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Community Conversation => Transsexual talk => Female to male transsexual talk (FTM) => Topic started by: nickm1492 on February 01, 2012, 08:00:24 AM

Title: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: nickm1492 on February 01, 2012, 08:00:24 AM
I have finally taken things into my own hands. It's good to feel like change isn't do far off. So right now I just signed paperwork at my school's counseling center and now I am waiting for a lady or man to review it. I'm not even sure that they will give me an appointment today. I feel sorta like my heart is pounding a little. I feel safe though. They have a bunch of "safe zone" stickers for LGBT students.
Also they had a drop box for gender and one of the options was TRANS! So I filled that out and I put my name as my birth name though. So its kinda like blah. But I didn't want my records to get screwed up. I'm a little bit scared right now but hopefully things work out. I honestly don't even know why I am writing this. I just need to get it off my chest. And it makes waiting a LITTLE bit easier!!
Title: Re: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: Kreuzfidel on February 01, 2012, 08:14:28 AM
That's being proactive :)  A big step!  Good luck and keep us updated.
Title: Re: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: nickm1492 on February 01, 2012, 08:36:00 AM
Thanks!!!!

So yeah. The deed is done. A lady talked to me. Super awesome and hilarious. She basically old me that they can provide me with a referral. And next week I have an appointment with the counselor that shall get me started with everything. I really hope that the lady doesn't play gatekeeper. The lady I spoke to today told me about how some counselors require you to play the role of your desired gender for a while. I hope she doesn't make me do that. I have an extremely large chest and no money for a binder at the moment. It's impossible if people are seeing my chest for me to comfortably take the role of a male. I need T.
I guess I am a little sad that I still haven't had the first OFFICIAL appointment and that stuff might hinder me. I know I wasn't gonna get a shot in the butt today lol but some part of my imagination wanted so much more :(

Baby steps I suppose
Title: Re: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: Lee on February 01, 2012, 08:36:29 AM
I was in the exact same spot about a year ago, and it ended up going fairly well. It gets a lot better once the nerves pass.  Good luck!
Title: Re: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: nickm1492 on February 01, 2012, 08:49:34 AM
Thanks so much. It's amazing how different all of us are but we all end up having so much in common because of this Transition. The support is incredible
Title: Re: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: Kreuzfidel on February 01, 2012, 08:54:45 PM
That's wonderful!  Have you thought of asking the guys on here if any of them would be willing to donate a used binder to you?
Title: Re: Sitting in this office is killing me...advice?
Post by: nickm1492 on February 01, 2012, 09:12:47 PM
Quote from: Kreuzfidel on February 01, 2012, 08:54:45 PM
That's wonderful!  Have you thought of asking the guys on here if any of them would be willing to donate a used binder to you?

Nah! I think the binder should go to someone who REALLY can't get one. I'm not in a position where it would be impossible for me to get a binder :) But thanks!!!!!!