Hi all.
I have been away for a while now.. Because I have been really down. Quit my job etc.
I am scared to death about this surgery but I know that I must do it, otherwise I am already dead.
Will go to spain now the 11th March, surgery is planned the 13th. I will go home the 23rd March.
I will keep you guys updated and post pics as soon as possible :).
By the way how can I find my password for susans? I have saved it before and I cant remember it anymore.. A little problem because I cant log in from another computer =/.
I will do the following procedures
Trachea shave
Forehead reconstruction
Orbital rim reconstruction
Nose reconstruction (bone and soft tissue)
Chin shortening and reshaping
Jaw reduction and reshaping.
Well thats about it.
Wish me luck girls :)
Best wishes and good luck,don't worry they've done these ops many times
Congratulations on your surgeries. I know this will help with your self conference and will pay off for you. Have a safe flight and remember to get plenty of rest and do as the doctor says
Hi, Hon. I'm glad you checked in, and I'm sure the surgery will go well. I'll pass along your concerns about the password situation.
For password trouble:
Quote from: Jamie D on March 09, 2013, 11:46:47 PM
If she tries to log in with the wrong password, she will get a screen that asks for it again, but has a query "Forgot your password?"
She clicks on that and enters her email address. Then she will get to reset it.
Thanks for the nice comments and help with the password :). Now I can log in from my laptop too.
I am now finally here in Marbella.
Now I will try to get some sleep and tomorrow will be a busy day at the hospital, x-rays etc.
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Update.
So today (day 2) I took the bloodtests and x-rays. I am just about to go and meet the surgeons.
The staff is very friendly and caring. I really dont miss anything right now and that is a good grade because I really dont like being away from home.
Tomorrow at 9 in the morning local time the Surgery will start.
My very best wishes for you Carolina! Wish I had the surgeon do an orbital during my upper eyelid job!
Somehow I missed seeing this and just found your post. I am pleased you answered my pm last week. Good that you have shared your plan and will update. Nice that you have a laptop & can sign in here. Looks like you have a lovely place, surroundings and warm weather for recuperation.
All the best, sending healing thoughts your way. Believe.
Good luck hon!
Hugs
Jamie
Carolina, I know I haven't posted in any of your threads before now, but I have been diligently reading them this whole time, so I finally felt the need to chime in and just say, I'm really rooting for you in this. I REALLY hope that this surgery is absolutely everything that you hoped it would be, and that you really can finally feel like yourself and feel happy about who you are after it's done. Good luck, girl! And please, keep us updated. We all feel deeply for you, and really want to see you happy.
Lots of love, and again, best of luck!
Its done.
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Carolina,
Looking good brave Sister! May your recovery be speedy & as comfortable as possible. This connection is the next best thing to being there to hold your hand. Our thought are with you. Rest well. Perhaps you can get out & walk the nice looking grounds when you feel up to doing that.
Breathe
Hugs
Jamie
Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 14, 2013, 09:49:56 AM
Its done.
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I so relate to those black eyes. You'll be beautiful, you were to start with. Get well honey!
Get well soon
Finally, got some sleep tonight. The day before was pure hell as my throat was irritated because of the tube that I hat during surgery and also the trach shave did not make tings better. I had to struggle to breathe.
My surgery was pretty long, almost 10hrs, alot of bone was removed.
So I am really looking forward to see the results.
Will put up some more pics when I look a little better .:P
stay strong. im sure your going to love your results
Yeah it was not nice to get those things pulled out, it felt like they had put them in my brain.
I can somewhat use my nose to breathe now but its still full of all this blood and stuff, will try to clean it today.
School 2 weeks post op that is something :D. I dont have a job or anything and I am pretty glad about that. I imagine that it will take som time for this to heal and feel comfortable. Because they really removed alot of bone in my face.
Even the surgeons saved the bones for me to see, and it was gross and I was also stunned. So much bone taken away and still it was not all of it.. They grinded down alot too,
Quote from: TessaM on March 15, 2013, 08:39:27 AM
just saw this thread now Carolina.
Yep, the first few days are hell!
Youll start feeling back to normal when they take out the stuff from your nose and you can finally breath out of it again, trust.
In the meantime, youve gotta "hurry up and wait." I am like 3 weeks post op and I still have minor bruising on my eye and quite a bit of swelling on my chin and jaw. Despite this I still went to school at only 2 weeks post op. Youll get better!
Thanx :). I am trying to stay strong even if it is hard sometimes. Its not fun right now when the swelling is going bananas in my lower jaw.
Quote from: Tristan on March 14, 2013, 11:10:22 PM
stay strong. im sure your going to love your results
Fixed the quotation, no charge
Best of thoughts are with you on your recovery. I had to have my nose done a few years back for medical purposes. I feel our pain. Did they just shave your nose or did they give you nose stents? I had to have stents. Those things do not give a slight "pinch" as they pull them out. That ->-bleeped-<- hurt sooooo bad to have removed. anyways, ranting. Much love and recover well!
