I've been feeling like I'm in a middle-ish part of the gender spectrum for a while now. I have read stories about other transgender people who are devastated by being born in the wrong body and this cripples their daily existence. I'm grateful to say that I don't feel that way.
My gender dysphoria used to be much worse growing up. At around 18 or 19, I came out to my immediate family and closest friends, who accept me. I've also grown my hair out and have incorporated various feminine "items" into my life (girly fragrances, jeans, yoga pants, been experimenting with makeup). And my dysphoria has really just subsided for the most part.
There are times I still feel at odds with being treated by the rest of society as a man, and of course, if I could magically become a bio woman I would. For now, I feel ok with who I am, I'm even ok with "down there" for now.
I'm just really worried that one day my dysphoria would come back with a vengeance, and any inner peace that I may have found crumble before me. Also, I don't know if I'd be convincing enough as a woman if I ever do decide I need to transition: I'm about 6'2'' and a woman's size 12 shoe :(.
I feel that there's something unique about me that would be lost if I just completely go to female. Maybe one of the advantages of being transgendered is the chance to look at things from both a man's and a woman's perspective? All this has really made me define myself as a human being rather than a male or a female. :)
Perhaps reviewing your thoughts with a gender therapist may help you to explore further your identity.
X well you could always save up money and if it does come back handle it at that point however you feel necessary . After all no need to jump the gun and do something you might regret