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Title: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Crocotta on February 13, 2013, 05:48:31 AM
Hello, you can call me Croc if you wish. I hope that this is the right place for me because I am in quite a quagmire and this is the first time that I have sought any type of support so please excuse any awkwardness. I will try to be brief, so just e-mail me if you would like more detail. I suppose that I should start by saying that I am still in limbo, In the closet so to speak. I have a decent life and a wonderful significant other and though we have talked at length about the subject of gender identity, they have made it clear that they would perfer me a woman, much to my chagrin. I love them with all my heart and so I try to keep up appearances for family and relationship for the last few years, but my body feels like a prison and it gnaws away inside me every day, with every glance in a mirror, or every gift of clothes [or make-up or some other bull my family is trying to be generous with], or even the simple compliments about "what a beutiful/sexy/whatever woman" I am. I know that this probebly sounds juvinile or ungrateful, and I do not mean or want to seem ungrateful I love my family but it just feels like a twist of the knife. I have researched reassignment, but in the end it feels like a faustian bargin between feeling whole and keeping the love of my family intact. I dont want to lose them, so I try to be me the best i can, and it makes me feel weaker for not being willing to sacrifice that at this point. I do not know what to do and I just want to be able to talk to people who can relate and any advice is appriciated. I dont want to struggle alone anymore. I promise that i am not a downer and can be a pleasent conversationalist, just a trapped pleasent conversationalist.
Title: Re: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Devlyn on February 13, 2013, 05:59:17 AM
Hi Croc, welcome to Susan's Place! I tidied up your language a bit, my kid sister visits this site. See you around, hugs, Devlyn
Title: Re: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Jamie D on February 13, 2013, 06:07:14 AM
Welcome, Croc!

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Good luck to you.  I hope your family can learn to accept the real you.
Title: Re: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Crocotta on February 13, 2013, 06:09:55 AM
oh I apologize for the cursing! I was emotional at the time, will not happen again.
Title: Re: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Jamie D on February 13, 2013, 06:21:34 AM
You cursed?  Gosh, that's never happened before  ;)
Title: Re: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Ms. OBrien CVT on February 13, 2013, 08:49:58 AM
Hi Croc, :icon_wave:

Welcome to our little family. Over 10083  strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another brother. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)

(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-5.gif&hash=cfc7a68438be4575d8493dfbe65d1b3586f10b81)
Janet  (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fupload.wikimedia.org%2Fwikipedia%2Fen%2Ff%2Ff5%2FVeterinary_technician_logo.jpg&hash=0bab696074af6aa50a904afe70a516e025a63ddf)
Title: Re: Hello, I hope that this is the right place for me, here's my story
Post by: Crocotta on February 13, 2013, 02:47:42 PM
thank you, that means the world to me.