I'm curious as to how it affected you in that respect, just want to know about some of the possible psychological changes that are in store for me once I start someday. Thanks for your time. ;)
First 7-14 days:
-Zero sex drive
-Overall higher energy
-Overall better mood
And eventually, during the first month, I became more emotional, somewhat. During the second month, I became more sociable.
I'm currently in those stages of transition. You might be interested to take a look at the HRT sections of my latest blog posts. (Link in signature)
A few days afterstarting on E I felt an immense sense of peacefulness. I slowly started to realize how beautifully the world is; before I was able to admire a sunset, forest, river, or mountain, but post E nature's beauty has an spiritual element attached to it. Later on, the way I see guys and children changed too. For children an enhanced sense of protection had developed, as far as guy I started to feel attracted to them, despite their pungent smell. And talking about smell, it has also has been enhanced by E.
Quote from: A on May 01, 2012, 08:52:58 PM
First 7-14 days:
-Zero sex drive
-Overall higher energy
-Overall better mood
And eventually, during the first month, I became more emotional, somewhat. During the second month, I became more sociable.
I'm currently in those stages of transition. You might be interested to take a look at the HRT sections of my latest blog posts. (Link in signature)
Those sound like some great changes, I hope they come my way. Thanks for sharing your experience; your blog is very informative. ;)
Quote from: peky on May 01, 2012, 09:17:56 PM
A few days afterstarting on E I felt an immense sense of peacefulness. I slowly started to realize how beautifully the world is; before I was able to admire a sunset, forest, river, or mountain, but post E nature's beauty has an spiritual element attached to it. Later on, the way I see guys and children changed too. For children an enhanced sense of protection had developed, as far as guy I started to feel attracted to them, despite their pungent smell. And talking about smell, it has also has been enhanced by E.
That's amazing and to be honest i've noticed that since just coming out i've been able to appreciate things that I wouldn't before like some of the things you mentioned, except guys but i'm noticing a slight change in what i'm attracted to in the last month since coming out so i'm keeping my sexuality ambiguous until hrt has had some time with me lol ;D
Quote from: peky on May 01, 2012, 09:17:56 PM
A few days afterstarting on E I felt an immense sense of peacefulness. I slowly started to realize how beautifully the world is; before I was able to admire a sunset, forest, river, or mountain, but post E nature's beauty has an spiritual element attached to it. Later on, the way I see guys and children changed too. For children an enhanced sense of protection had developed, as far as guy I started to feel attracted to them, despite their pungent smell. And talking about smell, it has also has been enhanced by E.
+1 yesterday I (5days on hrt) I heard about an accident my little brothers could have gotten into and this HUGE rush, and I mean rush, of protectiveness and love passed through me and I literally felt as if my heartstrings were being tugged at just the thought that anything could happen to them. Don't get me wrong, I always loved my brothers, but this was and is surreal in the amount that I fiercely protect the young ones. Even though I'm less of aggressive and will probably get weaker physically I think I truly understand now how a mother (in most but not all) can muster strength from god knows where to protect her young. *end of rant*
I found myself "awww"ing 200x more than normal. And it wasn't forced. Usually it was a "Ok this is a good time to aww to show sympathy". After HRT I couldn't stop myself from awwing.
So uncontrollable sympathies ... and that started week 2.
This! I forgot to mention this. I actually talked about this in my blog. "Cute!" and "Uuuuh!" are something I say more and more, almost uncontrollably.
Uhhh... yeah! That's so cute :D
lol that makes me think of the lorraine character from madtv "uhhhhh gosh that's cute!" ;D
Like others have said - a sense of peace, soon followed by a tendency to weep at the drop of a hat. There are shows on TV i can't watch anymore without embarrassing myself. I also got brain fog and notice that i'm a lot more easily confused and have to really concentrate on mental tasks that to be routine.
And the mood changes.
I've mentioned this before, but I went (and still go) from happy to mad sad to sympathetic to happy in like... 12 minutes.
Being a girl is ... something else lol
I've already forgotten what they were, but I'm pretty sure forgetting wasn't one of the first things.
