I don't know what happened to me. I honestly don't. For the longest time I thought that I was TOTALLY fine with my genitals as they are. However, more and more I'm becoming aware I guess that I want a penis and not having it is causing this sense of loss and sadness. Like the idea that I would have to have sex with my wife with a silicone penis that I can't even feel, just isn't doing what it used to do for me. Now it just seems...inadequate. I mean don't get me wrong, for the time being, it seems like a good substitute but I don't know how long that will last.
I've also been scared because I don't know the long term effects of being on hormones but more and more I'm just not letting these fears get to me.
Problem is, I have looked on Trans Bucket but none of those pictures really help. I'm wondering if anyone knows of any GOOD surgeons in the U.S. maybe even Canada. Any information would be truly appreciated. I'm wondering if this has happened to anyone. Where they were so set on never getting bottom surgery and then all of a sudden it seems like you really want it.
I like Toby Meltzer's work. I'm not sure that looking at phallo surgeons this early in your transition is practical, but if it makes you happy then great. I want phallo/meta, but it's a few years away and if I had my heart set on a surgeon now and they retire by the time I'm able to get surgery...well not so great.
Let me see if I can word this in a sort PG way.
1. Anything attached to you in certain places will have feeling. Not maybe as much, but my understanding of say Reel Magik (if you were talkign re bottom surgery RM is nothing) people do get off with it. Also women might actually like it. There isn't much feeling in the front hole, so to speak either. The feeling comes from what it is near it.
2.There are other ways of having sex without penetration. Anything for human imagination to figure out.
3. Google is your friend. Not Photobucket.
4. I agree it might be a bit early since the cost is a humungous issue. I think most people dont' earn enough.
Yeah I am really asexual. LOL.
--Jay Jay