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Cant see much but I got the blood out of my hair.
They did not just shave my nose but broke it on multiple places and reshaped it. I am looking forward to get everything remoed in the end of the coming week.
Poor baby, you don't look happy, but you will soon be looking terrific and all of the pain and discomfort will be in your rear view mirror and soon forgotten. My best to you hon!
Breaking your nose sounds uncomfortable like being in a boxing match. I Like Shan's words. I see a pretty femme face shaping up in your pic. Sleep & rest is healing.
Thanks for sharing your progress. Be good to yourself.
Hugs
Jamie
Wow. You are going to be so happy when your all healed up, way to go girl!
The swelling of my lower jaw is like all over the chart right now. Not comfortable at all.
I have an appointment with a doctor at 1 o clock tomorrow but its a long time until then. Not sure how I will be able to cope.
Well things shall not be easy right.
Day 4
Dont feel good and the swelling is annoying. I am glad to have the compression bandage on my jaw.
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I am on tv and in many different medias in Sweden so I am used to it :P.
I just want to help others and therefore I want others to see how things are going.
I do hope that it will feel better tomorrow :). Thank you Tessa
Day 5. Still swollen and disgusting but its starting to feel better now.
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Well aren't you just looking wonderful. Glad to see tou smiling! Swelling is looking good too!
Wow, your jaw is free, facial curves are shaping up! Interesting to see the daily progression in your pics. Good for you. Like Tessa was saying, you are experiencing day 4 to 5 getting better. I am pleased one or the other of you or Tessa had your FFS close to each other and able to explain what you are going through, experiencing & help each other. Be proud of yourselves & your accomplisments.
Hugs
Jamie
Now I am just scared to death about being unpassable when the final result is showing :P.
Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 18, 2013, 08:57:27 AM
Now I am just scared to death about being unpassable when the final result is showing :P.
I'm sure you will look beautiful. You were beautiful before and you'll be even more beautiful after. You just got to give your body time to heal. :)
Quote from: Heather on March 18, 2013, 09:04:43 AM
I'm sure you will look beautiful. You were beautiful before and you'll be even more beautiful after. You just got to give your body time to heal. :)
Thank you <3
Hey Carolina
Just noticed this thread, as I have been a way a bit.
Wishing you all the best and glad to hear that the surgery went well.
You do look like you are getting better. I'm sure you will look great after all the swelling and bruising is gone.
Hugs!
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Bad pic but this is a little of what they removed. The big piece is from my chin. The other ones come from the back corners of my jaw.
Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 20, 2013, 03:55:38 AM
Bad pic but this is a little of what they removed. The big piece is from my chin. The other ones come from the back corners of my jaw.
Ewwwww...
NICE!
Lol.. matching earrings and necklace for halloween this year? JUST KIDDING
Carolina,
FWIW, at 10 months, I heard that at 10 months is a little short to criticize yourself if you pass or not, but with your FFS surgery pics, you already look feminine, I think your being too hard on yourself really.
My 2 cents.
Lucia,
:D. No I that would be disgusting :P.
I dont really know what do do with them, but its interesting to see how much they took away. And then it is not all of it.
Sorry if I grossed you out but I could not resist to post the pic :P
Quote from: Jennygirl on March 20, 2013, 04:29:35 AM
Ewwwww...
NICE!
Lol.. matching earrings and necklace for halloween this year? JUST KIDDING
Yes I am very hard on myself =/, not sure what to do about that really? I cant stop it.
It is good to hear that I atleast look feminine in these horrible pics, I am really swollen all over.
I hated that guy in the mirror so much and just want him eradicated completely, so every little glimse of him makes me want to scream and shout.
Quote from: SonadoraXVX on March 20, 2013, 04:33:11 AM
Carolina,
FWIW, at 10 months, I heard that at 10 months is a little short to criticize yourself if you pass or not, but with your FFS surgery pics, you already look feminine, I think your being too hard on yourself really.
My 2 cents.
Lucia,
My nose and forehead 7 days postop.
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Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 20, 2013, 08:22:11 AM
My nose and forehead 7 days postop.
There you go Carolina, it's looking extremely female for sure!
I was pleasantly surprised when we took off the splint.
Got some more hope. And I love my nose and forehead even if its only been 7 days and everything is swollen etc.
Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 20, 2013, 08:44:38 AM
I was pleasantly surprised when we took off the splint.
Got some more hope. And I love my nose and forehead even if its only been 7 days and everything is swollen etc.
You should, and I probably understated it but you look fabulous already! Guess Arnold was right, "No pain, no gain!"
The Surgeon must have you a feminine face now with all that bone loss. Wow! I have my Mom's big nose. Wish I had a lovely nose like yours. To hear you say "love," about your facial features in 7 days turnaround attitude is Fabulous!
