Well ive officially made it through 7 months of HRT and i feel amazing! It is definitely time to come out to everybody soon because it is getting difficult to hide it! my boobs are getting way to big too hide this summer, not to mention i just look plain girly! Im sure my co-workers are wondering about, me they have to notice :) It will be very hard coming out to people around here and i dread it (small town), i may have to move to a bigger city than 800 people....
i plan on posting comparison pics of before HRT and how i look now
Quote from: LilyoftheValley on April 03, 2013, 09:43:51 PM
Well ive officially made it through 7 months of HRT and i feel amazing! It is definitely time to come out to everybody soon because it is getting difficult to hide it! my boobs are getting way to big too hide this summer, not to mention i just look plain girly! Im sure my co-workers are wondering about, me they have to notice :) It will be very hard coming out to people around here and i dread it (small town), i may have to move to a bigger city than 800 people....
i plan on posting comparison pics of before HRT and how i look now
That is a very good news, I realise that when you started HRT at early age, it is always better than late. You made a good decision to start when you were young. I started it when I was 27, so I didn't feel the effect change significant at the beginning. Are you currently on full time dressing for work?
Quote from: saraharmstrong on April 03, 2013, 11:27:22 PM
That is a very good news, I realise that when you started HRT at early age, it is always better than late. You made a good decision to start when you were young. I started it when I was 27, so I didn't feel the effect change significant at the beginning. Are you currently on full time dressing for work?
That is one hurdle i have yet to face is how to approach dressing at work, the problem is that it is 4 brothers who own the company and they are all extremely religious and I am 99% certain that situation would be intolerable for them and i mean it in the kindest way, the only reason i give the 1% benefit of a doubt is that i am a reliable employee and am on good standing with them. And even if they did accept me they would have to try to find somthing else for me to do there because i am becoming physically....the wrong match for my current job, i just am getting weaker and find myself getting tired more easily than i used to. However i must come out and go full time soon, if only because the season change is FORCING me to out myself, there is no way i can go into the summer and pass as a male my boobs are getting rediculously big to the point where they get in the way, i love them so much i cant help but massage and feel them sometimes they are unreal, not to mention my skin is softer, my face is getting downright girly, my eyes have been girlish for at least 4 months now, my hair is the longest it has ever been and is turning to flowing curls, i have curvature in my body that never previously existed, my butt is definitely bigger, i catch myself shaking my hips when i walk around work and it is subconcious i dont even do it on purpose...... but no they are just keeping to themselves not saying anything about it
I still have many leaps to take before i am full time
I am not even out to most of my family only my mom knows about it she has only known for a few days and just hasnt said anything about it. She just talks to me as she always has.
All in all it is just complicated situation for me, I am in a state of bliss, with the lingering feeling of my impending doom approaching closer every day, i will not have a job. If i had a larger network in the trans community i would just get out of this place and find somewhere more accepting to go...anywhere.. But for now i feel trapped in this tiny town, with people who will turn against me when they realize how different i am and i pretty much need to run away from home if i plan of getting anywhere in life...
I am very interested in seeing the difference. I've been considering starting HRT but I'm afraid if I do my outward appearance wont be how I feel on the inside and it scares me. I really really want to get started but.. yea. Also does your voice change or is that something you have to practice and force?
-Erin
Quote from: chaoticmind on April 04, 2013, 03:23:10 AM
I am very interested in seeing the difference. I've been considering starting HRT but I'm afraid if I do my outward appearance wont be how I feel on the inside and it scares me. I really really want to get started but.. yea. Also does your voice change or is that something you have to practice and force?
-Erin
My understanding is that voice is changed through learning. That will come in time. But like so many things it needs effort and work.
As for worrying
if I do my outward appearance wont be how I feel on the inside and it scares me. What sort of outward appearance does your inside want?
That which is described by LilyoftheValley isn't very different from that which many have experienced. Not all and to be honest, like all things, it takes some effort.
Can you be a little more specific about your fears?
chaotic if you know it is right for you then go for it, the longer you wait the less time to improve yourself you have! ;)
what are you scared of as far as appearance?
Quote from: LilyoftheValley on April 04, 2013, 12:57:20 PM
chaotic if you know it is right for you then go for it, the longer you wait the less time to improve yourself you have! ;)
what are you scared of as far as appearance?
This! ^^
Im scared I wont look like how I feel. That im too manly and will never have the soft features I've longed for. But your right... if I really feel this way I need to get started. Im 27 and wasting tims is simply that... wasting time.