Quote from: Alainaluvsu on May 01, 2012, 11:45:38 PM
And the mood changes.
I've mentioned this before, but I went (and still go) from happy to mad sad to sympathetic to happy in like... 12 minutes.
Being a girl is ... something else lol
How fast did this come in?
Quote from: A on May 01, 2012, 11:55:36 PM
How fast did this come in?
A month or 2 in. But it just got way worse around month 4 or 5.... but my hormone levels were sky high. My dosage was adjusted and they're not AS bad, but now that all happens in about 19 minutes instead of 12 lol!
You should've seen me in class holding back tears because a teacher showed me how to do something. And 2 minutes before that I was joking around and very happy.
Looks somewhat fun. (To watch! Joking, joking.)
Quote from: A on May 02, 2012, 12:00:32 AM
Looks somewhat fun. (To watch! Joking, joking.)
Girll.... u just don't know. I'm sure the people that had to listen to it thought it was hilarious... at first...
Oh and you handle anger differently. I used to pop off and be cool after, now I hold an undying grudge until that person is nice to me again.
I've been on HRT for a bit less than half a year, but for me, there haven't been any psychological changes, in terms of mood or otherwise.
So it might vary for different people :)
PS I'm perfectly happy with my own psychological state, though! So I don't mind not having changes at all...
I'm only at my 3rd day in an i'm not quite sure if it's the hormones or just the fact i'm relieved to have started them but I feel incredibly peaceful, the last time I remember feeling this calm was way before puberty set in; also I feel more focused on tasks that i'm working on...
Quote from: Andarta on May 09, 2012, 08:06:04 PM
I'm only at my 3rd day in an i'm not quite sure if it's the hormones or just the fact i'm relieved to have started them but I feel incredibly peaceful, the last time I remember feeling this calm was way before puberty set in; also I feel more focused on tasks that i'm working on...
BINGO! That's how I feel too lol. I feel that sense of calm/innocence I did pre-puberty. Also, amen to the zero sex drive thank god.
Quote from: Erin on May 09, 2012, 08:09:24 PMAlso, amen to the zero sex drive thank god.
How many days in did it take for it to go to zero for you? it has been significantly reduced for me to maybe about 20% lol
Quote from: Andarta on May 09, 2012, 08:57:10 PM
How many days in did it take for it to go to zero for you? it has been significantly reduced for me to maybe about 20% lol
Honestly it took me about 5 days before it just dropped off. It's tough to explain but it's like I just forgot I even had a sex drive I just thought to myself "huh?" lol
Some don't lose their sex drive.. I haven't, at least not significantly..
My sex drive took 2 1/2 weeks to drop off. There was and still is a calming after that. Some of the psychological changes crept up on me and I didn't notice on some of them. I was told by others on those changes.
Joelene
sucks that one looses libido. Is it for the entire process? will I ever want to get laid again? As a pre-HRT person I am 90% sex-drive, 10% whatever is left of one's personality as a male. Although I do not want to have the sex drive of a cauliflower (lol)..I need hrt to realy bring me into my transitioning self, the female-looking-and-feeling person I aim to be....thus....
Should I take viagra? (lol) or those GNC supplements for men at the peak of my HRT?
Quote from: Jackie Witt on May 10, 2012, 12:52:12 AM
sucks that one looses libido. Is it for the entire process? will I ever want to get laid again? As a pre-HRT person I am 90% sex-drive, 10% whatever is left of one's personality as a male. Although I do not want to have the sex drive of a cauliflower (lol)..I need hrt to realy bring me into my transitioning self, the female-looking-and-feeling person I aim to be....thus....
Should I take viagra? (lol) or those GNC supplements for men at the peak of my HRT?
Not on all of those taking HRT. This is one of the biggies that your therapist will tell you if you are considering HRT. These were some of the questions that I told myself before taking this stuff. I'm also middle aged and had a prostate problem that HRT is one of the treatments for this even though it is one of the last resort treatments.
Joelene
After a week on HRT on E only I felt better about myself - the buzzing annoyance of my GID dropped off.
Libido started dropping off over 6 weeks - which is a good thing for me as I found it very very distracting.
