I just posted a replay to the Subject "On The Edge". My decisions are done.
Last night I woke up, sat up in bed, and started crying. I'm hurting everyone I know, and there is very little that I can do now to make amends. I love my wife and kids so much it hurts, and this whole thing is killing me. Three months ago I had no idea I'd be at this point in my life, but as I said in the last post, there is no magic pill to fix me. I just have to go on.
So goodbye for now. I might stop in a read a thread once in a while, but I need my own time to live as a woman now. I don't know how or why it's happening this way, it just came to a head last night and I have been thinking about it for hours on end. It's so confusing, and my heart aches, but I'll learn, and listen, and cry once in a while. And of course I know I have therapists, counselors, and doctors to help me, but I have to help myself first. And I hope my wife stays around. But my life starts today.
Transition. My god........
Love, Kathy
You must do what's best for you.
We'll be here if you need us. Take care.
Kathy B, you have friends here if you need to talk. This is a support site, and there will be times that you need to find someone who understands what you are going through.
Dear Kathy,
I know exactly how you are feeling. I was there last Easter. If you have to go, know that you are going with a heap load of thoughts wishes and blessings, love, energies, (Devlyn's old tea cups)whatever to sustain you. We love you, and prefer you stayed to move through this one, but if you have to go, please come back.
I was away for over 2 months, and I can honestly say, as I've said before, it was the genuine, authentic love that continued to flow from here that kept me alive and finally gave me the confidence and self esteem to once again join society, albeit a much stronger woman. In hindsight, I may not have been away that long if I'd stayed (?? !! ?? Must be the Irish blood in me) I mean, if I'd stayed connected and just taken a lower profile, I may have recovered sooner. (Phew!!)
At least keep in touch and let us know how you are coping. And keep those therapists busy. I gave mine a literal hiding, and they returned the favour, but what growth came for that was unbelievable.
Please keep in touch. You are doing a spectacular job with the effort you are putting in. Just keep believing in yourself, because I know you can do THIS. You wouldn't be here in the first place if you couldn't.
Love and huggs
Catherine
Thank you for your post in my topic. If you need someone to talk to, you can bother me!