Hello to everyone.
I have been lurking for a few days and wanted to introduce myself. I 'think' I am M2F. My current therapists suggested very strongly, that I venture outside my comfort zone and get support from others that share similar life experiences. So, here I am. I have about a billion questions, but taking my time in asking them.
To describe me, you only need one word, FEAR. All my life I have been afraid, of what, only recently, has that become clear. I have hidden myself from everyone, even myself for so long, that I was terrified someone would see through my disguise. Little did I know that that someone would finally be me. It has been easy to hide, because I am attracted to women. Funny I have been called gay before, and little did they know that I do think that of myself, just not in the way that they thought. This was also a burden in that my true nature was easier to hide from myself, I couldn't be TG because I was attracted to women. Oh ye of limited experience.
I am married with 2 children, 24 and 19. not really children, but they are to me. My wife knows about my gender identity issues but the kids do not. I guess they do, children are smarter than us parents believe them to be, but I haven't officially come out and probably won't for awhile. I want to be certain, or more certain, of who I am before I burn that bridge. My wife is not happy, but she is supportive and she is more than I could ever hope. I fear losing her, but this has become more than both of us. If I do not pursue this then I will most assuredly cease to be. She has saved my live literally several times. So I feel guilty asking this of her now. But I also feel I have no choice.
I'll stop for now so this does not become a wall of text, but reserve the right to continue at any time.
Greetings all,
Christy.
Hi Christy :icon_wave:
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Hugs
V M
Hi Christy,
Welcome to the fun house.
I think you will find people of every sort of experience here.
So start asking away.
Hugs
Cindy
Hi Christy, :icon_wave:
Welcome to our little family. Over 11108. That would be one heck of a family reunion.
Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams. Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.
But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister. (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fsmileys.on-my-web.com%2Frepository%2FAnimals%2Fferret-3.gif&hash=f49e2f86761323f2abd9c33941920389dbb3b10f)
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Janet )O(
Thank you for the welcomes. It means a GREAT deal to me for anyone else to accept me just for being me.
Thanks,
Christy.
Hiya Christy, glad you are here, this is a good place for introspection. ;)
Welcome to the site, Christy. Many of us have experienced the same thing you are presently. Ask any question that you have.
:)