First of all i want to apologize for not coming on here very often i missed this place but iv been in between moving house ,getting back online & on top of that i am really confussed right now.
I keep having these feelings that i want to become a woman and there have been times i have just tried to ingore these feelings but they just keep coming back.
I did take action a while ago by doing to the doctors and getting a referal but then i did not hear anything back from my gp and i know these things can take time but now i have moved house and changed gp i might have to tell them how i feel if it is not on my medical records.
I have a appointment tomorrow at my new doctors its the first appointment as a newly registered patient so they give you 20 mins to tell them stuff so i am 80% sure that i am going to tell them how i am feeling.
2 years ago i thought to myself that even if i wanted a sex change etc i could not because there would be so many things i would have to change in my life i just thought i could not do it but things have changed now and life is different and the only steps i need to take now is get a job and get a place of my own so i can live full time as a woman. I think by doing that i can find out if its just a phase or not and if its really what i want.
If someone asked me right now what i want i would say that i want to be a woman and have a sex change and live the rest of my life as my chosen gender but i dont know if somewhere down the line i would change my mind or not.
I have wanted to have the op for about 2 years now.
my mum knows that i want to be a woman and she did not over react but she did say it would be a shame if i was to become a woman.
Some time soon i have got to try and talk to my dad about how i am feeling.
My dad once said to me that no matter what happens he would not get angry at me or no matter what i tell him he wouldnt be shocked but saying that about a month ago he walked in my room and saw one of my feminine things and all he did was stare at it he had a blank look on his face and he did not say anything and he never has said anything about it. maybe he is waiting for me to say something or maybe i am just reading in to it.
Hi Tammygirl,
Glad to hear from you again.
Yes do tell you GP and hopefully you can get that referral you need.
Don't stay away so long. Keep posting girl.
:)
Jillieann
I will i missed you guys. Will let you know how i get on tomorrow and i wont stay away so long.
*smile* *Hug*
Hi Tammygirl,
Hope it goes well for you. If it helps I'm still confused, lol.
hugs
Nigella
*hugs*
Well i ent to see my new doctor for the very first time about my anxiety and i was also going to tell him about my gender issues but i could not tell him.
I find it harder to tell guys how i feel then i do gals. I have to go back to the doctors in 2 weeks time for a followup of my anxiety so i will tell him then.
I think i am making progress with my feminine side even thought its with small things like these past 4 days i have stopped wearing my mens underware and changed to womans and i plan to wear womans underware full time which i found hard before i always worried incase someone would notice that i got them on but i dont now. I was in a very public place today in a shopping centre and no one noticed not even my mum so i feel a lot more confident then i did.
I also wear nail varnish & i started to shave under my arms & wearing feminine deodorant and in my spare time when i am at home i wear perfume.
my goal is to go out dressed all fem soon but i just want to build my confidence up first.
Also a lady noticed that i had a girls braclet on today but i did not get embarresed like i used too so i think i am getting there even though it is in small steps.