anyone reading the thread, sorry...It's my body and my identity.
But I hope to get a prescription for viagra this year. But my boyfriend is a straight guy and doesn't like the idea of a former ->-bleeped-<- toppin him.
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on January 05, 2012, 04:54:31 PM
Thanks for the support.
I stopped my hormones for a few days and I had gotten really big again. Sorry, I consider my penis very much part of me and my identity... Now I just need the bi-curious gay boy to go with it. If this bothers anyone reading the thread, sorry...It's my body and my identity.
But I hope to get a prescription for viagra this year. But my boyfriend is a straight guy and doesn't like the idea of a former ->-bleeped-<- toppin him.
The stronger T-blockers can really put a damper on the turgidity factor.
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on January 05, 2012, 04:54:31 PM
Thanks for the support.
I stopped my hormones for a few days and I had gotten really big again. Sorry, I consider my penis very much part of me and my identity... Now I just need the bi-curious gay boy to go with it. If this bothers anyone reading the thread, sorry...It's my body and my identity.
But I hope to get a prescription for viagra this year. But my boyfriend is a straight guy and doesn't like the idea of a former ->-bleeped-<- toppin him.
I'm sure it's possible with just estrogen and no anti androgen - I never had anti androgens except just before the surgery to reduce the t levels to an appropriate level. However, even the day before SRS I was able to hang a towel on that 'thing' and would have been able to have sex with it had I wanted to.
is posibly go trough a HTR whitout anti androgen? interesting... the penis only bother me when i thoug in use a bikini or in the bulge had the underwear...but at the sex time i dont mind in use it to give pleasure to my GF ..i dont really feel the need to be top but yes i feel (a lot) the need to give the other a good moment... and well lesbian girls sometimes like to be topped too.
Well, in my personal experience, you can use strong anti androgen and (at least at 6 weeks) got erections if you take viagra.
But being honest what i really dislike of anti androgens is the huge down in libid....when you have a GF and feel the whish to kick her out the bed because feel sicked of kisses and the skin´s contact....the things are going bad :s
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on January 05, 2012, 04:54:31 PM
Thanks for the support.
I stopped my hormones for a few days and I had gotten really big again. Sorry, I consider my penis very much part of me and my identity... Now I just need the bi-curious gay boy to go with it. If this bothers anyone reading the thread, sorry...It's my body and my identity.
But I hope to get a prescription for viagra this year. But my boyfriend is a straight guy and doesn't like the idea of a former ->-bleeped-<- toppin him.
Wish I could trade with you Mahsa. I'm a year on HRT now and have lost no function, but I don't want it and I'm having it removed in 2 months.
Maybe if you just reduced your anti-androgens a bit so your T level was a little higher it would help without 'causing any masculinizing side effects.
It's nice to hear that some of you other girls didn't lose any ability, since it keeps making me paranoid that my testosterone is too high despite having blood tests and it makes me insanely genitally dysphoric I just want SRS now. ;_;
Quote from: Darrin on January 04, 2012, 07:07:04 PM
Beck is not a group. It's one guy.
Yep, unless you count Bend-Aid. :P
"That song doesn't usually last three hours, but we got into a serious thing... and then, I forgot how it ended."Quote from: Sarah7 on January 05, 2012, 09:05:00 PM
Wish I could trade with you Mahsa. I'm a year on HRT now and have lost no function, but I don't want it and I'm having it removed in 2 months.
Maybe if you just reduced your anti-androgens a bit so your T level was a little higher it would help without 'causing any masculinizing side effects.
Your body must respond well enough to the estrogen though (you have great hips).
...But it's the same with me; more than a year and still no loss of function unfortunately, irrespective of dose/MOA.
~P.S. Congrats on your upcoming SRS! :angel: ;D
Quote from: Akashiya Moka on January 06, 2012, 07:16:11 AM
Your body must respond well enough to the estrogen though (you have great hips).
...But it's the same with me; more than a year and still no loss of function unfortunately, irrespective of dose/MOA.
~P.S. Congrats on your upcoming SRS! :angel: ;D
:icon_redface: Thank you, I have gotten lucky in the hips and ass area. Unfortunately, my tits are still MIA (~3/4 A-cup).
Part of the reason I'm looking forward to my SRS is just to finally be rid of my testosterone issues. Despite starting at the very bottom of male range for T, my HRT doctor has still not been able to bring me down to female-normal levels of testosterone after messing with my meds for the better part of a year. (Which is why I suggested if Mahsa lets her T up slightly, she may get some function back.)
My body is just weird. I'm trying to accept it's quirks. But then I suppose we all have our own oddities in how we react to HRT.
Well, I'm trying to accept
some of my body's quirks anyway. The rest I'm getting rewired. ;)
Quote from: Mahsa the disco shark on January 05, 2012, 04:54:31 PM
But I hope to get a prescription for viagra this year. But my boyfriend is a straight guy and doesn't like the idea of a former ->-bleeped-<- toppin him.
Isnt it dangerous to have a mixture cocktail of viagra and female hormones?
Ahh... i bet you PnP'ed a lot in your gay days, huh? ;)
Quote from: MsDazzler on January 06, 2012, 01:17:07 PM
Ahh... i bet you PnP'ed a lot in your gay days, huh? ;)
Always.
Quote from: Elsa.G on January 04, 2012, 12:37:19 PM
My breasts have developed pretty well and currently i am a B cup, the only thing that i find completely disgusting is being naked and seeing breasts and a penis... it makes me completely miserable to shower and change clothing because i cannot avoid it, at least when i have clothes on i can hide it away.. I feel like a ->-bleeped-<- honestly and even though i find that word offensive towards trans people and me.. i find myself thinking that when i my body in the mirror or something :( its gonna be a very long time before i can even consider SRS.
I also feel the same when i look in the mirror..
I also have Large B cup breasts and my body fat is distributing into a more female form... I think my penis looks out of place... but SRS is a way off for me...
I'm happy with Little Niki, the little soldier. I very extremely highly largely doubt I'll ever get SRS. I definitely sympathize, though. I felt mildly dysphoric until I grew some cute little bewblets.