Started on Spiro 2 weeks ago, and visual turn ons don't do much anymore - very happy about that.
Interestingly as well, I'm performing better at work - much quicker and efficient - I have no idea why that's the case as I thought I couldn't do my job any faster.
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It seems like people have drastic changes even a few days on hormones! Im not sure how much of it is psychosomatic and how much is real, because I have often heard huge, dramatic changes based on gender stereotypes, and it might be in part that it's based on the expectation to become that way.
Personally I felt awful for the first three months, I felt anxious, upset and uneasy for the first three months or so, but after that it stabilised, and even six years later I'm not much different in personality to how I was pre hormones. However, I did change hugely in terms of my psychological perception of myself, and I almost feel like a different person to who i was then, just with more or less the same personality traits. I'm not sure whether that was hormones or the fact that transitioning and being perceived differently changed my outlook. Maybe my body isn't really psychologically affected by hormones, as I never went through a stroppy teenager phase, or felt the need to act masculine during my first puberty. As for sex drive, it reduced by about 50 percent, but I could still hang a towel on 'it' even the day before the surgery. Post surgery, I still have the same sex drive as I did just pre surgery I.e. About half of my original 'male' sex drive, so you may not necessarily lose it all.
Sex drive is largerly psychological. I think most people who have a partner they want to have sex with and are relatively fine with their genitals retain a sexual activity.
As for the intensity and speed of psychological effects on HRT, I think it all comes down to how much T used to negatively affect the person. I think people who best managed to be themselves prior to hormones, despite male hormone levels, feel the least effects.
Also, I think there are personality traits/behaviours that are brought/intensified by T, such as aggressivity, for example. Perhaps one whose "core personality", regardless of gender, includes some of those traits (someone very assertive and straightforward in this example, I guess), or someone who values such behaviours (very liberal people in this example, maybe), would be less negatively affected by testosterone than someone who isn't really aggressive and hates herself for feeling angry. Thus, the personality changes once on HRT would be less apparent to the former than the latter.
And, hm, there's also the sex drive reduction. I think almost all of us lose some amount of sex drive in a purely physical way. That could be a huge encouragement for someone who hates her genitals or sex a lot, and a huge discouragement for someone who has a very active sex life and little genital dysphoria. Hence, the former would feel more happy and free, whilst the latter wouldn't feel that at all. And more happiness tends to make a person's personality change, or at least appear to.
I lost my sex drive which didn't worry me, my mood went from being the nice person that would help you out to a bitch if the wrong thing was said to me, speaking my mind and saying what others were scared to say cause it may offence someone, I became emotional and a clean freak that doesn't like dirty greasy skin.
But the funny part of my psychological changes were the girls I use to hang around noticed the changes before I did and someone said now you know what we go thought and you better to be around..
Cheers Tracy
An emotional spectrum I never knew was possible. For this reason only I would never give up hormones. Being a male felt very empty and I felt cut off from people. Now I feel and can express feelings, and I can be with people who are feeling and connect with them.
It's like a whole part of my brain turned on and rapidly (within two weeks of starting). This wasn't a placebo effect or because I was shirking off male constrictions. Real physiological changes.
... shirking off male constrictions
A form of liberation?
Welp, for me.... crying is easier, and I feel somewhat more confident/content with myself. Nothing else has changed, really; reading some of the above posts is almost upsetting, as I feel that I've really missed out. Oh wellz...
That, or your personality resisted testosterone to begin with. ~
QuoteBeing a male felt very empty and I felt cut off from people. Now I feel and can express feelings, and I can be with people who are feeling and connect with them.
Yes, I feel like that too. For me being able to do this also has something to do with not being seen as male and therefore not a potential partner.
I find that I let things go more easily.
I have a lost a lot of intellectual drive, and a lot of ability to concentrate on difficult concepts and learn new things....and I don't really mind!
I will get into a crying mood every now and again, but I feel better after having let it all out than having the constant dull dissatisfaction with life that I used to have.
