Last night, for reasons that are not important, I went out in guy mode. While out and about, I ran in to a bunch of people that I knew. All were somewhat surprised about my appearance and a few of them suggested it was the funniest 'male fail' they'd seen in a while.
Any way, this brings me to my dilemma. I went out, first to a local bar and then to a club. I must confess I had a great time. But the dilemma is that I didn't hate being in guy mode, in fact it was kinda fun. I don't know if it was because it reminded me of one of the few periods in my life that weren't entirely hellish or whether a facet of my existing personality got to come out and play.
My being genderqueer is something my therapist has mentioned before, he makes a good case for it.. But see myself as a woman, admittedly a somewhat masculine woman, but a woman all the same.. Could he be more right about me than I think he is?
if you still feel like you identify as female, perhaps it was more of a drag king or FtMCD um thing, or because your friends said you didnt pass as male it made you more secure in your feminitity. thats all wild speculation on my part, and labels are like (or are?) generalisations, and all generalisations are wrong, including this one.
In a word. No.
Lots of women go out in guy mode.
You are no guy. Believe me.
Sounds like a fun night out pretending to be a guy, and a bit of a relief from the drama you have had lately. :) A pleasant diversion. I wouldn't worry about it unduly Kelly.
Karen.
Quote from: justmeinoz on May 06, 2012, 07:27:45 AM
Sounds like a fun night out pretending to be a guy, and a bit of a relief from the drama you have had lately. :) A pleasant diversion. I wouldn't worry about it unduly Kelly.
Karen.
Actually, the source of most of the drama was there.. And simply made himself look like even more of an idiot than he already did..
So, that proves you were right all along.