Hi everyone,
Last night I decided to go on a night out into town with my brother, his friends and his new girlfriend. In any normal circumstance I would of plainly rejected the invitation but this time I decided "why not, how bad could it be?"
So I went out on the town, things started off slowly as I was very nervous and afraid as they eventually started telling me I need to get "Laid" as they do. The only problem was that I didn't want to, I wanted to be a girl first more than anything. So I kept it to myself and after 4 more beers though I started loosening up, and you could probably guess what happened next.
I told them, but it felt absolutely great. Why did I hide in the first place? Maybe it was because I didn't know what their reaction would be but once I did they were super supportive. We hugged and everything, even told my brothers new girlfriend. Haha, we were both jumping around afterwards. :D
She asked if I wanted to go shopping at some point, I said yes almost instantly. Will have to book some time off work to do so but I'll spend a whole day shopping I hope. I need some new clothes anyway.
Then eventually the night came to a close, first time I'd actually spent the whole night out with people. The only downside is that even though I can keep myself under control even after 7 or more beers, my stomach cannot. I don't think I need to explain anymore than that. I physically cannot keep alcohol down that well.
But oh well, I'm not too bad now after finally getting some sleep. Now I just have to wait and see for the sober reaction from them :D
I'll bet the sober reaction is going to be very much the same. If their reaction was going to be bad I think the alcohol would have brought it out.
You drink like a girl! :D
It's ok so do I! ;)
Glad you had a good time and the night went well. I can't spend more than ten minutes with other people because I am uncomfortable with who I need to be when I'm out. I don't live as Stefanie yet, so going out after work with coworkers or just out with anyone else is like shaking hands with a rattle snake.
I hope you have fun with your new shopping friend! Be sure to perform a virtual fashion show so we can se how cute you are!
Haha, thanks for that Bee. It may be a while, I haven't even started HRT yet and my body hair still needs a good ripping off.
I know what you mean though, I was very unsure about going out as I was afraid I may just end up looking like a complete freak. However I think everyone else was just as drunk as I was or even more so as I can control it. So I think it was alright for the most part.
Just when I get back home though, one thing I recommend is not lying down. As soon as I lye down it all kinda boils up. Don't go to bed, give it a couple of hours.
May take a while yet though before she'll actually go shopping with me, though I've decided to let my hair grow. And boy does my hair grow, really quickly. Its not just my body hair which grows really quick. I've gone from fairly short hair to hair half way down my neck within 2 ish weeks. Give it a month or so and I'm gonna go and have it styled and my eyebrows shaped.I don't think I'll bother spending a fortune on a nice wig as I probably wouldn't need it for very long.
In the meantime, I have to reduce or get rid of these damned spots on my cheek, they have been there for ages and its about time I got rid of the damn things.
And with my psychiatrist appointment next week, you never know. I may be able to start HRT sooner rather than later. My doctor said she wasn't happy to prescribe me the pills but would be more than happy to continue or prescription if it was done by the psychiatrist. But for this kind of therapy I have to have approval by a psychiatrist to start anyway.
Its just I'm not a very confident talker, I'm very shy in person. Especially when talking to new people.
But I'm a completely confident person when I'm texting, writing or typing. My work colleague said I was like 2 completely different people in person and via chat. She got to know the real me which is really cool.