As far as male sex-drive goes, estrogen started to strangle it after about a fortnight, and went on suppressing it for six months. Cyproterone killed it instantly. This was something I was prepared for, and in some ways this was a relief and a release, but I also felt a bit sad about it. Not only was the drive gone but sexual attraction to people also disappeared too. It is a bit of a downer to realise that you simply cannot feel any more what most people enjoy and take for granted.
After five months of living like that, something else seems to have grown in the place of the male libido which gives me hope that a sex drive of some sort is coming back. It's hard to explain, but it is a bit like a toned-down version of what went before, and is a feeling that I can enjoy even without desire (or ability) to get my rocks off.
Quote from: Kadri on May 26, 2012, 02:45:20 AM
I have a lost a lot of intellectual drive, and a lot of ability to concentrate on difficult concepts and learn new things....and I don't really mind!
Hmmm I would mind a lot if I start being unable to learn difficult things! I wouldn't want to be thought of as a dumb girl...
Haha...Yes, point taken!
I'm actually talking forgetting how to do some very complicated stuff meaningless to the world at large. It's kind of a relief not to constantly have to analyse and compute a constantly shifting array of thoughts around in my mind. Sometimes I think that a lot of it was a tactic to put me of thinking about my own problems in the first place.
What I have lost in ability to process and learn, I have gained in contentment with life, So I think it's a good trade-off in the end.
Immediate sense of peace and of feeling "right". Awful out-of-control (feeling) sex drive replaced with a sense of owning my body again. I remained a sexual being but felt less like a cart and more like a horse or less like a horse and more like a carrot on a stick (as time went on).
I get real mad sometimes about smaller issues. There is an odd calm-anxiety about things I control and make decisions about. Almost like I don't want to decide, or my decision doesn't matter. I want to cry more, but can still hold back. And no sex drive at all, but it's almost like I don't care.
Oh, almost forgot, there is also an overall sensual change or something like that in the background. Touch, smell and taste? And I can't explain it.
Personally when I started HRT I felt like complete ass.
It felt like someone had stuffed my head full of cotton wool, The changes began quickly tho. I felt much lower sex drive under 24 hours. I also noticed changes in taste and scent also nipple sensitivity. I felt more relaxed overall and less anxious because I knew no matter what I didn't have to worry about my my body becoming more male even if nothing else had changed.
So there were certainly some changes no doubt.
http://forum.sofeminine.co.uk/forum/maternite1/__f71_maternite1-Crying-during-pregnancy.html (http://forum.sofeminine.co.uk/forum/maternite1/__f71_maternite1-Crying-during-pregnancy.html)
There is no doubt that they do play on your mind... Although that thought scares me.
Umm, I've been on HRT for 2 weeks-ish and absolutely no mental or emotional changes.
I didn't expect any though, so I think a lot of the reported effects are more of a placebo effect.
Its almost indescribable. I mean, I went from being deeply depressed to ecstatic happy! All in just 5 days!
My emotions are different. I have been happy at times before hrt, but being happy now is waaaaaay better.
I also want to socialize a lot more now. It still drives me nuts that I can't go full time yet, but even so I'm not withdrawn anymore. I just have the urge to chat up a storm with people, especially other women.
And there's the giggles. Love them!
To sum it all up I think I'm starting to feel like a 12 or 13 year old girl...lol
And I smile a lot now too. ;D
Almost forgot. The tiny bit of sex drive I had is now gone completely! Happened on the second day.
I have had some...thankfully in the positive aspect
day 2-4- REALLY tired. Like all the time tired..It eased up on me eventually but I become physically and emotionally exhausted very easily now.
Week 1 through 2..Got used to the "tired aspect" of things and went more "normal" but less "depressed" feeling...overall feeling good.
Week 3- Stupidly happy!!! I would go into random giggle fits...Wife thought this was quite funny..
Coming on week 4- Mood is fantastic!! Always in a good mood about everything, even at work. Giggle fits still happen ???
Hope you get the good side of it when it comes ;D
Quote from: kelly_aus on May 09, 2012, 11:33:37 PM
Some don't lose their sex drive.. I haven't, at least not significantly..
