So... I told some people. I told a lot of people I know online, I told a close friend (who happens to me ftm) and I told my girlfriend that I have gender identity issues. Now... I feel terrible. They are so supportive, but I feel so ashamed. I am so embarrassed, especially after I have decided I'll probably NOT go through with hormones or transition or anything like that. I feel like I have bullshatted them. It doesn't matter if they call me "he" or "she" now, or what they do. I feel ashamed and embarrassed. especially after letting them know about my gender problems and sexuality (I'm bi).
Is this normal? I don't know what to do.
I have so many problems. I just want to relax and be happy. :(
I'm sort of feeling the same way as well ur not alone in ur feelings
Maybe it's cold feet?
You've lived your whole life as one gender, following the rules even though it never felt right.
To live as the gender you really are (even if you choose not to go through transition, you can still crossdress to see your true self in the mirror. Thats what I've been doing for now) - this is going to have a huge change on your life and it's scary.
If you really believe this is what you are, don't feel ashamed telling people. It'll be much worse if you suppress it.
Quote from: Trixie on March 08, 2012, 10:27:02 PM
I feel like I have bullshatted them.
Sorry but I had to lol @ that.
I'm so immature. xD
QuoteI have so many problems. I just want to relax and be happy. :(
Yeah me too, can't wait to go out on st patties day and get drunk with my friends.
I need to unwind. :(
You let something go that's been bottled up.
As for not wanting to do what you think other might expect of you, good for you. You do what you feel you need to.
Take a step back and survey the situation. If you feel that you are bi therems no shame in that at all. I felt no shame when I started to cross dress. When I realized that I was trans, then I embraced my identity.
For me telling somebody is a releif. Now they know. If a person has a problem with it then get over it. I did.