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Title: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Ryan B. on August 20, 2013, 03:43:06 PM
A little background... Last November I quit my job due to anxiety and began babysitting for my sister and her husband.  The deal was that I worked Wed-Fri and occasionally Tuesday if my bro-in-law got mandated. Well, sometimes he skips out on work and everyone else pays for it.  He missed so much work one month that they couldn't afford groceries so me and my parents had to use our money to buy them some so the kids could actually eat.  When he skips out, I also have to still babysit because the lazy ass won't get out of bed.

Well, guess what happened today.  I had the kids while he stayed home and slept. I got fed up after a few hours and took the kids back to their house. I planned to stay there with them until he got his ass out of bed.  Their front door was locked... And they never bothered to give me a key to their house. So I try the garage, since I know the code. Again no dice. Went back to the front door and rang the doorbell to try to get him to answer the door. No dice... This time I was pissed though.

As we were leaving to go back to my house I sent him a txt, expressing my displeasure. Perhaps not the most mature thing, but all it said was that I was very ******* angry with him.  I got a txt back but waited till I got home to read it. Apparently he was awake, but couldn't be bothered to get out of bed to answer the door... Needless to say he went off on me and after that I went off on him. Only difference being no name calling or extremely rude remarks on my side. Only honesty and frustration.... Which I suppose probably only made him more angry.  I feel like this was a long time coming though from all the crap I've put up from him...

Anyways... By the end of this I was physically shaking and my anxiety was at an all time high. I've been worrying about it all day. I may have been in the wrong, but I just really needed to get it off my chest to try to calm my anxiety.
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Sammy on August 20, 2013, 03:54:00 PM
Hey, I just wanted to remind that tomorrow is the full moon and I have seen people all around acting weirdly. It is quite typical and normal for those days in month - its just us and nature... um and astronomy ;). I know it does not help, but at least it gives some reasoning :)
Take care and be safe!
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Danielle Emmalee on August 20, 2013, 04:01:21 PM
Quote from: -Emily- on August 20, 2013, 03:54:00 PM
Hey, I just wanted to remind that tomorrow is the full moon and I have seen people all around acting weirdly. It is quite typical and normal for those days in month - its just us and nature... um and astronomy ;). I know it does not help, but at least it gives some reasoning :)
Take care and be safe!

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Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Athena on August 20, 2013, 04:04:44 PM
I can't say anything about the Brother in law but as for anxiety, find something that calms you. When I used to work for a bakery and used to suffer from anxiety I would go sit by myself and drink a can of coke and that was enough to get me through the rest of the day. Find what calms you and savour it let it fill you with calm.
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Ryan B. on August 20, 2013, 04:13:48 PM
Quote from: -Emily- on August 20, 2013, 03:54:00 PM
Hey, I just wanted to remind that tomorrow is the full moon and I have seen people all around acting weirdly. It is quite typical and normal for those days in month - its just us and nature... um and astronomy ;). I know it does not help, but at least it gives some reasoning :)
Take care and be safe!

Interesting oO. I guess it's not really like me to be so confrontational. I feel like my anger has just been building up a lot over the past few months and haven't had anywhere to direct it until no though.  I guess that doesn't make the situation better though...

Quote from: White Rabbit on August 20, 2013, 04:04:44 PM
I can't say anything about the Brother in law bu as for anxiety, find something that calms you. When I used to work for a bakery and used to suffer from anxiety I would go sit by myself and drink a can of coke and that was enough to get me through the rest of the day. Find what calms you and savour it let it fill you with calm.

I think just posting this here helped a lot. I'm still anxious but I feel like a weights been lifted.
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Ryan B. on August 20, 2013, 04:15:21 PM
Quote from: Alice In Genderland on August 20, 2013, 04:01:21 PM

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Lol.  :)
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Athena on August 20, 2013, 04:31:09 PM
Well then I expect to see more posts from you then :)
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: SaveMeJeebus on August 21, 2013, 01:43:53 PM
Bit late reading your topic Ryan, sorry. Your brother-in-law sounds like a bit of a douche. It makes me wonder what can be done.... As for shaking, that sucks to hear. I hope you're feeling better now :]
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Ryan B. on August 21, 2013, 08:37:01 PM
Quote from: White Rabbit on August 20, 2013, 04:31:09 PM
Well then I expect to see more posts from you then :)
No promises ><;

Quote from: SaveMeJeebus on August 21, 2013, 01:43:53 PM
Bit late reading your topic Ryan, sorry. Your brother-in-law sounds like a bit of a douche. It makes me wonder what can be done.... As for shaking, that sucks to hear. I hope you're feeling better now :]
Yeah, feeling better today.  Not really much I can do about him though.  I think I'll just do what I can to avoid him for now.
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: Athena on August 21, 2013, 10:55:36 PM
Quote from: Ryan B. on August 21, 2013, 08:37:01 PM
No promises ><;

None of that, if it makes you feel better then post.
Title: Re: Anxiety at an All Time High
Post by: SaveMeJeebus on August 22, 2013, 04:32:51 AM
Quote from: Ryan B. on August 21, 2013, 08:37:01 PM
No promises ><;
Yeah, feeling better today.  Not really much I can do about him though.  I think I'll just do what I can to avoid him for now.

Good to hear you feel better today(yesterday ???). Avoiding could work.... He won't be able to rely on you at least.