+ 1 for me!! For me the sex drive is a different urge, before it used to be just primal and raw, but now I yearn for sex from my partner that is more tender and passionate (with definitely lots more kissing!!)
However, my need to ejaculate has dropped and I mean dropped. Before I couldn't concentrate on the tasks at hand because I would need to masturbate at least 3 or 4 times. Mind you I was just passing the peak of manhood (eughhh..) anyways, now I can last for a few days- and the need for it now is just to empty the old stuff out. Haha.
Also like others here... within one month I was definitely feeling more emotion and becoming more sensitive especially with my boyfriend who would say something completely harmless and I would totally get insulted. Poor him. Regardless, I definitely agree you are definitely more emotive once on HRT
Anyone else notice it's harder to concentrate? Maybe it's just me but I'm currently studying at University and when I'm doing my assignments I feel so out of touch with my sense of focus, mind you I take Androcur (which does affect your ability to concentrate dramatically) towards the end of the night right before bed, so I don't think its that
.... hmmmm thoughts?
I do get more tired late at night, but I find that rather healthy. And overall, my concentration is much better. Not sure why it does the opposite for you.
Quote from: danni8891 on May 28, 2012, 06:07:42 PM
Anyone else notice it's harder to concentrate? Maybe it's just me but I'm currently studying at University and when I'm doing my assignments I feel so out of touch with my sense of focus, mind you I take Androcur (which does affect your ability to concentrate dramatically) towards the end of the night right before bed, so I don't think its that
.... hmmmm thoughts?
Yeah, I do find it more difficult to concentrate also. Plus I have ADD so that doesn't help. I'm on Androcur too and its kind of weird. Like, in the middle of the afternoon I could just sleep so easily and for hours. But on the other hand, if I'm up and have things to do I'm like full of energy and hyper.
Definately not what I'm used to, that's for sure.
Oh, and I take my Androcur in the morning at 8am. I know we dare not mention doses here, so with that in mind, maybe you're on a higher dose than me. Without saying what it is, I'm on a starting dose right now.
Feel calmer and generally happier, but also worried about what the future will bring. Dysphoria reduced so much I wonder if I imagined the whole thing, but I imagine that if I stopped it would come flying back.at the same time as testosterone.
Quote from: Kadri on May 26, 2012, 02:45:20 AM
Yes, I feel like that too. For me being able to do this also has something to do with not being seen as male and therefore not a potential partner.
I find that I let things go more easily.
I have a lost a lot of intellectual drive, and a lot of ability to concentrate on difficult concepts and learn new things....and I don't really mind!
On my list of effects i hope for, that one is high up near the top.
I KNOW (before anyone says so) that it reads like a misogynistic stereotyping, but one of the things i don't like about my maleness is that know-it-all answer for everything have-to-have-the-last-word win-every-argument attitude.
I really feel like i'd enjoy trending a lot towards to "oh look a puppy!" personality rather than the "Let me tell you why you are wrong in extensive detail" personality.
Quote from: apple pie on May 26, 2012, 03:19:44 AM
Hmmm I would mind a lot if I start being unable to learn difficult things! I wouldn't want to be thought of as a dumb girl...
I'd be fine with it as long as it wasn't ridiculous. I'd readily concede all my "IQ" above average, and a few points more, in order to gain a more "girly" attitude and emotional outlook on life.
Being cold and analytical feels, well, cold to me.
Quote from: Siobhan on May 29, 2012, 01:11:33 AM
Feel calmer and generally happier, but also worried about what the future will bring. Dysphoria reduced so much I wonder if I imagined the whole thing, but I imagine that if I stopped it would come flying back.at the same time as testosterone.
I have the same feeling as you. Its almost surreal :S.
But I wont stop now knowing that I spent most of my life hating my body, surely it could not just have been imagination :).
Anyway I am almost 1,5 months in now and feel calmer than ever before, happier and also feel the urge to talk to others which is new to me because I used to keep away from other people before :).
There is also one funny thing that I have noticed. When I say hello to people I do smile (which I never did before) and afterwards I go like "what did I just do??" and I also use facial gestures and hands in conversations alot more than before. I am not sure about where this all comes from but it just started to happen 3 weeks in or so without me actually thinking about it.
