Ok let's see if I can type what I meant without going dyslexic on you poor people again.
I sent off my bio to a couple Dr's (2 in my area and 1 in the UK) and I have gotten a response back from all of them. The 2 in my local area I talk to on the phone, told them about myself (unfortunately I talked to them death) and they asked me a couple of questions pertaining to what I think right now about myself what I want to do in the future. I told them that I want to become what I have thought I was since the age of 6, a woman. They said they would like to do some therapy to get to know my background more in depth and that if I so chose after therapy, and they gave me their recommendation, to start HRT and possibly down the road SRS. The Dr in the UK pretty much told me the same thing accept according to what I've told him and his credentials he recommended we start asap because I sounded unstable. It is true that in the past when this subject arose I got very hostile about it and I would, in some cases, lash out to defend myself. He recommended I think it was as little as 6 weeks of therapy to 12 weeks if necessary to figure out my mental state, stabilize it, then move on to treatment.
He said that if the therapy goes how he thinks it may according to what I have told him, the first impression he got from me, and my overall emotional state when I started to talk about it, I only need mental stabilization therapy to get me on the right track to keep myself on the path I want to take and not get unraveled. I don't see myself now as being unstable, but I guess without realizing it I get a bit nuts I would say. I did realize when I talked to all 3 that I got irritable, sweaty palms, I started to shake, and the urge to cry was immense. Isn't that normal?