My counselor told me last week she'd write up my letter and I should go ahead and make a doc appt. So, I make my appt, tell them I'll have my letter because they said I'd need one. The center is a state away though, so it's a huge hassle getting off work, finding a vehicle, getting a babysitter, finding a place to sleep. But I'm thrilled, excited, making plans for what kind of fun things I've always wanted to do but never could because of the chick-ish-ness. Basically, I'm stoked. So my appt is this Monday, and last night she texts me, doesn't call, texts, saying she no longer feels qualified to write me my letter because she's never handled a case like mine before, yada yada yada, go see a therapist. The weekend before my appointment, which she knows is Monday, and she knows it's been a huge pain in the neck to schedule. So now I'm furious, brokenhearted and feeling like "Oh God please don't make me start over. Not again."
So, I call my 'state-away' doctor this morning, saying I'll have to cancel my appt because my counselor said I'd have my letter but now she decided she doesn't want to give me one, and what does the nurse say?? ....It's okay. I don't need it. I can fill out separate paperwork for that. It happens. Come in anyway.
Now, I don't know how I feel. I'm excited, and a bit scared, but hurt that my counselor would put me through that. And she's a friend of the family too, so there's now a kind of 'rift' thing going on there. I don't know how to feel about this anymore. I guess I thought I'd be happier? Like I was the "first time"? Has anyone else gone though something like this? I don't know if I'm just too relieved to be happy, or if I'm too hurt to be, or what. But it kinda sucks. I kinda just want a hug...
I think the odd feeling is normal, you know? You just went through something horribly draining, and it was really awful for your counselor to do that last minute. It would have been more responsible for her to speak to you OVER THE PHONE, at least. I'm sorry that happened, but congratulations on being able to go to your doctor's appointment!
I've heard of many therapists and counselors doing similar things like this to their patients, and I really think that there ought to be some kind of requirement that these jerkoffs compensate the poor souls whose time and money they've been wasting and whose lives and hopes they've been toying with. The fact that she said she'd give you the letter should be in some way legally binding... (Don't know if it actually is or not, but it damn well should be.)
I was almost certain, though, that informed consent was enough to get hormone therapy. Maybe if you talk to someone at the doc's office and explain the situation they'll be helpful.
Derp, didn't read. At least you can still go! Just ditch that person and find a new shrink. <3
*pat pat* :(
I agree that it sounds like you got a mind game player who is playing therapist. I think this sort of behavior is pretty common, sorry to say. I don't think you should waste more time with them.
--Jay J