Quote from: Tammy Hope on June 02, 2012, 04:42:09 AM
I'd be fine with it as long as it wasn't ridiculous. I'd readily concede all my "IQ" above average, and a few points more, in order to gain a more "girly" attitude and emotional outlook on life.
Being cold and analytical feels, well, cold to me.
Ummm, there is no correlation between being cold and analytical and IQ. Being cold and analytical would be more of an autistic correlation. In any event I am not always cold and analytical in real life
Quote from: Tammy Hope on June 02, 2012, 04:42:09 AMI'd readily concede all my "IQ" above average, and a few points more, in order to gain a more "girly" attitude and emotional outlook on life.
::)
It sounds misogynistic because it IS misogynistic. And as to what you said before, I think it's a form of stupidity to be obsessed with your own ego and proving other people wrong about every little thing.
Quote from: pretty on June 03, 2012, 12:05:27 AM
::)
It sounds misogynistic because it IS misogynistic. And as to what you said before, I think it's a form of stupidity to be obsessed with your own ego and proving other people wrong about every little thing.
I know. that was an admission, not a question.
the thing is though, i'm not hung up on all the politics of gender stuff. Just not my thing.
I LIKE being a girly girl, I like being "taken care of" and all that stuff.
your approval on that, or lack thereof, isn't a factor
As for the ego thing - I don't think I'd use the word stupidity, but it is a part of me i do not care for and hope to see fade.
Quote from: danni8891 on May 28, 2012, 06:07:42 PM
Anyone else notice it's harder to concentrate? Maybe it's just me but I'm currently studying at University and when I'm doing my assignments I feel so out of touch with my sense of focus, mind you I take Androcur (which does affect your ability to concentrate dramatically) towards the end of the night right before bed, so I don't think its that
.... hmmmm thoughts?
I was never really quite sure whether it was the Androcur doing that to my concentration, or whether I had broken down from just having handed in a thesis. I started just a few weeks after, you see. Since reading more people's experiences here, I think that this is definitely the reason. Once I get rid of that thing between my legs, I won't need to take it any more.
I also take mine early in the morning, and have to have at least half an hour of snooze in the afternoon, plus be asleep before midnight, but I get into a beanbag after dinner, I won't be leaving there for a while.
Quote from: Carolina1983 on June 02, 2012, 04:53:34 AM
I have the same feeling as you. Its almost surreal :S.
But I wont stop now knowing that I spent most of my life hating my body, surely it could not just have been imagination :).
Anyway I am almost 1,5 months in now and feel calmer than ever before, happier and also feel the urge to talk to others which is new to me because I used to keep away from other people before :).
I felt alive for the first time More intense sense of smell and touch I felt much more connected with others I could read and sense emotion much more readily The sore nipples and very tender breasts followed but so did 'fluffy' thinking and I felt like I was losing control or at least my ability to think clearly and analytically/rationally Perhaps it was the impact of a rushed puberty on my brain What really surprised me was that my sex drive and need to present as female just evaporated I was no longer stressed and tense I felt that I had more options available to me as to how I could relate to others and to myself The elixir of life - yes The blind folds were removed from my eyese and the plugs removed from my ears - I was sensate
Quote from: Andarta on May 01, 2012, 07:19:28 PM
I'm curious as to how it affected you in that respect, just want to know about some of the possible psychological changes that are in store for me once I start someday. Thanks for your time. ;)
I didn't have any psychological changes just an improved sense of smell and taste!
Quote from: Tammy Hope on June 03, 2012, 05:01:58 AM
I know. that was an admission, not a question.
the thing is though, i'm not hung up on all the politics of gender stuff. Just not my thing.
I LIKE being a girly girl, I like being "taken care of" and all that stuff.
The misogynistic part was that you implied that being intelligent and being a girly girl are mutually exclusive. :-\
A lot of actually really smart (and still feminine) women pretend they are dumb to conform to that stereotype but it is not true. Women are just not given credit for their intelligence by men who treat them like children. And they are discouraged from making use of their intelligence.
