In a rare change from my normal apathy and cynicism I decided to practice applying makeup (which I am terrible at). I decided to try some eye makeup, I have very little in my collection because I still don't really know how to do it properly, the only eyeliner I have is "Collection 2000 Extreme felt tip liner" in Black. It turns out this is essentially a non-permanent marker, on top of that looking like I'd just drawn a black line on my eyelid (my hands weren't even steady enough to make it look like a straight line) It only highlighted my "droopy eyelids". When my eyes were open you couldn't even see it because it was hidden under my browbone.
I tried to salvage it a bit by applying some eye shadow but that resulted in looking like I had just smashed some soot in my eyes and made it worse. At this point I just... I don't know, I just broke I guess. Washed it all off angrily and I've been sat here for about fifteen minutes at my desk in my bedroom with my head in my hands on the verge of tears.
I don't even know how I feel at the moment, maybe fluctuating somewhere between anger/rage, sadness, the boredom that has plagued me for a while now. They're all just bleeding into this numbness at the moment, I don't know what to think or feel or do at all. And it's driving me to distraction.
I'm just venting, I don't really care if anyone reads this, I just need to get it out there somewhere.
Big hugs! Have a taste of your own words:
"It's better to regret something you did than something you didn't do!"
One less than favorable makeup experience. That's all it is. Put it behind you, we've got places to go! Hugs, Devlyn
I learned lots from here....
http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=applying+makeup+for+beginners&oq=applying+makeup&gs_l=youtube.1.1.0l10.3494.6653.0.9591.15.9.0.6.6.0.173.1181.0j9.9.0...0.0...1ac.1.UQTfSjgxpKw (http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=applying+makeup+for+beginners&oq=applying+makeup&gs_l=youtube.1.1.0l10.3494.6653.0.9591.15.9.0.6.6.0.173.1181.0j9.9.0...0.0...1ac.1.UQTfSjgxpKw)
My first several attempts at makeup were laughable at best, tragically horrible at worst. Then I got a book about makeup basics, and it said makeup isn't something you can just brush on and instantly be beautiful...it's more like camoflage, hiding the worst and bringing out the best.
Eyeliner is still my Kryptonite...I'd love to wear it, but me eyes have "hooded" lids and my hands are not steady nor quick enough to put it on...so I don't.
YouTube is a great resource, as is your library.
*hugs* and a comforting shoulder rub. :-)
When you apply that first line and find yourself getting unsure. Stop there.
If it isn't the look you want, leave it for a while and come back later. That way, you are more relaxed and can build it slowly.