I really really want to come out. I hate not being seen as who I am.
But here's the thing: I am naturally very fluid in a lot of ways. People have a hard time dealing with what little fluidity they already know about. I've had many very hostile reactions just by existing (and no, I am not kidding. I really do mean that all I did was exist). Heck, they've hurt me for having a normal emotional range, never mind the weird stuff. How bad would it be if I told them about my shifting gender when they already have a hard time accepting my existence?
On the other hand, I really want the negative, harmful thoughts that are stuck in my head to go away. They won't do that if I continue to act like I have to hide. By hiding, I'm letting those people win and I can't accept that.
What should I do? How can I come out?
(As much as I would like to come out about the rest, I'm just talking about gender. I already know I have to hide the rest.)
I don't know what to say on what you should do... but I thought I'd at least say that I get why it's hard. The gender fluidity is a new thing to a lot of people. If people are already hostile... blah, that sucks.
Maybe go slowly?
you could always just tell someone whom you think will not freak out first. or do viea email, facebook or skype