Just saying... it is possible to be smart
and feminine
and like being taken care of. And you don't have to be actually helpless to enjoy a little help sometimes. I don't know why MTFs, of all people, would sit here acting like women are the stupid sex. But I see it a lot.
Quote from: helen2010 on June 03, 2012, 07:12:21 AM
I felt alive for the first time More intense sense of smell and touch I felt much more connected with others I could read and sense emotion much more readily The sore nipples and very tender breasts followed but so did 'fluffy' thinking and I felt like I was losing control or at least my ability to think clearly and analytically/rationally Perhaps it was the impact of a rushed puberty on my brain What really surprised me was that my sex drive and need to present as female just evaporated I was no longer stressed and tense I felt that I had more options available to me as to how I could relate to others and to myself The elixir of life - yes The blind folds were removed from my eyese and the plugs removed from my ears - I was sensate
Thank god that you said that. I feel the same way and it made me think "whats going on"?
Quote from: pretty on June 03, 2012, 12:11:59 PM
The misogynistic part was that you implied that being intelligent and being a girly girl are mutually exclusive. :-\
A lot of actually really smart (and still feminine) women pretend they are dumb to conform to that stereotype but it is not true. Women are just not given credit for their intelligence by men who treat them like children. And they are discouraged from making use of their intelligence.
Just saying... it is possible to be smart and feminine and like being taken care of. And you don't have to be actually helpless to enjoy a little help sometimes. I don't know why MTFs, of all people, would sit here acting like women are the stupid sex. But I see it a lot.
Believe me I know and have a TON of respect for the VERY intelligent women out there.
I do not in any way believe the stereotype to have any validity.
I do not, in fact, consider this feeling I have to even be rational, certainly not something I would suggest to anyone else.
It's just an irrational emotion that makes me feel like a lot of the things I don't like about my personality flow from being (I think) intelligent and I see the appeal of being something else.
I do not mean to defend that position, I'm just being open about it.
Quote from: Jamie D on May 25, 2012, 02:34:53 PM
... shirking off male constrictions
A form of liberation?
For the first time ever, I actually felt free and happy. Freedom, psychological and emotional freedom, is powerful.
Quote from: Siobhan on May 29, 2012, 01:11:33 AM
Feel calmer and generally happier, but also worried about what the future will bring. Dysphoria reduced so much I wonder if I imagined the whole thing, but I imagine that if I stopped it would come flying back.at the same time as testosterone.
Siobahn I stopped hrt for a month for medical reasons and the stress and dysphoria seemed even stronger than it had been before I started hrt Starting again was even better than the first time and I cannot think of ever stopping again This time around my head doesn't feel fuzzy and I don't feel over whlemed - I just feel 'right' again I am back where I feel I belong
I'm nearing 3 months on hrt now an so far i've felt nothing but calm & happiness an I haven't really gotten emotional, but maybe the water works are still on their way and maybe most of the happiness is placebo because I have just moved to NC near my mom an sis an it's great to say that so far they've all been incredibly supportive an just about everyone I associate with on a regular basis knows about me an has been cool.
One very unexpected thing i've noticed is that i'm more daring an will take up doing dangerous things that I wouldn't do before hrt, this has been a shock to people who've known me before hrt. I also don't back down from arguments as easily as I used to an more apt to tell someone off if they urk me. >:-)
The most profound change was my perception and outlook towards ......... of all things ...... MEN!!!
Being subject to extended and repeated pedophilia interference in my pre teen and early teen years, I've always had a healthy disregard towards men in general, verging on a substantial loathing for many.
Yet within 3 weeks of starting HRT, 'E' only at that stage, I was absolutely rocked by the profound desire to be in the embrace of one. Both therapist and Psychiatrist copped a drilling on that one for weeks, until I understood.
HRT is an experience you need to leave yourself open to ever new thought and emotion, to achieve the maximum benefit. I'm now into dress making. I can home with my very first sewing machine the other day, and my wife was absolutely shocked. It cost me the princely sum of $36.75. Where would we be without eBay? :laugh: :laugh: (the overlocker comes next week ::) ;D)
Enjoy the journey
Huggs
Catherine