well i don't practice my english for a while, so plz help with it too.
I'm 23 years old, i'm from LA and i want to become the girl that i feel that i'm, but here it's really dificult be a trans-girl or a crossdresser, i have fear to continue living a fake life, so a talk with my parents, they are some kind of evangelic members so they think that i'm playing or talking about demon things.
i want to change my body now, each year that pass i see my body more and more masculine, 5 years ago, i look more like a girl when I use girl clothes. Even now my hands, feet are small, that's good, but my back begins to be more and more huge, so i want to stop it now.
i feel a extreme confusion about my feelings cuz i try to life as a boy(for my parents), so i try to get a girlfriend, try to be more a "boy", but i cant, i cry whem i remember my parents face at the moment that i say : "I dont like girls", i dont want to be more a boy but i dont want to see my parents crying every time for me, what can i do?
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Hi Magaale, and welcome. I'm Laura.
That's a tough spot to be in, girl. I'm sorry to hear you're struggling. From reading many peoples experiences on this site and others, the outcomes of those in similar situations have been many. Me, I am ostracized from half of my family because of the religion they still observe, which I was also raised in. Although this is not because of my ->-bleeped-<-, it was because their beliefs upset my conscience and made me unhappy, so I had to leave the religion, which caused my mother and sister to shun me (in accordance with their religion's teachings).
So when you're at a crossroads like that, it comes to a tough, tough, tough decision. Some people have been surprised by their family's acceptance, while others, sadly, have lost family because of their transition. Even then, sometimes they do eventually come around. If it is something you feel you must do to truly live your life happily, then you just have to grit you're teeth, do what you have to do, and hope for the best. Also, know that there will always be others, like the family here at Susan's, and other support groups, who will be there to lend support and reassurance.
I would think, first of all, you should probably see a therapist to sort out and help you make sense of all these feelings. I am actually in the process of choosing one at the moment myself(as well as budgeting to make it happen). Its usually everybody's first step.
Glad you've shared with us (your English was just fine) and I hope for the best for you with your parents. Feel free to message me in the future if you wish to talk. :)
Hi Magaale ,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while. Your English is fine.
Quote from: Magaale on August 14, 2012, 01:35:33 PM
....... so a talk with my parents, they are some kind of evangelic members so they think that i'm playing or talking about demon things.
Sounds like your parents have no idea what your problem is. GID or Gender Identity Disorder is a well documented MEDICAL disorder.
It's not something you have a choice over. It's NOT your fault, it is basically a birth defect. Just like any of the other thousands of defects that occur at birth. You could have been born with spina bifida or autism. Instead you were born with GID. Your parents weren't to blame either. So it really has nothing AT ALL to do with demons. That is a load of uneducated rubbish.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in and start talking.
And as Laura said, maybe it's a good time to find a good gender therapist who can help you sort things out.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Hi and welcome from another of the Aussie sheilas.
Even though your family are not accepting, LA should offer some options from what I understand of it.
If your folks are concerned, maybe back off on the TS side of things a little with them, and if you can see a therapist, just let them know that you have a lot of anxiety and identity issues to deal with.
You are dealing with a Medical Problem, as Catherine said, and they should be caring enough to see that.
Any parent who would rather listen to an outsider than one of their children is not doing their job properly as far as I am concerned.
Karen.
Hello! It sucks to hear about your parents, but I know how you feel. My mom's a hardcore Christian and she sees the world in terms of good/evil. So to deal with that, I've decided to keep all this a secret from her (kind of late for you though!) until I am financially sound enough to support myself and then face the fireworks. If she tries to stop me, I'll just move out and move on with my life until if/when my mother realizes that having a transgender as a child isn't as bad as she thought, and that transgenders aren't all devil-worshippers who are going to turn into drug addicts and contract AIDS/hepatitis.
I really wish there is another way, but you are going to have to break your parents hearts at one point. Do NOT sacrifice your own happiness just to please your parents because you only live once; make the best out of it. I apologize for making such a heavy post for an introduction =P Welcome Magaale!
hi girls i'm so happy to finally found some one that understandme, i forgot talk about this:
when i was 14 years old my mom was traveling and I secretly dressed her clothes, one day my dad comes into her room and well.. you know XD, he talked with me about it, and I will never forget his words "Do you really want to be like this? , I have the money if you want to chane", at that moment I just went to my room, 9 years before my dad y my mom get into some kind of xtrem religion and my dad forget it. I will work to get the money & go with some psychologist, i want to start every thing now, i'm from Peru(AQP) but I don't know if there are psychologists who deal with these kinds of experiences, thanks for your help, and sorry cuz i dont have a lot of time ti whrite before my first post.
Hi Magaale, it's nice to meet you. I am from Boston. You'll find plenty of friends and good advice here. See you around, hugs, Devlyn