Me. But man I'm kinda glad I got thrown in there. I had to get stiches wednesday morning when I cut too deep and they referred me to a mental hospital for an assessment. Went in, talk, they say they wanna keep me.
Turns out that's what managed to convince my mom we needed to do something about me being trans. They diagnosed me with GID and I got on anti-d's. They discharged me and my first appointment with the gender therapist is June 12th. My mom is starting to accept me now and learning what GID really is and we agreed that she'd let me change my name to what she would have named me if I'd been born genitically male, Lance.
My mom is going to register on here, her name will be ZAP's_Mom. Please don't scare her away ;)
Matt/Lance
man its so upsetting that it had to take something so disastrous and serious for people to see exactly how serious you were and how many problems you have. I don't know you, but I'm glad you pulled through and came out the other side with something to show for it.
You take care dude :)
*soft nudge*
*gentle HUG*
I was wondering what happened to you.
*nudge*
You be careful all right?
P.S. Lance is a cool name. Certainly one of the better boy names in my book. *nods sagely*
Dude glad to hear your doing better. Take it easy man.
It takes a lot of [excrement] to make a rose garden. Good thing you made it through. We will keep an eye for your mom and try not to scare her away.
edit: profanity (karen)
Wow, I'm very glad you're okay. Hopefully something good will come out of this, and it would seem that it already has (i.e, your psychological therapy, your mom joining Susan's, your meds...)
As my angel says....chin up and all of that!
tink :icon_chick:
P.S. where is she by the way? has she grown wings and flown away? :(
So sorry it took that to get you some help, but very glad that it worked.
Tell mom to come on. We'll treat her like royalty!
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fganjataz.com%2F01smileys%2Fimages%2Fsmileys%2FloopyBlonde-blinking.gif&hash=4545ddf8251cf9c32ae6074d56e48bc34a755857)Kristi
Agh. This computer won't let me register, content blocker blocks that page. So my mom's gonna post on my name, but she'll sign with Lance's Mom or put it first in her posts that its her.
You're mom will be well cared for on here, believe me.
Quote from: Tink on May 25, 2007, 09:50:15 PM
As my angel says....chin up and all of that!
tink :icon_chick:
P.S. where is she by the way? has she grown wings and flown away? :(
Tink, she's probably got her feet planted firmly on the ground but reaching for the stars (or at least viewing them).
Beverly
That must've been scary for a bit? Glad that you're okay and everything, and that it seems all that has come out of it is good.
Every dark cloud does have a silver lining. I'm sorry it took that to get things moving for you, but glad they are moving for you.
If your mum has any questions she'd like to ask a post-transition guy and doesn't feel comfortable posting, she can shoot me a PM or an email at dennis@susans.org.
Dennis
Cool Dennis I told her. She might email or PM ya. Thanks.
Lance, sorry you had to reach those depths of despair to get the help for your GID. Take care of yourself, post and talk if it gets that bad again, ok? Good to hear your Mom is joining, it can only help both of you during your journey. Be good to yourself.
Hugs,
Rhonda
Hey! I used to own that name! You are welcome to it! It is a very cool name by the way!
I'm thrilled that you ended up in the phsyc ward..... not necessarily in how you got there.
But your mother is now involved and knows from medical professionals that you are not just wierd.
Way to go Lance!.... Oh geeez that sounds wierd to me... ;)
Cindi
damn dude that sucks. good to see your outta there.
Cool Cindi..the name was a compromise since that's what she would've named me. I'm having a hard time since I got out of there. Things are the same as they always were except my mom knows I'm not messing around saying I'm a boy.
Lance
Quote from: zombiesarepeaceful on May 27, 2007, 06:44:53 PM
Things are the same as they always were except my mom knows I'm not messing around saying I'm a boy.
Lance
And what way is that?
Still depressed, waiting for the meds to take effect I guess. Still wanna cut and everything got messed up when I was in the hospital. Got my phone taken away. Can't find half my things. Got behind at work. Almost like it was for nothing. I'm hoping some good will come of that psych appointment I have or else this was for nothing. My mom tells me I'm breaking her heart and act like since she got me discharged from there I owe her her daughter back. I feel the same and feel like nothing will change. Just wanna give up.
