I have started this introduction several times over the past few weeks, only to abandon it each time. It is not always easy to answer the question, "Who am I?", when the answers are not readily apparent.
I am a unique individual who disdains classification. I have been that way all my life.
When I was very young, about six years old, I suffered a complication from a common childhood disease that almost killed me. As it was, I was left with damaged motor function, so much so, that I had to learn to crawl, walk, and run all over again. While I was home from school, my Mom, a teacher by training, bought for me the Life Nature Series. I ate them up. Then the Life Science series; then the World Book Encyclopedia. Before I got back to regular school, I was reading, and understanding college text books. I took college courses during the summer beginning with 7th grade. I am still a voracious reader today.
Although I had some slight impairment, I enjoyed playing sports as a kid. As a young teenager, I developed a mild case of gynecomastia. One doctor said I would grow out of it. Another said I had too much testosterone. As an older teen, a third said I was smoking too much dope - which, although true, lacks a good scientific correlation. At one point, I even lactated, which came as a surprise. Anyway, I have had some pert A-cups ever since, and I embraced them!
I became sexually active at 15. My first experience was with a similarly-aged girl and a gay guy. I had Playboy centerfolds on my bedroom wall, and a poster of Lief Garrett under my mattress. Even then, I recognized that I was both bisexual and bigendered, as I could fill the roles of male or female as required. Clearly, i was of two spiritis. I had bisexual flings in college until I met a young lady who captured my heart.
I married her and have remained married for nearly 30 years in a monogamous relationship, and have raised four kids. I suppressed, but always knew, that my "girl inside" was still there, waiting to blossom.
Because of some health issues that popped up in my late 40s, and some of the medications I was prescribed (Aldactone as a diuretic, calcium channel blockers, ACE inhibitors), my gynecomastia has increased. I felt now was a good time to reassess my gender(s) and explore my feminine side. So last year I began talking with a therapist and during the summer started a course of low-dose hrt (17b estradiol patch and AA - not Aldactone anymore).
I have already interacted here with several fine people in the community, and I hope to meet many more and learn from their experiences. Thanks for putting up with me.
Welcome Jaimie. You have an interesting background, and you seem more than ready to move forward. Susan's is a good place and we're happy to have you. :)
Thank you, Felix. I enjoy your posts.
Sorry I misspelled your name there. *Jamie :angel:
Quote from: Felix on January 10, 2012, 03:01:16 AM
Sorry I misspelled your name there. *Jamie :angel:
Phonetically you got it right!
I've never been a member of the spelling police.
Interesting post Jamie, and welcome. Lots of California Girls here, so you should feel right at home.
If your wife has known you were bisexual as well as bigender, hopefully your relationship will remain strong.
Hoping to see more from you.
Karen, of the Gumleaf Mafia. :laugh:
Hi Jamie, thanks for sharing with us. You came to the right place, we're always here for each other. See you around, hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: justmeinoz on January 10, 2012, 05:41:08 AM
Interesting post Jamie, and welcome. Lots of California Girls here, so you should feel right at home.
If your wife has known you were bisexual as well as bigender, hopefully your relationship will remain strong.
Hoping to see more from you.
Karen, of the Gumleaf Mafia. :laugh:
She knows. We enjoy a little role-playing from time to time. I have kept my girl inside largely in check.
She also knows I am devoted to her and don't stray.
Quote from: Devlyn on January 10, 2012, 07:54:03 AM
Hi Jamie, thanks for sharing with us. You came to the right place, we're always here for each other. See you around, hugs, Devlyn
From my experiences here so far, I like to think I am among friends, and perhaps, even role models.
For the love of all that is good, do NOT use me as a role model! Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn on January 10, 2012, 12:22:30 PM
For the love of all that is good, do NOT use me as a role model! Hugs, Devlyn
Okay, but I enjoy a challenge, so I'll have to get to know you better to understand my peril.
I'm just an overall bad influence, but then again, you could probably use a few bad habits, right? Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn on January 12, 2012, 06:29:29 AM
I'm just an overall bad influence, but then again, you could probably use a few bad habits, right? Hugs, Devlyn
Was it Mae West who said, "When I'm good, I'm very good. But when I'm bad, I'm better." ??
It sounds like great advice! Hugs, Devlyn
Starting to understand your peril yet? Hugs, Devlyn
Quote from: Devlyn on January 28, 2012, 05:11:10 PM
Starting to understand your peril yet? Hugs, Devlyn
Be afraid. Be very afraid.