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Community Conversation => Transgender talk => Topic started by: Lesley_Roberta on August 21, 2013, 07:58:58 AM

Title: My actual list
Post by: Lesley_Roberta on August 21, 2013, 07:58:58 AM
I suppose a lot of us will have a list that might look similar.

My list, it really isn't what I suppose many will expect.

Transition ie remodeling the male form into a female form, it's not even in the top 3.

Oh it is definitely important to me, but, the waiting line has been formed a long while ago.

Number 1, has always been 'get a shop'. Not sure it is ever going to happen, and thanks to my health, not sure there will ever be a point to succeeding. Still, every time I make the list, there it is always camped out in number 1 spot.

Number 2, find myself living in a house. Doesn't need to be owned, rented is ok, but, I miss not having a basement, a backyard, and trees. No point in expecting this to ever happen on my income, and I am almost the age where people start day dreaming about moving to a place more suitable to retire in.

Number 3 oddly enough, I wish I had a train layout. Yes I know an odd thing to get in ahead of hair breasts and a vagina :)

Number 4 is all the stuff people likely would expect to be number 1 around here.

If I had 1,2 and 3, chances are I would still want number 4, but my life would be sufficiently content, I would not be in as much of a rush.

But I don't have 1,2 and 3, and as a result I have nothing to do for the most part with my day, to keep me from spending too much time thinking of number 4.

If I had to say a number 5 to round out the usual top 5, I suppose it would be to go back to being always stuck in a book, unable to notice all the things in the world that distract me, disturb me, and depress me.

Transitioning, ie the whole mess of converting one life into another, I suppose it bothers more than it might bother me, but, I have had 20 years of getting used to disability saying no I can't have.... So it has tempered my urgency to get around to getting a wig, so I can see if there is even any chance, so I can know if there is a point to thinking about finding a skirt that looks good on me. I have gotten too used to just assuming the answer will be no.
Title: Re: My actual list
Post by: E-Brennan on August 21, 2013, 09:11:49 AM
Interesting list, especially #3.

But more interesting is the idea that because you lack the first three things on the list, you've got too much time to think about transition.  This is exactly how I feel - when I'm busy, my TG issues really are pushed to the side.  They tend to surface when I'm at a loose end, and that's when I find myself obsessing over them.

I think that given similar things (in my case, a pretty little house to fix up, a job that was more challenging, and a hobby) I'd also find that transition would become a little less urgent.  I doubt it would disappear, but I'd be too busy with day-to-day life to spend hours dreaming about boobs and long hair.