I've been in a depression for three years now. And I'm tired of being depressed and feeling like I have nothing to live for. Next year I want to transition. That is my goal. I have had a very difficult time trying to find a therapist who actually is educated in treating transgender individuals. Every therapist I have gone to I have had a negative experience. Every one of them has focused on my sexuality and asked me how I know I am a boy if I've never been in a boy's body. I've tried to explain to them that sexual orientation is different than gender identity and that the best way I can explain that I know I am a boy is that it is my sense of self. It is who I am. I don't need to pretend to be like a boy or act like one. I am a boy. The last therapist I went to was ridiculous. In my last post I explained what happened so if you want to know you can read my last post. I really don't want to explain it again because I am still healing from that terrible experience. It seems like every time I see a therapist I end up feeling worse than before I saw them. That is why I am hesitant is seeing a therapist again. But I know that in order to start my transition I need to see a therapist. I just afraid of having one bad experience with a therapist after another. It seems like all therapists that I have seen have thought that I was attracted to women (even though I never told them my sexual orientation) and that I wanted a penis. I am looking for an online therapist. It's hard for me sometimes to ask for help, but I'm getting better at it. So if anybody wouldn't mind if I could possibly email anyone one of you and we could just talk about some of the things I'm going through. As of right now I can't find a therapist so I really have no one to vent to. I'm also 18 years old. I have so many things that I want to do in the future. But I need to be myself. I need to live my life authentically. My email is rpayne91@yahoo.com.
Hi baby! Go to my introduction "Jessica Merriman" after you read it PM me and we will talk. OK? BIG HUG!! :)