I've been MIA the last few months (not easy to reply through my phone, while my computer has been down), so I thought I'd post an update (attempting to keep it short, and somewhat chronological) :
So first of all, I'm out to the majority of close friends. This covers all my roommates except for the newest (5 total...all guys...hah), a couple best girlfriends from HS, a college buddy and his fiancé, and my recent ex-gf. I also came out to my mom, and my dad told his fiancé. They've all taken the news pretty well, despite degrees of surprise! The best quotes among their reactions:
- "You know, if you get too cute, I'm gonna start inviting you to bed."
- "Walking around in Las Vegas in heels...a thrill you'll never know." (came out an hour later) "So I said you'd never know what it's like...YOU TOTALLY WILL!"
- "I finally get your shirt!" (in reference to a tee I had in HS: 'Nobody knows I'm a lesbian')
- "Well, now there's a new meaning to 'gay bro night.'"
The light humor aside, I feel very fortunate when recollecting the last few months. I keep finding more close friends I want to come out to personally (before the big coming-out letter), and it makes me realize how many close relationships I've maintained. It's even reopened relationships with good friends I rarely see anymore, and has drawn me closer to those I see on a daily basis.
What else? Despite being an amazon.com order, I finally bought my own female clothes...you know, something I'd actually wear, and would fit me, haha. Estimating my size while ordering online was a bit of a crapshoot, but I did manage to assemble a small wardrobe that fits. And now I have a plan to actually pick something at a store and (gasp!) try it on! It helps that I've toed the waters with buying cosmetics, so I feel a little more at ease with the idea of browsing the women's dept with some confidence!
Ok, quick process thing, then moving onto the best-for-last. Sperm banked. Ugh. What a horrible experience. Not entirely on their end, necessarily...but just an awful experience to over think. But I really want to have kids one day, and while I have no problem with adoption, I'd rather not hate myself in the future for not banking when I had the opportunity.
Alright! Moving on! Drumrolls everywhere!
I picked up my first prescription for Estradiol and Spiro! ;D ;D
My therapist actually wrote the letter for HRT about a month ago, and my physician/endo approved the request within a couple days. I've been holding off starting, as a promise to my dad. While still supportive, he's had the hardest time dealing with my GD. We had a family therapy session a couple weeks ago, and I told him I would wait until after another family session before starting anything medical. This is the worst temptation ever. Those pills rest about 3 feet from where I sleep...but I truly feel it's worth it in the long run to have his trust. He has said the part he's having difficulty with is his own lack of eduction of the gender spectrum, outside of binary norms. It's totally understandable, and I explained to him that it's very common for the parent of opposite gender-identity (...did I phrase that right?) to have the hardest time coping. But he's finally able to speak openly about it. Despite his confusion over the details, he's beginning to understand how important transitioning is.
So yeah... I scheduled that appointment for next week ;)