So today I have officially reached out to a gender therapist and plan on starting the process. As some of you may know, I have been avoiding the starting parts of my transition that could out me while living at home. But, I really can't hold myself up anymore and have decided to just move forward. Because I am on my parents insurance, there really is not much time for hiding anymore. It's only a matter of time before they catch on. However, I have been writing a very long coming out letter that I hope will gain their acceptance.
It's a very weird feeling to say the least. On the one hand, I am very scared about getting rejected and losing the support of my mother (which I need because I live at home and don't have the ability to move out). But on the other hand, I am finally going to be able to start transitioning and leave the past behind. While I have gone to support groups, came out to friends and started to feminize myself to a degree, I forced myself into a closet that wouldn't allow me to make the progress that I needed. Now, I just have to destroy that damn closet,lol. Even though this is not much of a start, I am super excited and it's a big deal to me. I'm just hoping it won't take forever to get on hormones because I need to start soon.
I wanted to share this with everyone because you have all been so helpful and supportive. I can't express how much it has meant to me. Thank you for helping me gain the courage to finally make a start. I've held myself back for years because of fear of rejection and concerns about my families reaction. The support here has really enabled me to put things into perspective. For that, I am grateful.
I'm so so so so happy for you! Make sure you let us know how the appointment with the gender therapist goes!
Good luck, stay strong and keep us in the loop!
The very best of luck, and may your family give you a positive surprise with their response. :)
Awesome!
Good luck :)