I do not get the purpose of life. Everything I have is a bunch of lies, since I lied to my family about where I live, that I am gay (or trans?), from my taste of music to just plain everything. My family asks me what my address is and stuff like that, and I don't want to tell them since I am living with an older male (which I am fine with).
I broken up with my ex-boyfriend who loved me, and I love him, for selfish reasons... and I feel like a horrible person but I can't look back at it now. I broken up with him mainly because of money (and maybe because of his looks too) but money is a crucial reason.
I just don't understand the purpose of living anymore, it doesn't make me happy. All I see is me growing older, and maybe having more money... for what? I don't get it.
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I really don't like my family anymore, they are just nagging at my mind. A thousand of stupid questions. And if I were honest with them, they would be ashamed of me...
I just don't really think this life matter all that much.
I have also recently been struggling with the meaning of life. My conclusion was that there wasn't really much point in it, aside from obtaining spiritual fulfilment. However, not everyone wants that.
But... whether there is a point to life or not isn't a hugely important question when one considers that death is more boring than life. There may or may not be a purpose to life, but there's more a purpose to life than there is a purpose to death, and if you're dead, then you don't even have the opportunity to see any possible holes in your logic. Maybe by living, the purpose of life would have been found - either way, existing is probably more interesting than not existing, especially when you factor in the idea that one's life, being dynamic, can change for the better at an unexpected moment in time.
If you're upset with your life, then allow yourself some time for grief. Then you can pick up, and try to change it for the better... and maybe you'll find the purpose of life while you do that. My not having found it means nothing; I'm not even twenty years old yet, after all.
deep. i like it.
im 20.5 now
i change my whole life 10 days ago
you sound mature
I try to be mature, but most of the time I probably just come off as overly dramatic. Being dramatic works for me, but I don't recommend it if you're trying to make friends that you want to still have in a few months' time. :P
You should include more details, and maybe improve your grammar a little. I have to admit, there was a little deciphering that I had to do for your original post. If English isn't your first language, then you have my apologies for that statement - and if it is, then you have my apologies for this statement.
I would like to help, if I could.