Hi everyone.. I'm Alice. Well, not quite yet anyway.. That's not my birth name, but when I transition it will be the name I choose for myself.
I'm really bad at introducing myself to people mainly because I hate everything about myself and am very quiet around people because I can't stand my voice. But I'm going to try anyways
My birthday was yesterday actually.. I guess I can say I've started my transition but it's really kind of complicated.. For the past year and a half I've worn makeup and girls clothes.. carried around a purse, wore heals, all that.. I was the boy who dressed like a girl.. I didn't want to transition.. well, okay. My whole life I've always felt jealous of girls.. for looking good in dresses and whatever, and I'd always try on my sisters clothes. And it felt right. Wearing boys clothes growing up was really uncomfortable for me. I'd always want my makeup done, and nobody would understand why, and nobody would do it. Anyways, I have like, waves of wanting to transition I guess i can call it. Every time it comes, it gets more and more intense.. This time around I've been feeling like this for like 5 months.. not knowing what to do, not knowing who to talk to, denying myself to be who I feel inside.
I don't even know where I'm going with this, but I just need people to talk to and this forum seems really good, and I've been reading a lot of posts on it so I decided I'd sign up.
I have so many questions..
Hi Alice :icon_wave:
Happy Birthday!!!Welcome to Susan's :) Glad to have you here
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V M
A warm Aussie welcome to you!
And :icon_birthday:
Hi Alice,
Another big Aussie welcome to Susan's family; and a big Happy Birthday wish to you :-* . It's good of you to drop in and say "Hi". Hope you like it here, and you stay for a while.
There is a mountain of information, resources and friendship waiting for you here, you just need to jump in start talking and ask any question you like. You're quite safe here and we are very accepting.
You did an excellent job on your introduction. Seems you've had a pretty normal time of it as you've grown up. Nothing unusual in what you've been through.
Take a bit of pressure off and allow yourself to just be you. Don't bash yourself up as much as you do, there's a world full of people wanting to do that for you :laugh:
If you want to do yourself the biggest favour possible, find a gender therapist to have a chat with about yourself and you'll be surprised at the goodness you'll find.
Looking forward to hearing more of your story in time to come, but in the meantime, be safe, well and happy.
Lotsa huggs
Catherine
Hi Alice, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 9885 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)
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