Ok, so my very close friend has been telling me for the past few weeks that he had a dream/vision about the future, but he wouldn't tell me the specifics as he "wanted to see if it plays out."
So I begged and begged and pried and pried.
Last night I cracked him. He spilled the beans. He said it really fast but he mentioned that I end up having a sex change, lol.
So instead of me coming out to my friend, my friend figured me out thru dreams/meditation. NEAT! It's really good for me since I'm such a wuss when it comes to having enough courage to come out to anyone at all. I'm soo happy to have my best friend (who I have a secret crush on, lol I bet he knows about that too ;)...lol so happy to have my best friend to know and support me.
Its so weird how things happen in life. The last week or 2 have been super rough on me and I've been wishing so hard that I didn't have these feelings and could just be "normal." lol I know, its no use and everytime I reflected upon it the only answer was for me to accept my self. Well that's alot easier now that my bestie accepts me.
And it was really weird too I was praying/begging for a sign to validate my feelings and what more of a sign could one ask for than what I got.
I'm very lucky and thankful that my wish was granted and that I can now move forward with a bit more self-acceptance. I can also say I'm out now, even if its just to one person! :D
A bit more about my life right now. I was planning to move to Eugene, OR to start a new life. It turns out a few of my friends (best friend included) are planning to move there too. We didn't coordinate this at all. But at first I was kinda, not upset but something, about my friends coming as I would then have to come out to someone.... But after seeing my best friend's reaction, I think having my closest friends around during my transition will be a huuuuge benefit and I love them so much I'm so happy we'll still be with each other.
Today is going to be an AWESOME day!
<3
Oh, and next time we hang out I'm going to ask him more about how he feels about that and to try n get him to tell me more. Gotta love 'psychic' friends :D
That's cool! Good for you!
wow you really did luck out. thats great news though :angel:
Great news!
That's just perfect. Friends rock.
I've always wished that someone would figure it out. Like a close, really accepting friend. I'm sure if I had close enough friends, and was open enough around them that it could happen. There are clues with me, however I am very secretive because of society and fear of being treated badly.. That really is cool that your best friend figured you out... Just be careful that the wrong kind of people do not. haha, usually they are not very good at connecting the dots anyway. I have been more open recently with some old friends. But I would actually be flattered if a newer friend that seemed trust-able was like "it seems like you are repressing something" "that night you said something about how people live all these lies and burry away who they are" "you also said that you felt you were slowly dieing" "also you are so sensitive, and open unlike any other guy I know" "You are nothing like them" "but I don't get a crazy vibe" "I get a (I cannot be my self out of fear vibe)" haha. I highly doubt that would happen. I'm sure some people have kind of scratched the surface, and it could be possible to accidentally out myself. This scares me greatly especially in the wrong context. But it would feel so much more legitimate if I am in close contact to that person.
I find it interesting that he said it was from dreams. I believe that there is some truth to dreams, but being highly skeptical I think that it is more a matter of the subconscious putting 2+2 together. ie it was in the dream that his observations clicked.
Wow! that's very awesome! your friend must know you really well :)
What a great friend. Remember, the psychic energy has to come from somewhere for them to pick up on it. This really means you are sending out positive energy that is being received and properly interpreted. Maintain that positive outlook, and others will get the message too.
Barbara
I really love that stories like this are becoming more common among the next generation. My (trans) son's stories with his friends are similar, apart from that he's not moving to the same towns with them... but he is keeping touch, and the friends who are real friends have been nothing but supportive. Not that this is true for everyone, but it's so very different from the times when I was the same age.
The real struggle remains one of accepting ourselves, though. It's great that your friend managed to intuit where you were without you needing to announce it, but there will be those, almost certainly, with whom you'll have to learn and find ways to come out to, over time, sometimes not with the best of outcomes. Find, cultivate, and hold onto your inner strengths.