Heyy everyone I'm John, I am 21 years old. I was born male, but lately I have been thinking of changing my gender. I decided to register to this forum in hopes for some answers to the many questions constantly overwhelming my brain.
About me:
I have a very hard time looking back and remembering my past anything before 12 years old. I do remember though when I was some where between 6-10 I would play with the neighbor kids this is where I start to question myself. Looking back at it there where a few signs that make me wonder. I loved putting on jewelry and would ask the girls I hung out with to dress me up. Now they where fine with it but some of the other kids started to make remarks that jewelry and dress where only for girls and I was a boy so I could not do that. I quickly stopped doing that. Not sure if that made me sad or I was ok with it I cant remember. I really remember though around the age of 12 when I started hitting puberty and first discovery of what my gender part was and how i use it. I would look at women and be jealous of there body's and clothing. I would go to bed at night praying and wishing that I would wake up as a girl. I dreamed that one day I would wake up and that my whole past would be rewritten making me female from the day I was born. I was to afraid to tell anyone of these feels for fear of destroying what little social life I had. To help deal with these thoughts I went to the internet. I created a second me on the internet only this time I was female. I kept this hidden from friends and family. Still to this day I go online and let out my female self. Sometime I go away from it for periods of times but I still come back. Lately I have been deeply thinking of doing what I have dreamed for many years.
Hi John! From southern California, welcome.
For our new members, please be sure to review
- Site Terms of Service and rules to live by (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html)
- Standard Terms and Definitions (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,54369.0.html)
- Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar) (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,114.0.html.)
- Age and the Forum (https://www.susans.orgpforums/index.php/topic,62197.msg405545.html#msg405545)
- Reputation rules (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,18960.0.html)
- Photo, avatars, and signature images policy (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,59974.msg383866.html#msg383866)
Welcome! Do you have a chosen name you would prefer us to use for you?
Haha, oh wow, that sounds uncannily like my experience. I had a female persona online for years before I realized I was a transwoman. Well hey, welcome! Hope you stick around!
Quote from: DeeperThanSwords on February 20, 2013, 07:10:58 AM
Welcome! Do you have a chosen name you would prefer us to use for you?
I go by the name Samantha online
Hi Samantha! :icon_wave:
A warm and hearty welcome from a sunny South Africa.
Browse the forums and ask questions if you want to.
Please stick around and let us know how it goes.
Huggs
Maegan
Hi Samantha, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 10181 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-5.gif&hash=cfc7a68438be4575d8493dfbe65d1b3586f10b81)
Janet (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fupload.wikimedia.org%2Fwikipedia%2Fen%2Ff%2Ff5%2FVeterinary_technician_logo.jpg&hash=0bab696074af6aa50a904afe70a516e025a63ddf)
Hi Samantha, welcome to Susan's Place! Thanks for sharing a little about yourself with us. Get busy posting and I'll see you around! Hugs, Devlyn
Hugs and Kisses :-*
Hugs and Kisses Samantha! :-*
Thanks everyone for the warm welcomes :) i hope to get to know you all better as time goes on.
i have been looking around the forums and notice lots of people advise to talk with a gendertheripst before starting to transition. i looked over forum section on online ones i dont know where to start. does anyone have any recomendations for online theripst. i am not looking to get letter for hormones just someone to talk with and see if transitioning would be right for me