When I began transitioning, I considered it a gender thing and I saw it as being isolated from the whole. There is my body, Im female, it is a male body,it is wrong, Ima gonna change it!
However, transition is changing my whole personality. It changed my musical taste and that does says a lot, because music is like food to me. I am listening to less aggressive music, I used to be into Slayer and other heavy trash metal bands. These days, I am listening to Hole. Hole! If you know how headbangers are, you know what a stretch that is.
I feel extremely more aware of body language, and I used to be clueless to it. It is like, I can read people better, and Im more sensitive to these things. I feel more fragile and easier to hurt, but also stronger somehow. I feel more patient, less anxious and of course, this kind of thing is related with not suffering from dysphoria as I used to. As I often said, my dysphoria was overwhelming and not being hit by it, allows me to just live.
It is hard to pinpoint this, there are many things different now about me, even the way I move changed. It is like I am flourishing, it is not like a rebirth, it is a birth. I almost feel like restarting my birthday count.
Once I fully came out to myself and completed what I call my "identity transition," a great of my person changed. I stopped seeing myself as David and started seeing myself as Connie. That alone caused changes in who I was. These changes were magnified by starting hormones a few months later.
So, I can relate to your post.
Hey me too, not to the same extent.
But apparently I am happier and more bubbly. :3
Good for you! ^^
I became much happier, more social and a lot of people noticed and liked that aspect of it which I think helped them accept it better.
I also lost some inhibitions, especially on being silly in public.
Quote from: Bird on January 27, 2012, 04:26:29 PM
When I began transitioning, I considered it a gender thing and I saw it as being isolated from the whole. There is my body, Im female, it is a male body,it is wrong, Ima gonna change it!
However, transition is changing my whole personality. It changed my musical taste and that does says a lot, because music is like food to me. I am listening to less aggressive music, I used to be into Slayer and other heavy trash metal bands. These days, I am listening to Hole. Hole! If you know how headbangers are, you know what a stretch that is.
I can completely 1000% percent relate. I'm a HUGE Metallica/Maiden/Megadeth fan... now I'll listen to Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, and even Kelly Clarkson. It's werid. Really weird. But very cool at the same time.
Yeah it's funny because people say your personality doesn't change much when you transition but it kinda does. I know my personality has changed dramatically from a quiet depressed emo rocker boy to a talkative happy-go-lucky girl who smiles like crazy which is weird cuz I barley ever smiled as a guy. I noticed my interests have changed as well from video games and guitar to fashion and beauty oh and cooking....I LUV TO BAKE!! :D
Main thing I noticed is I am calmer and less aggressive, don't stress over little stuff as much. Otherwise I'm the same as before.
I think I should go out more, but I don't have much to do. >_<
Quote from: Danielle×o on January 27, 2012, 05:27:03 PM
Yeah it's funny because people say your personality doesn't change much when you transition but it kinda does. I know my personality has changed dramatically from a quiet depressed emo rocker boy to a talkative happy-go-lucky girl who smiles like crazy which is weird cuz I barley ever smiled as a guy. I noticed my interests have changed as well from video games and guitar to fashion and beauty oh and cooking....I LUV TO BAKE!! :D
This +1 as well. Just tonight, oddly enough, I baked a carrot cake and brownies. Made my own frosting and everything from scratch. I like cooking in general a lot, so I guess it all works out eventually. :)
I don't think I've changed all that much.. I'm happier and less angry, but at the core I'm still the same person I've always been. But I've discovered in talking to friends that have known me a long time, that I was never as masculine as I thought I was, and some of them were far from surprised when I came out to them..
I went from a calm, tempered guy that couldn't be rattled and was fairly focused to this ditzy playful girly person that nobody would recognize personality-wise if they last saw me a few months ago. I don't care for video games anymore, I daydream about guys all day long (when I used to not really care about either sex unless a guy came and talked to me), I say some of the girliest crap ever when I'm being casual, when I used to say the most off the wall crude jokes. My taste has changed in a sense that if someone burps or farts in front of me, I get grossed out when I used to laugh or not care. I'm addicted to cute junk, when I used to not even notice it. When I see / hear things that are suppose to get people emotional, I reactively go AWWW instead of thinking "Oh that needs a reaction.. aw".
Generally speaking, my personality is much less calculated and much, much more spontaneous.
I haven't started 'mones yet, but I've changed:
I'm no longer dead, but alive! The thought of going back to my old "self" is sickening; I can only go forward from here.
Quote from: kelly_aus on January 27, 2012, 11:50:13 PM
I don't think I've changed all that much.. I'm happier and less angry, but at the core I'm still the same person I've always been. But I've discovered in talking to friends that have known me a long time, that I was never as masculine as I thought I was, and some of them were far from surprised when I came out to them..
Funny how some of us DO have similar experiences after all (see above).
Initially, on early HRT, I though that I had changed - a lot - but now?
I'm essentially the same person, just with different priorities.
Before transition it would NEVER have occurred to me to flirt with any straight male :-) and of course I had bought into all that stuff to appear more male.
In actual fact I never was - though gosh I did try... :-)
Axélle
I feel like I have gone back to the happier person I was at 15 or so before GID related depression dragged me down. In many ways I feel like I have come back onto the highway, near where I detoured onto a bumpy dirt road so many years ago. Now I can cruise along with the stereo playing all sorts of happy music by female artists.
Karen.
Years ago my wife told me what a difference there was in my personality when presenting as female, which was only the occasional once a month perhaps. It sure wasn't a conscious effort on my part.
The best explanation I've come up with was the female side of me had to be totally beaten down into submission. Many "female" personality traits were not allowed. I had spent years building that prison for her. The past few years I've been working on integrating the two mes into one whole healthy person.
Quote from: Bird on January 27, 2012, 04:26:29 PM
transition is changing my whole personality. It changed my musical taste and that does says a lot, because music is like food to me. I am listening to less aggressive music, I used to be into Slayer and other heavy trash metal bands. These days, I am listening to Hole. Hole! If you know how headbangers are, you know what a stretch that is.
I can totally relate to you on this. I find that metal / grind no longer.... turns me on, say we say? I have also noticed that the nice guy that once tried to please everyone, now sticks up for herself more. I'm no longer aggressive.... but certainly more assertive.
I've definitely changed, in more ways that I expected. In fact, I'm actually shocked. I really am
becoming the real me!! (
Godsize - cheeky reference? )
Quote from: Bird on January 27, 2012, 04:26:29 PM
It is hard to pinpoint this, there are many things different now about me, even the way I move changed. It is like I am flourishing, it is not like a rebirth, it is a birth. I almost feel like restarting my birthday count.
...okay, this is sad..
but.... I have actually given myself a "new" birthday. It was the time I took my first hormones. Previously I was a Gemini.. now I
glad proud to be a Sagittarius.
I wasn't even into star signs before.. now ..... there a form of fun.
Jenny
OXOXOXO
Quote from: JennX on January 27, 2012, 05:16:23 PM
...... I'm a HUGE Metallica/Maiden/Megadeth fan... now I'll listen to Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, and even Kelly Clarkson. It's werid. .....
Probably for the best then ..... :P
heheheheJen