The first second I saw my newly arrived son, mere moments after he had been delivered, my face hurt so much from the sheer pleasure of seeing him.
I want my son to some day know that much pleasure feel that much joy, experience such a sense of happiness.
Anything that takes that from him will make me sad.
Tomorrow if he said he was gay, I would not love him any less than 5 seconds after he was born.
He can't tell me he wants to be a girl and ruin anything for me. He will always be the joy I felt.
But I hope he some day gets that same gift.
I will die with a smile on my face, if I can say I witnessed my son being given this one treasure.
Naturally, I hope he is given someone to aid him in this plan of course. We don't get to have kids without a partner :)
It's not an obligation of his, nor a duty, nor will it lessen him in any way.
I just wish him to KNOW how great he makes me feel. And no, you don't get this feeling any other way.
Hey with luck, he gets to some day pass on this wish to his son or daughter.
That's the thing about transitioning at my age, I have already passed a lot of check points.
For those pondering transitioning before the age of 21, all I can say, is think long and hard, are you tearing out any pages you might want to have written on? Not everything in my past is bad.
I'm 19 years old and started transitioning when I was 18. I'd like to have kids some day. It is very important to me, but I've already decided that I'm 100% happy with potentially adopting when I'm older.
As weird as it might sounds, it does make me sad and bother me that I can't exactly carry children or be a biological mother. Someone used that point for the sole purpose of spiting me because he thinks its funny when I get defensive. I think even he got the idea that he stepped waaaaaaaaay too far there.