Jamie
I thought u were beautiful already! But then again I would ha e those ops in a heartbeat too Sooooo..... Lol
It's great that u are sharing. Hugssssssss! :-)
Quote from: Jennygirl on March 20, 2013, 04:29:35 AM
Ewwwww...
NICE!
Lol.. matching earrings and necklace for halloween this year? JUST KIDDING
Nice idea! Lol
Beautiful. I am stunned already with all the swelling even. Perhaps one day I can join your club. :embarrassed:
You look great Carolina. Truly!
Its is hard to get on camera but yes it seems like they did it. Even now at 7 days people start to look confused :D, it was so funny yesterday. So I cant wait until the swelling goes down.
Talked to the surgeon yesterday and it took them a little more than 11hrs to complete my face. As I said before I was some case. But it seems that they made it and I am very happy.
The attitude change is welcome for me I can say, I have hated how I looked since puberty kicked in.. But now I start to see the real me again and its such a good feeling :)
Quote from: Jamiep on March 20, 2013, 11:52:15 AM
The Surgeon must have you a feminine face now with all that bone loss. Wow! I have my Mom's big nose. Wish I had a lovely nose like yours. To hear you say "love," about your facial features in 7 days turnaround attitude is Fabulous!
Jamie
Thank you :).
You do know that you look great too :).
I was looking like a typical northern man before FFS, that is a very broad jaw, long chin, heavy brow etc . Without FFS I could never have made it. But you on the other hand look tip top.
Quote from: Sweet_Steffy_Bee on March 20, 2013, 11:12:26 PM
Beautiful. I am stunned already with all the swelling even. Perhaps one day I can join your club. :embarrassed:
You look great Carolina. Truly!
Wow your nose looks great already!
You must be so happy!!
So super glad to hear the recovery is going well :D :D :D
Great result,get well soon
I am very happy :).
The only thing that sucks is that the swelling is jumping from noticable in a bad way and not so much.
Yesterday I looked ok but today no :P.
I guess thats life. It will get better :)
I had some surgery on my nose about 5 years ago(can't recall) and I know the feeling of having the padding removed like it is coming from your brain not nice at all. It was to help me breathe more and I went home the next day largely due to me not liking hospitals and felt well enough to go home.
So far all is looking good so fingers crossed it keeps heading that way
Just saw your pics in the fabulous forum, the femme face now, no wonder you are smiling in both pics! I reviewed your early posts when you joined Susan's to get your background and journey. You mentioned since the age of 12 how you hated your male face. I understand how a month ago in your posts about not wanting to go on in life. I posted and I am pleased I sent a pm to you & shared some responses, I was scared you were going to take your life. You managed to get FFS so quickly...now I know why you needed the FFS. To see this huge attitude turn around from not wanting to live to feeling fab and child at Christmas, made me teary eyed with joy that you are now HAPPY! Be proud, & of taking your second huge step to fulfillment and your authentication.
The internet helps shrink the vast distances makes us a little closer, so an ether appreciation that you are in our lives. I hope it will stay that way for a long time. Support & respect to you.
Keep us up on whatever you feel you can share with us.
Huge HUGS
Jamie
Yes I have hated myself for so long. I could not look in mirrors or look at pics of myself without feeling disgust.
I tried to kill myself this winter, took an overdose of pills but one of my friends found me. Now I am very happy for that because otherwise I would have missed out on this chance to live.
I know that I am very lucky that I got this chance to go, the money came just in time. It was FFS or die, and I got the better option :).
All of you here on Susans are very important to me, this site and its members kept my hope up.
Hugs
I have two transwomen friends that have tried several times in different ways to end their lives. Each time either they themselves got them to the hospital or a person discovered them in time. One of them has become a trans activist. We have all been significant to each other in our journeys. This rips me up inside that they want to do this, & I would miss them immensely. Fortunately they are still in my life.
Perhaps you may have been annoyed that your friend saved you, but has given you the destiny for a second chance to physically be the lady you are. Bless your friend. Honor that person for giving you the gift to exist as a Happy lady and we have you as our friend. Your good heart has said here you are sharing your FFS journey to help others. Not only are you important to yourself, you are important to others here. You are showing you have the strength & courage to overcome insecurities and survive. You lead the way. Cherish & respect life.
Love life & the people around you.
Jamie
Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 20, 2013, 08:22:11 AM
My nose and forehead 7 days postop.
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Super cute!
I am now home. Everything went fine :)
Quote from: Carolina1983 on March 24, 2013, 05:35:19 AM
I am now home. Everything went fine :)
Good, one less thing to be anxious about! Looking forward to some pix from both you and Tessa when you're ready. :)
Glad everything worked out and you are home safe Carolina. I hope you are handling the pain well. I must say I am jealous of your nose!! Too cute!
I wish I could have this done.. I don't foresee it being financially possible though.
Jealous but very very happy for you!
Welcome home Babe!
Your nose is way too cute. Wish I had one like that.
Big HUGS
Jamie