Lance
Quote from: zombiesarepeaceful on May 27, 2007, 09:07:44 PM
Still depressed, waiting for the meds to take effect I guess. Still wanna cut and everything got messed up when I was in the hospital. Got my phone taken away. Can't find half my things. Got behind at work. Almost like it was for nothing. I'm hoping some good will come of that psych appointment I have or else this was for nothing. My mom tells me I'm breaking her heart and act like since she got me discharged from there I owe her her daughter back. I feel the same and feel like nothing will change. Just wanna give up.
Lance
Dude it'll be cool. Things have a way of working themselves out.
Quote from: zombiesarepeaceful on May 27, 2007, 09:07:44 PM
Still depressed, waiting for the meds to take effect I guess. Still wanna cut and everything got messed up when I was in the hospital. Got my phone taken away. Can't find half my things. Got behind at work. Almost like it was for nothing. I'm hoping some good will come of that psych appointment I have or else this was for nothing. My mom tells me I'm breaking her heart and act like since she got me discharged from there I owe her her daughter back. I feel the same and feel like nothing will change. Just wanna give up.
Lance
Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problem. No matter how bad it may seem, it isn't worth giving up on. Things will not magically change overnight. As long as you keep a strong, positive attitude, things will begin looking up. I also know that seeing the brighter side isn't always easy either. I hit rock bottom too at one point and so did lots of other people in here. We all made it through and are much better people now because of it.
This is a national suicide hotline - 1-800-273-TALK (8255). I hope you will call them if you need a shoulder to lean on.
Don't give up, things will turn. Your mom is probably just going through stages of grief right now (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance). You've now been diagnosed, she can't deny it forever.
Hang in there.
What ht and Renae said: hang in there, things will change and suicide is a much too permanent solution. You deserve the opportunity to live as you want to live and you'll deny yourself that if you do anything drastic.
If you need to reach out, do so.
Dennis
Lance,
Yes, many of us have been in the exact same situation you are in. We have made it. You can too. Really. Your mom will have a hard time. How long did it take for you to come to terms with this thing? It wasn't overnight was it? So, give her some time.
And if you ever need a shoulder, we are here. Make sure to post here first when you are feeling like doing something you'll regret.
Cindi
Quote from: zombiesarepeaceful on May 25, 2007, 08:27:45 PM
Turns out that's what managed to convince my mom we needed to do something about me being trans. They diagnosed me with GID and I got on anti-d's. They discharged me and my first appointment with the gender therapist is June 12th. My mom is starting to accept me now and learning what GID really is and we agreed that she'd let me change my name to what she would have named me if I'd been born genitically male, Lance.
Matt/Lance
This sounds to me like you've made
a lot of progress, especially the part about getting a therapist. and please be patient and kind to yourself.
Yeah but she's going back on it all now. I understand I'm 'breaking her heart'. I don't know if she'll really let me change my name before I'm 18. I know these meds aren't helping cuz I feel a little better then I get like my old self again. Sorry for that post. I get pretty low alot. I don't have the balls to kill myself, anyhow.
Lance
Keep at it, Lance. Persistence really pays off with depression treatment. Keep making noise. Tell the doc that you are not consistently feeling better. The dosage can be changed, or the med changed altogether. Same with the gender issues. Keep at it. Things will work out for you well, I bet!
Blessings, Tara
Quote from: zombiesarepeaceful on May 29, 2007, 11:53:13 PM
Yeah but she's going back on it all now. I understand I'm 'breaking her heart'. I don't know if she'll really let me change my name before I'm 18. I know these meds aren't helping cuz I feel a little better then I get like my old self again. Sorry for that post. I get pretty low alot. I don't have the balls to kill myself, anyhow.
Lance
Cheer up dude, you have made more progress before turning 18 than most of us did in our gender journeys. Being a teenager sucks, that is just how life goes. One thing you may want to try is just talking to your mother. Not all about transitioning either. Tell her how it makes you feel when she guilt trips you or doesn't listen to what you say. I know that talking about emotions and feelings is not a "guy" thing to do but it is a human thing to do. Calling your mom a bitch and blocking her out of everything doesn't solve a thing. Because of this, my mother and I didn't speak for almost a decade. That is ten years we can't ever get back either.
Take a deep breath and reaffirm your love to your mother. This little thing will go a long way.