Hi, everyone! It's been a while since a posted, so I figured I'd drop in! I'm a little past the 11 week mark, and I have noticed some changes. For the first, oh, 8-9 weeks, I was on a very low dose, but in the past 2 weeks, I've been taking a pretty hefty dose. Anyway, I've notice some things in the past 11 weeks. Mostly just my skin getting smoother, softer, and lighter. I've also had some breast development, but not much. I'm a little concerned because my right nipple has about a marble size lump underneath it and my left has maybe a pea size or less. I'm sure they'll even out, but it is still worrying! Also, I'm sure that if my hair was better, it'd be easier to tell that my face has had some very minor changes. I still get very depressed about my hair. I'm at 11 months on finasteride. It has done a little to help, but not enough. I'm hoping the HRT boosts this, as I noticed a shed of hair for about the first month I was on spiro. Should I switch to dutasteride? Anyway, just my general concerns. I'm so ready to move forward and start dressing at least part time, so people will more easily gender me correctly, but my hair and my pending divorce are causing me too much grief. The divorce will be over soon, but I'm hoping I really can get my hair to a good place to have it corrected. I know that 11 weeks, especially since I was on a tiny dose, isn't much time, but sometimes I just feel like nothing will ever happen for me. I feel so alone, so I think this is why I'm back here, posting, hoping to find some comforting words from girls who truly understand how hard facing the world daily can be. Anyway, that's the end of my rant. Please tell me I'm not crazy! ;)
You are not crazy. It's almost impossible to change a developed male body into a female body.
Be cool, good luck young girl.
Finasteride??? Do you & any others think this is worthwhile??? I may try it.
Hi Abby I know exactly how you feel. I feel pretty alone sometimes. I'm not going thru a divorce but I am in a bad place with my family and in a year or so I will have no family anymore if I keep transitioning. And I'm not going to stop. If that's the price I have to pay to be happy, so be it. It seems kinda silly now thinking that they would accept me. I think the important part is keeping your heart and ability to love in tact so you can meet new people and start over and make a better family and be a new person who is honest with themselves and has integrity.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on May 01, 2013, 08:38:41 PM
You are not crazy. It's almost impossible to change a developed male body into a female body.
Be cool, good luck young girl.
Finasteride??? Do you & any others think this is worthwhile??? I may try it.
Finesteride can be useful in blocking DHT which will halt feminization if it is present. I don't think I have this problem though as I'm getting pretty decent feminization. Also, I have seen plenty of late 20s/early 30s transitioners like myself who are 100 percent passable. I think the OP has a lot of potential judging by the avatar.
Quote from: Joanna Dark on May 01, 2013, 08:58:52 PM
Hi Abby I know exactly how you feel. I feel pretty alone sometimes. I'm not going thru a divorce but I am in a bad place with my family and in a year or so I will have no family anymore if I keep transitioning. And I'm not going to stop. If that's the price I have to pay to be happy, so be it. It seems kinda silly now thinking that they would accept me. I think the important part is keeping your heart and ability to love in tact so you can meet new people and start over and make a better family and be a new person who is honest with themselves and has integrity.
Finesteride can be useful in blocking DHT which will halt feminization if it is present. I don't think I have this problem though as I'm getting pretty decent feminization. Also, I have seen plenty of late 20s/early 30s transitioners like myself who are 100 percent passable. I think the OP has a lot of potential judging by the avatar.
Agreed. I've seen HRT produce astounding results.
Thank you so much for the responses! I'm feeling a bit better today. Do you really think that I have good potential for feminizing? I feel like, sometimes, that ill never get to where I'll be accepted as female! Oh, how I wish I would've started at an earlier age! I'm approaching 30 in just 4 months and I'm very concerned that I may have missed my window. :-( I have been worrying about this since even before starting hormones. Now that I have, I feel I'm not developing as quickly as other girls on here. I didn't have any breast pain until nearly 2 months in. Granted, I was on a super lose dose of estradiol, but there are some girls on here that had breast tenderness after just a few days of estrogen by itself. I try not to worry about it all, but I can't help it! I feel like somehow I'm going to end up some sort of halfway girl. The fact that one breast has a bump the size of a marble or more and the other is nearly non existant doesn't help to calm the worrying! Sorry to go on and on! My mom is worrier. I guess it runs in the family. :-/
Yeah - I have been shocked by how much HRT alone changed me. I started at 32 and got what I consider terrific results, so there's plenty of hope. :)
(also, those bumps are breast buds, which are the very beginning of breast growth; they don't mean anything at all about how the final result will look. Some cis girls get them *years* before seeing any visible growth, and they mostly end up just fine! Plus having boobs be a bit uneven is also 100% normal.)
Abby,
I also have taken finasteride to prevent hair loss. It takes 6 months to see the effect.
Barbie~~
Quote from: Abby J on May 03, 2013, 07:51:28 AM
Thank you so much for the responses! I'm feeling a bit better today. Do you really think that I have good potential for feminizing? I feel like, sometimes, that ill never get to where I'll be accepted as female! Oh, how I wish I would've started at an earlier age! I'm approaching 30 in just 4 months and I'm very concerned that I may have missed my window. :-( I have been worrying about this since even before starting hormones.
Abby you haven't missed you window I was still 33 when I started HRT. And it seems to be working just fine for me. Thirty is a good age when your younger everybody thinks thirty is the end of the world and your old. And its not to be honest I really didn't start living until I was thirty. Abby your going to be fine and I believe you will get to the point of being accepted as female you just have to give it some time.
Abby, it seems you are moving forward as best you can. 11 weeks is not much time as we all know. Good luck to you & just try & relax for HRT to make some changes.
We all wish we had started earlier in our lives. I tried some HRT/RLE back in college days/late teens & so many times earlier in my life. Age 30 is just fine, you are not too old at all to have a very normal happy life as things change & improve.