Those things you really need to stop doing, and would actually improve your life, but no matter how hard you try, it's impossible.
Mines:
- Procrastinating: Exceptionally bad with regards to cleaning. I always seem to postpone big operations until it's absolutely necessary. If I only use one dish , I may leave it there in the sink until I have enough dishes. Some things can remain on the floor for days until they are a real danger, and I don't want to talk about clothes. I can see two socks and a slip from here and probably I won't even pick them when I get up for coffee, despite having the dirty clothes basket 30 cm away from me. New things that it's harder to find a them a place to leave them next to the entrance, and clothes still hanging a long time after they are dry. I can't seem to actually clean until I am rather bored. When I arrived here it was completely different, but depression brought procrastination, and I can't seem to remove it.
- Whining: If I am depressed, I need to broadcast it to nearly everybody. Let's face it: Being gloomy all the time doesn't help with socialicing, but whenerver I enter that mood stage, It's like everybody needs to know about it.
So, what do you want to get rid of?
Ye gods! I could procrastinate for my country! Your home sounds a lot like mine, although I have to say things are gradually improving.
Lack of focus (due to dysphoria) is really starting to impact my life. Hopefully the first big fix (AA's) will be starting in 2 months, but I REALLY really wish it were sooner. Meanwhile, I'm trying to focus and failing... I was about the most focused person in the world before coming out.... I guess I still am, but my focus lies elsewhere :(
Anger and irritation. I usually have acceptable reasons when I get angry - and it doesn't happen often. I am much more irritable now, though. I'm also hoping for the same fix there... AA's should help that?
Thoughts of suicide tend to distract me from my school work, i also tend to avoid people since i have had few good times with others.
Need to stop over-thinking things, because i will usually find a reason on not doing something.
Haha!
Procrastinating: Guess what I'm doing right now.
Whining: Guess what I do whenever I feel...
Loneliness: It brings me nothing of value, gets in my way, and uses up time and energy that would be better spent elsewhere.
Impatience