Wow. That is all I can really say. The last few days have been a roller coaster and while I know the ride is just beginning, I am glad to have found this place so early.
I am a slightly gender confused girl, who is currently dating the (wo)man of my dreams. Even before we got serious, I had already pretty much known that Elly felt like he should have been born in a female body. Initially we talked about this, and at the time he had pretty much assured me that while he felt that way, he didn't think he would actually ever go through with the process necessary to transition from male to female.
I have spent the last 14 weeks studying abroad, while Elly has been stuck at home in the states. This has given me tons of time to think. A few days ago I brought the questions about his plans for the future up again, but the answers weren't the ones I was hoping for. He wanted to change how he looked to match what he felt inside.
I want to be so supportive. If it was just us, I know I could be. I think he is a beautiful woman, and I will love and support him no matter what he looks like or the gender he wants to be.
BUT.. There is always a big BUT...
I am scared. I am scared for us, and for our relationship. I worry about my family and the plans he and I had for the future. Mostly I am selfish I think. I don't want him to change, because I love him just how he is. I don't want him to change so I don't have to deal with people who will judge him, especially my family who I know won't want to except him or our relationship. I don't want to possibly lose my friends who don't accept us.
So all these things are running through my head, and I have been thinking more and more about myself, and wondering if I am really all that normal either. So I am trying to find where I fit in as well. I hope that I find answers and support for my own journey, as well as the one I am now beginning to take with Elly.
~Suki
Hi Suki, welcome to Susans! You can find a lot of information and shared experiences here, and we are always here for each other. Take a look around, our rules and Terms of Service are located in the Announcements section. They're easy to follow. See you around, hugs, Devlyn
Hi Suki :icon_wave:
Welcome to Susan's :) You've come to the right place, there is a nice S.O. section here with allot of nice supportive people to talk to
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V M
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Hello people of relative gender and physical sex!
I'm Elly ( Short for Elendra, not based on Magic : The Gathering, I promise ). I
am the Elly mentioned by Sukisho here, as she may attest to as she just told me of this place over Skype like, 3 minutes ago, and then linked me, and then I registered, and now I'm here posting... in here instead of my own independent introduction post. :icon_flower: For you, Suki :P
Anyway, uh, let's proceed in a more dignified tone.
- I love Sukisho
- I love myself
- I have felt that I should have been born female since as far back as I can remember
- Most definitive memory is around 11 years old
- I came out to my parents when I was like, 17
- They did not accept that, and promptly sent me to a fundamentalist christian pastor to 'help me'
- I no longer go to him
- I want to have kids
- I think I'm totally capable of remaining male, and having a happy life
- Lastly, most everyone in my personal life Pre-Sukisho is already aware of how I feel. Her friends and family do not know.
- I don't want to hurt our relationship.
And that's dignified enough. Lists are very dignified. ( Have I mentioned I'm kinda a spaz? )
Anyway. uh... I dunno what else to post in here in response to Sukisho. I should probably make my own thread elsewhere to properly introduce myself...
So I will!
...
Ta~!
Thanks Elendra!
I know you don't think you need the support as much as I do, but knowing that you joined to support me supporting you makes me feel a lot better about things already!
Also, I love that you are kinda a spaz.
Hi Suki and welcome.
:)
Hi Suki , :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 6947 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
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