Hey everyone, new here.
*Biological girl but the name Daron is one I like and hope to change to in future. (FTM)*
Ok so like most people, I've known I was different since childhood and only recently discovered that being this way is in fact called transgender. So about the end of last year/start of this year, I told all my friends who were very supportive and some even said they weren't even surprised. That boosted me up quite a bit but my parents didn't take it well at all, my mother practically hates me even more than she did before and frankly, I couldn't care less what she thinks and as far as I am concerned, her opinion is invalid. Despite that she will try to bring me down everyday. I am already enough of a negative person without her input on top of that. I have been suffering from depression for about 4 years now and am on anti depressants. I had an appointment today with a psychologist to discuss things which went pretty decently apart from discussing things I'd really rather not have, but again afterwards, had my mother bringing me down. I guess I wanted to investigate if there was anyone else out there who would be willing to be friends with me. I know I have some, but I guess it's not the same as having a transgender friend, someone who thinks the same way you do and understands. I just always feel so low that I wouldn't care if I died, it really is horrible to be alive. Anyway on that cheerful note I shall end this.
Thanks to anyone who reads, and I look forward to hopefully meeting some of you awesome people.
~Daron~
I've had/still have issues with that kind of stuff myself, depression/self hatred/suicidal thoughts/etc. It sucks, but you can push through it, it just takes time. Although I understand that it can feel completely hopeless. I'd suggest trying to get out of your parents house as soon as you can, but if you're a minor that may not be an option at the moment, but at the very least I'd suggest getting everything planned out so you can leave as soon as possible. Staying in a destructive environment like that will only make things worse.
And hell, I can be your friend. Having friends who are in a similar boat is always a good thing.
Hi Daron :icon_wave:
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V M
Hi Daron, it's nice to meet you! I live up near Boston. Freya is a sweetheart, but watch out, I had to wash her mouth out with soap! See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn
Aye I plan to move out at some point. I'm 20 next month. Damn right, always good to be in the same boat. :p Thanks VM. Nice to meet you Devlyn, I'm British, from Scotland. Haha i'll be sure to watch out for that, hugs. ^^
Awright Daron. We loues oot Scots oan this site. A'm glad ye fun us.