Im sorry this topic was derailed ill just creep some more and listen.
I would sell my soul to get the results and feelings of the OP. However, I feel like Erin does... that my inner and outter won't match.
Please do post something to compare for all us scaredy-cats, please. I wish you luck! Tell your employer(s) in private and then if they want you gone, you have only one choice.
Quote from: LilyoftheValley on April 04, 2013, 01:02:19 AM
That is one hurdle i have yet to face is how to approach dressing at work, the problem is that it is 4 brothers who own the company and they are all extremely religious and I am 99% certain that situation would be intolerable for them and i mean it in the kindest way, the only reason i give the 1% benefit of a doubt is that i am a reliable employee and am on good standing with them. And even if they did accept me they would have to try to find somthing else for me to do there because i am becoming physically....the wrong match for my current job, i just am getting weaker and find myself getting tired more easily than i used to. However i must come out and go full time soon, if only because the season change is FORCING me to out myself, there is no way i can go into the summer and pass as a male my boobs are getting rediculously big to the point where they get in the way, i love them so much i cant help but massage and feel them sometimes they are unreal, not to mention my skin is softer, my face is getting downright girly, my eyes have been girlish for at least 4 months now, my hair is the longest it has ever been and is turning to flowing curls, i have curvature in my body that never previously existed, my butt is definitely bigger, i catch myself shaking my hips when i walk around work and it is subconcious i dont even do it on purpose...... but no they are just keeping to themselves not saying anything about it
I still have many leaps to take before i am full time
I am not even out to most of my family only my mom knows about it she has only known for a few days and just hasnt said anything about it. She just talks to me as she always has.
All in all it is just complicated situation for me, I am in a state of bliss, with the lingering feeling of my impending doom approaching closer every day, i will not have a job. If i had a larger network in the trans community i would just get out of this place and find somewhere more accepting to go...anywhere.. But for now i feel trapped in this tiny town, with people who will turn against me when they realize how different i am and i pretty much need to run away from home if i plan of getting anywhere in life...
I would think you should explain to the brothers in your company step by step. Hopefully, they will become understanding your situation. Obviously, there is no point to hide your boob as they are very important for a female. I recommend that you can actually dress for work as soon as possible. They can arrange you to work as an office girl if there is possible. I mean you can wear a top with skirt instead of dress. I am not sure if you are keen on wearing bra at this stage. Personally, I like multiway bra as they are more comfortable than the normal pair of bras. Would they accept it? You can also wear a tiny bit of make up if possible.
Quote from: saraharmstrong on April 04, 2013, 11:51:21 PM
I would think you should explain to the brothers in your company step by step. Hopefully, they will become understanding your situation. Obviously, there is no point to hide your boob as they are very important for a female. I recommend that you can actually dress for work as soon as possible. They can arrange you to work as an office girl if there is possible. I mean you can wear a top with skirt instead of dress. I am not sure if you are keen on wearing bra at this stage. Personally, I like multiway bra as they are more comfortable than the normal pair of bras. Would they accept it? You can also wear a tiny bit of make up if possible.
What do you mean explain to them step by step? please explain.
It is such a small company and there are already 2 office girls i do not see any place there.
I mean you can explain the situation to them slowly. Firstly, you could explain to them what transgender is and the definition of transgender but not crossdresser. Secondly, you can tell them about your situation and how you feel to be a girl. I am sure that they will understand that. Obviously, you have to mention that being a transgender girl, you can still continue your work without any problem. Actually, it sounds that you are in a good situation as you mentioned there are 2 office girls in the company you are working. I mean it would be easier for you in the working environment, wouldn't it? It should be easier to get along with female instead of male. What do they wear for work? Would it be possible to wear the same styles as the office girls?
Quote from: saraharmstrong on April 06, 2013, 05:44:42 AM
I mean you can explain the situation to them slowly. Firstly, you could explain to them what transgender is and the definition of transgender but not crossdresser. Secondly, you can tell them about your situation and how you feel to be a girl. I am sure that they will understand that. Obviously, you have to mention that being a transgender girl, you can still continue your work without any problem. Actually, it sounds that you are in a good situation as you mentioned there are 2 office girls in the company you are working. I mean it would be easier for you in the working environment, wouldn't it? It should be easier to get along with female instead of male. What do they wear for work? Would it be possible to wear the same styles as the office girls?
No i dont believe i can explain the situation to them with any success at all without being subject to hate. And i mentioned the office girls to explain the fact that there are already 3 of them there and that it is such a small company they would not need another.