Hello. I go by Lydia. I'm new here and I thought I'd share a bit about myself.
I'm 19, m-f, been on HRT for about 3 months.
The desire to be a girl has been on my mind since about 9; prior to then gender identity never really occurred to me. It grew from a curiosity to an obsession over the years, eventually putting me in a deep depression throughout my adolescence. Started crossdressing around 14 to take the edge off. The whole thing was pretty cheap. I mean, nothing fit worth a damn, it was from my mother's closet. I used a $14.99 party store wig, and I had water balloons as breast forms. But it was enough for the moment. Ended up coming out to my parents when I was 15; they have since been apathetic at best, in general unsupportive and denying. They'd yell at me for even thinking about it. I had no friends, never really have. Nobody to talk to. Deeply depressed, I often, painfully, secluded myself from people. I'm a freak, a burden, a worthless wretch nobody wants anything to do with. I was always alone. I continued on a downward spiral until I moved to school, 800 miles outside of my parents' control. The week after, I completely changed my outward appearance to resemble a gothy girl. I began expressing myself freely, something I had never done. Made some friends, started doing things rather than sit around. I got to know myself for the first time. It was the best feeling of my life. I took the name Lydia, a name I've always liked, and the name of my friend who gave me the courage to open up. So here I am, far from home in a large college city, on the road to becoming who I was meant to be. I know it'll be long but I'm pretty excited. In the meantime I pass as either gender, depending on where I am and the level of effort I put in my appearance.
Hi! Welcome! I think I relate to you quite a bit myself and I am here for you and everyone else on here is too I think! Do things at your own pace and enjoy being who you are, there is nothing wrong with expressing yourself :)
<3 Emma
Hi Lydia, :icon_wave:
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Congrats on taking the steps to making yourself happy! I love the name Lydia as well and have a blue point Siamese cat named Lydia
Candace
Hey hey welcome :-) :-) :-)
Hi Lydia,
A big Aussie welcome to Susan's family. It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
I'm glad you were able to finally break the bonds of depression and all that other ugly stuff. The freedom and liberation you are currently experiencing is only the start, so keep your seatbelt on.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Hi Lydia, welcome to Susan's Place! I love your name, too. I live near Boston. See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn